Roses Are Not in Love
I Must Calm Down.

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Four days passed happily for me personally and especially for Aliena and Adit. The brief togetherness as a full family member is enough to be doping for Aliena. So the trip back to Kota G today was fun with Aliena and Adit jokes in the back seat.

What about Aliena's father's reaction after I refused two days ago. His attitude returned to how it used to be, cold. But, again I do not want to bother about it, as long as it does not affect children. It's just, Adit's big enough to know everything by observing.

Do I have to say that Adit was a victim of a divorce between me and his father.? It shouldn't be, but what I saw from Adit was different. How he hid his feelings, so that we parents would be comfortable, was quite a blow to me. Adit was hurt by our farewell.

Adit knows I'm not his biological mother, but Adit grew up with me and my love is sincere for him. Therefore, if Adit feels his feelings are ignored over our selfishness of the parents, I can understand that. Luckily though, Adit is not so introverted because he has Om Affin next to him.

"Dad, we stopped at a tourist spot at that time. Aliena's gonna play there." Strangled Aliena as soon as the car we were driving had started to get out of City A.

"Can." Short and clear. He did not even look at me at all to ask for my consideration.

I deliberately looked at her long enough, so that she would know that I was next to her as Aliena's mother, who knew how Aliena was doing .

"Just say, I won't be able to hear what you're debating in your heart." He said flat without looking at me.

His attitude like that made me shake my head and I was grateful for my decision the other day. Because from here it's all pretty clear, what would happen to me if I accepted his invitation for a referral. He's still selfish.

"It's not good for Aliena to be in a hot spot for too long." Overshipped.

"We can find a comfortable place for Aliena." Still with a quick tone. Didn't know she, that it made the respeck I had built up painstakingly collapse instantly. If I can suppress my ego just for Aliena, why can't she. It's still my fault if he's pushing things too hard to fit his wishes.

"It doesn't take long, as long as Aliena knows it's there." Continue in a flat tone. He was angry with me, that's right. But, I can also be angry if I want to obey the feelings, plus with his own attitude I can also explode at any time. But I held him, for the sake of the child. Again for the sake of the child, and this is for the umpteenth time.

"For a long time or a little bit the same, it's too hot for Aliena."

"Don't worry too much." What he said, I didn't hear wrong. "I will prepare the needs of Aliena to be comfortable. Just shut up and follow." I would love to argue, if I did not look back and found Adit's face stiffened from hearing our little argument.

Finally, after driving for almost forty minutes with me chose to silence for the convenience of children. We also arrived at the tourist destination. It's not my first time here, because I used to come here with Aliena and Adit's dad. Which made me feel misunderstood.

I'm busy preparing Aliena, jackets, scarves, socks, all I've fitted. While Father Aliena and Adit are heading to the equipment rental place. Right, it didn't take long for everything to be ready, until the stroller for Aliena.

Leisurely march with the formation, I, Adit, and Father Aliena are pushing the Aliena carriage. We are like a family enjoying a vacation together.

"There was no mini zoo before, Mother when we came here." Adit said slowly.

"Mother and Brother have been here before, cheating. Why isn't Aliena invited." Aliena protest as soon as he heard Adit's words.

"Abang is still as small, Aliena. So Aliena still doesn't exist." Answer Adit.

"Why doesn't Aliena exist yet.?"

"Why yes, because you haven't asked Mother to." Adit's answer made Aliena even more curious.

"The baby's asking for food, Bang." As for changing the topic.

"Well, Alin wants to feed the Birds, too."

"Let Brother help." Adit deliberately took a small bucket of bird feed from my hand.

The two laughed happily at the Bird scrambling over the seeds thrown by Aliena and Adit. While I who was standing not far behind them also smiled looking at the two of them. If I may ask, I do not want this day to end just like that, because so happy I see Aliena and Adit can laugh together.

