Roses Are Not in Love
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"I want it tonight." Bang Daffa's answer led me to close my eyes as Bang Daffa did.

This time there was no longer a way for me to retreat and get out of the great passion that was engulfing both of us. Every touch, every kiss, every hot breath that touched my skin made me lighten up and fly high under the bowels of Bang Daffa's burly body.

I melted like a burning candle, I lightened like cotton in the wind, I was like water carried by the current, the flow of passion Bang Daffa. I just continued to surrender with the intoxicating touch of Bang Daffa, until something that I had always cared for and I was proud of in the squad by Bang Daffa with great tenderness, and I took it off with sincerity for him.

The night is getting late, the rain is still dropping itself violently, while the world is covered with cold, cold, but not with the two of us who were precisely in the embroidery of a burning fire to get to a point with a sweat that became one, because there was no more bulkhead between my skin and Bang Daffa's skin, we fused under the thick blanket that was spraying our innocent bodies.

We continue to chase with the whimper and the breath that hunts. Under the dim light of our sleeping lamp we were as if we were scooping up every pleasure of unification like a traveler who finds water in the middle of the desert.

I was held so high by Bang Daffa with every tenderness that I felt reluctant to return to earth. And one word of the mantra made me tighten my hand on Bang Daffa's shoulder so that I wouldn't fall along with the collapse of Bang Daffa's body with breath still hunting the end of our fight to the top.

"I Love You." The word came out stammering with the hot breath I still felt stuck to my neck, making my chest warm up like something flowing through my womb. But, that warm doesn't last long. Because Bang Daffa again slammed me with greatness, when the word mantra was continued and not aimed at me.

"I Love You, Melati." I was under him, I warmed his bed, but someone else called him. My body stiffened.

Don't cry, just move my body I can't, until the subtle snoring of Bang Daffa made me realize that Bang Daffa had hurt me and insulted me so badly that all my pride fell with my tears that have now started to flow my cheeks no longer mamou unstoppable. He repeats every pain he gives me more than my heart can handle, and it may be eternal in my memory.

Picking up clothes that were scattered while enduring pain in one part of my body, I knew there was something much more painful than everything, my heart. Until without me realizing the tears do not want to leave my eyes goods for a moment.

Satisfying myself spilling tears in the bathroom, I kept trying to get myself sane. Let no blood flow from the blood that dries on the sepray as a sign of my folly that is washed away by passion and forget myself.

I forgot that man is only an angel with one wing. And can only fly if you hug each other tightly. Earlier, Bang Daffa was able to fly me to the stage of reaching the clouds with every softness.

But, I forgot. Consequences of flying after falling. And when Bang Daffa let go of his embrace, I realized I had flown too high and Bang Daffa had not forgotten to remind me of the earth. I fell as a fall, until the feeling I had a shapeless lash again. I'm numb.

Tell me I'm stupid, because I still survive in this apartment until morning comes even still want to prepare breakfast for someone who has snatched away my pride like footwear for him, he said, just because of one wish that one word would be said to restore my pride.

But, until after breakfast no word came out of his lips and it was precisely the cold attitude I found. It didn't realize to him that I was hurt so badly because of him.

"I'm going home." Lirihku in ahir from the silence of breakfast.

"Go home, I'll be here in a few days." His words made me hurry to leave even with one hope, that there would be a word where my heart would melt. But until I walked away, I didn't find that word.

"If your apology is so expensive for me to accept for taking it without love, at least thank someone who has given her purity with joy for falling asleep." My mind is staring at the door that has been closed as my heart for her.

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A week had passed and as long as there was no feeling at all that could support my chest, I was completely numb to Bang Daffa's humiliation that night. And for a week Bang Daffa had not returned home.

Not knowing who to tell with, also because of the taboo to tell others, making me more stressed, so that it resulted in decreased my health.

With a hot and dizzy body that seemed to not want to leave my head, I forced my body to rise from the sofa that supported my body to the door that was being knocked repeatedly. Not playing my body's reaction, once I saw who the person standing in front of me was with a flat face. Bang Daffa's.

Sliding my body to the side, I did not let my heart repeat the pain, therefore I let Bang Daffa pass without a word nor did I want to question him. And I chose to lock myself in the room afterwards.

The night came quickly, and I had no intention of getting out of my room, until a knock on the door made me rise from my bed.

"War, you're not cooking.?" Bang Daffa asked with a flat face, as if I were a maid to him. Didn't he ask me how I was after that night. I am the one who elevates my heart too much.

"No." I replied as I was about to close the door again, but was immediately blocked by Bang Daffa who went inside and saw some of the items I had prepared to take away tomorrow as I planned.

"I'm going to go." Overshipped. "That's what I wanted to say last night." I continued to deliberately look at Bang Daffa's eyes to let him know that I needed an explanation. What am I to him.

"Go, it's bell.." Hope is hope, I don't think Bang Daffa remembers what happened that night.

"Meeting with Kak Melati is the biggest gift of my life, then slowly belonging to Kak Melati moved to me. And being part of Adit as well as Bang Daffa is a great joy. But, occupying a place that does not belong to him is not true happiness, what else there is coercion between one of them. Like I promised, I've put everything back in its place. So let's split up." It smoothly came out of my lips, and it succeeded in making Bang Daffa's jaw harden.

"After you've climbed my bed." Bang Daffa's speech added to the wound incision that was still flushing his blood. "Why are you silent, Rose. Because I wanted so much to touch you, that you would warm my bed when you were on the moon."

My hardened hands squeezed the tip of my hijab, and already wanted to be outstretched slapping her face which was also no less humbling to me as she said. But, I don't want to stain my hands like her who has been stained in my heart.

I remember that Bang Daffa hated me so much when I was trying to keep a smile in front of him, so I smiled at him and said slowly. "Didn't Bang Daffa know exactly that it was my first."

Bang Daffa's jaw was hardening and his eyes were looking at me. "Tell me how much I have to pay as his compensation, the price of your personality." I swear by anything, I don't want to see anyone named Daffa again after this or any other life if it exists.

"In your perspective, the sense I have is no lower than dust. Yesterday I still wished for another word to come out of the lips of Bang Daffa, the person I once admired. And I also thought about asking for something else from Bang Daffa. But, this time I'm sure, I want something other than a divorce." I said with a confident tone even though my chest felt very tight made by him.

"Well, I'll divorce you. That way you won't have to stick with me anymore. Tell me what demands you want, so that everything can be dealt with quickly by my lawyers." Replied Bang Daffa in a tone no less certain.

"Nothing, just divorce me." I never thought that I was the one on the other side. But why is this still painful and stifling, until the tears that I always hold so as not to come out in front of Bang Daffa finally by itself betrayed me with a thunders without I can bend.

I just wanted to have some self-respect in front of Bang Daffa, so I didn't want to ask even more to ask that Bang Daffa allow me to stay beside him. I want to have the rest of my pride before Bang Daffa, by deciding that parting is better than having to be forever just a shadow.

"Let me step foot from here. You can have this house as a compensation from me." Said Bang Daffa in an angry tone, which I should have done, because I was the one who was the most at a disadvantage. "One more. You don't have to come to the trial, because it'll be faster if there's no mediation."

I do not know how big the wound caused by Bang Daffa. But, I believe that every wound will definitely find a cure. So do I.

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