Roses Are Not in Love
Daffa POV.

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Daffa POV.

The sun was radiating with perfect blazing. The perfection of the afternoon sun seems to be able to tear the skin if someone remains outdoors. However, inside here is not demikan atmosphere. Here, it still feels cold misty with a blanket of sadness, especially for him who is standing facing the window staring far away somewhere.

There were no tears streaming down his cheeks nor did there be any laughter inhabiting his lips, and it had happened since three days ago. Even the fortitude and breadth of her heart I could not understand, as she remained steadfast without weeping to bathe Aliena to her memory. But that's what made me understand one thing.

His eyes were empty. In the past, I was too indifferent and underestimated his blank stare, his helpless gaze. Now, I realize. How painful it was for me, especially for him. I failed to keep her, I failed to pay off my promise to Melati. I failed as a man.

For three days, he kept it that way. No crying, no laughing. Silence doesn't talk to anyone. In fact, last night I saw Mom crying bitterly in front of her who was also not sleeping. He kept on like that and did repetitive activities, like a dazed person.

"Phence the Rose, Fa." Mother said by giving me a plate containing rice and side dishes.

"Mom.." I said long. You know what my reason is. Not that I don't want to, or even get too tired of the Rose as if the sadness was hers. I'm also sad, however I lost Aliena. But that doesn't mean I have to continue moping around by ignoring people near us.

"Take him talk. Only you who have never tried it, do it..!" Mother gave me no choice by affirming her last words.

Doubtful, finally I approached him who seemed unaware of my presence beside him. Dehem slowly on purpose I do, I don't know what I do myself.

"Said your mother hasn't eaten from yesterday, War. Eat it." He only glanced at the plate I was thrusting and then looked back out the window.

"I'm still full." I see the answer coming out.

"Port to eat, War." He turned his head back, but not to the plate I was thrusting. Except towards me. His gaze shone coldly, and only this time did I feel trepidation in the face of someone, what else was a woman.

"Forcing it is your favorite. I don't want to be like you." His words sounded like a hiss of hatred.

I was stunned for a moment and was still trying to understand the emotions of the Rose. "It's not like that. I'm also missing, Aliena."

"I told you, I don't want to be forced. Prangs.." At the push of the plate I was still holding and fell scattered with sounds that made Mother run to meet us.

"What's up." The words Mother stopped just like that and headed straight towards the Rose. "Come, sit down first."

Mother gestured me to clean up the mess and invited the Rose to sit not far from me who was cleaning the broken plate.

"Mom knows, you don't taste. It's okay, later if you feel hungry call me." I rubbed the Rose's head gently.

Mother continued to invite the Rose to talk, although sometimes it was not approved. And the look was empty. And it's been successful in making my chest hurt.

"Drink." Mother said while offering a glass of water that I just brought and only sahuti with a head by the Rose.

"Drink a little, let's calm down a little." I'm making a sound.

The eyes of the Rose, instantly moved towards me and returned the same gaze as before. Hatefully.

"I told you, I don't want to be forced.!" It was no longer a soft word that came out of the mouth of the Rose, but a hysterical word while standing up quickly.

"Why do you like to impose your will." He said again, pointing at me. "All this happened because you were happy to force."

"Hustt, eling, War. Eling. Astarghfirlloh. Come on, call it." Mother said while hugging the Rose who was expressing her emotions.

"Ndhok, Rose." Suddenly Mama was already on the doorstep by following the fallen bushel after seeing the Rose vent emotions that could not be controlled.

"You want me to eat. Well I'll eat." He said and immediately walked quickly towards Mama who was still glued to her place.

Whether because it was too shocked or confused, we were like glued to the spot when the Roses began to gather to scavenge food spilled from the bushel Bu Mega. Unknowingly it made my tears drip out without me stopping when the rice grain was on his axis to get into his throat.

"I'm sorry, War. I'm sorry, Mom." Mama who realized first quickly grabbed the hands of the rose that moved faster. "I'm sorry, Mother, you're the most guilty and the most coercive, until you're in a position like this." Mama tried to reach for the Rose, but faced a quick defeat with the Rose.

"Roses, what are you doing." Erik who had just entered was also shocked to see the Rose, while Mom and Mama with tears kept trying to reach the Rose.