The rough breathing made me turn my head towards the direction the sound was coming from. His gaze luris forward towards Adit and Aliena. His face was flat with his hands folded across his chest, making a cold impression so pronounced. Perhaps, that was his magic power while inside the courtroom. Intimidation with an attitude that makes opponents daunted. And I admit it worked for me.

I saved my smile quickly as soon as his words slid just like that without thinking that it was painful.

"If their laughter goes away, that's one of the reasons it's you." It sounds heartless, but I can justify it.

However, did he not think that the decision I made also had a cause for him. The more I get here, the less I know the mindset that always wants to win alone. And the best way to deal with Aliena's father in silence, to keep this mind sane.

Various rides and places we have explored, and now we arrive at one of the places where we used to spend the night right when the sun went to dusk. The place has changed a lot, only the sound remains the same.

Same twilight with different taste. Yeah, all alternating. Because indeed this world is only a stopping place that will continue to alternate.

"We're gonna sleep in the tent, right, Dad.?" Aliena asked her father.

"He'em. Aliena was happy. Thank you, Dad." Aliena's little hands were embracing her father's body.

"Dad, let's take a photo together over there." Aliena spoke again while acting, namely by directly pulling his father's hand.

"Honey, it's afternoon. We clean up first yuk." My persuasion.

"No, take a photo first. Same with Mother, also Brother." Chortled.

Me and Aliena's dad looked at each other. An awkward look to be more precise. However, I also could not say anything to Aliena, as well as to Aliena's father.

We walked slowly to the lips of the estuary which seemed to sparkle with the twilight light. A huge fireball was flushed behind us standing, bouncing with the news of the mystery that was about to disappear with the depth of the night. Set in the twilight, we capture the moment with the carefree chatter of Aliena.

"Aliena is so happy today. Thank you Dad, thank you Mother, thank you Brother." Say it by swiping at us in turn. One small happiness for Aliena even though it is only a family wholeness through a photo.

"Return the love, unfortunately Mother." I answered while touching Aliena's nose. "Now let's get clean." I reached out to carry Aliena.

"Aliena wants to carry behind Brother's body." The answer.

"Abang tired, abbey carrying Mother only. Come on over here." I've been squatting in front of Aliena.

"Dad carried Abang ya." Answer Aliena.

"The gate is big." Cut Adit.

"It's okay. We race who gets to the bathroom first." Aliena's timpal again.

"Can, come. Quick Bang, get on Dad's back." Said Aliena's father excitedly.

"Let's hurry Mother, Aliena wants to win."

"Can't cheat, cook new brother want to ride on Dad's back, Alin same Mother has gone first." Pekik Adit spontaneous. And Aliena's laughter grew louder, as we were about to reach the public bathroom and Adit and his father were still left behind. Intentionally giving up of course.

Still notosan I opened the Aliena scarf and instantly my eyes widened as soon as I saw a red rash that was almost evenly distributed around the neck of Aliena. The feeling of worry immediately came to my mind, and it was like waiting for the arrival of Aliena's father who was only a few meters away seemed to take hours.

"It's okay, Mother. It doesn't hurt anymore. Because Aliena is happy today. So Mommy should also be happy do not like crying yes, Aliena is no longer sick." As if I knew what I was thinking, Aliena pulled over my hand that was still around her neck.

Not long after, Adit and his father walked away, with only seconds after saying that. Aliena is like a cloth that falls from its place hanging, limp and hollow in my arms.

"Alin, dear Aliena. Listen Mother." Try as calmly as I can. I kept calling out to Aliena who was gradually turning blue even though a small smile remained on her lips.

"Aliena, strong boy. Aliena's a great kid. It's seen you've come." I said as soon as Aliena's father arrived at my place with Adit's smile that instantly disappeared, as well as Aliena's father. I can't say anything, in the midst of the panic that Aliena's father was in. I cried too couldn't, I just felt that I should be stronger at this moment with a little smile of Aliena left on her lips. That's the only reason I need to calm down.

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