With a quick movement, Erik immediately pulled the Rose's hand and with a single jolt the Rose immediately stood up. "You also forced me, Rik." His tone sounded singing, until it also made Erik not wrenching.

Erik's hand was released. "They told me to eat." Said the Rose while rounding his gaze towards all of us who could only remain silent. "And I eat too. Look." Look." The rose returned.

"Roses.." Screaming Mom and Mama simultaneously, but also can not move from his place, because the Rose immediately looked at him. And, ahh. His eyes are full of wounds, it hurts me a lot.

"War, just cry." Quickly, a body immediately gathered in front of the Rose and hid the Rose in her arms.

"No one will see it. I promise." The embrace of Rendi gets tighter as slowly the hands of the Rose stop scavenging and tightly grip the Rendi shirt.

The silence did not last long, because after that the slow stuffing of the Rose turned into a broken cry, which made everyone also cry bitterly. In all my life, only this time I saw a destruction in someone, despair and helplessness that could not be conveyed to others, and harbored it alone. And in this case, I am the biggest contributor. I'm a failed man.

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Two days ago Roses lay in the hospital ward after crying shockingly in Rendi's arms. And for these two days, the Rose seemed to be busy with her subconscious. I could deduce that, because every time I came to see her, there were some expressions on her face that I saw. Sometimes a smile appears on his lips, sometimes tears appear from his eyes.

The doctor said there is no need to worry, because the doctor gave a sedative for Roses, so that Roses can rest. In addition to Rendi, Daffin also took part in caring for Roses, as well as me and Adit.

This afternoon, I also invited Adit back to visit. Although, Adit clearly rejected me and expressed his hatred for me, I do not want to raise this matter without speaking carefully. Adit, being emotional, and I don't want anything to hang bad happen because of emotion.

"The coral, I had a very strange dream." Mawsr was already conscious, I thought as soon as I just opened the door and heard his voice.

"Dream, what dream.?" Reply Daffin.

"Emm, a lot." The rose paused her words and looked towards me who was walking slowly. "Well, did Daffa come too.? How can.?" The thin smile of the rose is upon me.

The confusion I showed towards Daffin, the same I saw on Daffin's face. And with a gesture of hand Daffin told me to follow what the Rose said.

"The coral that told Bang Daffa, if I was sick.?" Turning the Rose stared, and it was seen once by me that it was a spoiled look.

"No, Bang Daffa knew for himself that the Rose was sick." Answer Daffin.

"The coral since when do you have a beard.?" This feeling is foreign, I feel like I'm seeing Rose and Daffin dating. What really happened to the rose.?

"Ehh, but if you look at it, Mas Karang and Bang Daffa are a bit similar." The rose again mengumpum smile, like a big new child who is in love.

"Square." The sound of the door opening made Rose turn to look at the door and her eyes instantly changed as Adit walked in. Before long the Rose looked at us alternately while shaking slowly and then covering her face.

"It's not a dream, it's not a dream." Mumbled.

"Roses. Roses." Call Daffin over and over again.

"I'm not dreaming."

"Rose, look at me." Daffin said again as he shook Rose's shoulder, and Rose touched her quickly.

"Roses, Roses." Daffin did not want to give up and not the more Daffin tried, the more the Roses looked like confused and continued muttering, I did not dream. Until back, Rendi who became a tranquilizer for the Rose, like a hero.

"Fin, what happened to the rose.?" I asked Daffin, when we were outside the Rose's ward.

Daffin did not answer immediately, as it needed a definite answer to say it. "It seems, the Rose experienced a short term memory loss. He could remember the events of the years past, but he would have difficulty even forgetting the events he had just experienced. However, suddenly his memory will appear and after it will be like that. But, I'll do a review."

"Then, Rendi.?" I didn't continue, because I realized Daffin was looking at me with a gaze that I could understand as a fellow male.

Enough is enough, I have failed to become a Husband, Father and Brother, at least I do not want to fail to become a man by forcing my desire to the Rose. I don't want to be a real man by fighting, then letting go if there is no hope. And right now, that's what I saw from Daffin against the Roses.

Daffa POV end.

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