Roses Are Not in Love
Ambyar Heart.

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Seven months went by, I didn't know exactly what was going on with me, because I couldn't remember anything properly. As far as I know, I'm getting closer to Rendi and my relationship with my family is getting better.

An understanding mother, a Father who always took care of me, and my Brother and best friend Erik. There are things that might be better if I don't remember them at all, because that's why it's possible that God purposefully removed them so that I don't harbor hatred.

Seven months, in addition to me spent on treatment I also get used to myself again pursue my old hobby, which is drawing clothes designs and sewing them. And always, the victims were Erik and his son. Yeah, I've been really diligent about drawing the couplenan shirt. What's more, Erik's son is very funny with his oreintal face.

And the one that was on my mind, it was so familiar there was also something that touched once on my chest. Although repeatedly trying to remember it, in fact it is the same. I couldn't get an answer to why the princess-style party dress design was so close to my heart. It was as if there was a close bond with me.

Again, perhaps because God loves me so much, that it does not allow me to remember past events so that I can peacefully move on with my life. And true, a short life with all this happiness I can enjoy without having to be burdened with mass.

I didn't completely lose my mass memory, I still memorized anyone in my family. And, what I think is foreign but also familiar is Rendi.

Rendi, no memories have emerged between me and Rendi, just a little story while I was still boarding out of town. Rendi, the little boy who was always trying to date me. And strangely enough, he still did that even though I turned him down two months ago.

From this moment on he did not meet me directly, but he was getting closer to my family. Especially his proximity to Erik, the cooker.

After I thought, two weeks without disturbing Rendi my world felt lonely too. And somehow, I missed his presence when visiting the house with a myriad of words unfaedaahnya that can make the whole house laugh with his clothes.

Looks like this week, I'll never see you again. Because after my last check up tomorrow, Bang Nusa and Bang Daffa invited us to walk. We, yes our dong. For there will be Erik and his son and wife. Bang Nusa and family. Bang Daffa and Adit, as well as Mas Karang and his close friends.

Bang Nusa said, I will enjoy the place he ordered. Bang Nusa said, although I can not remember the events that in my subconscious deliberately locked it so that I forget, but of course about the taste of the holiday I will still feel familiar and comfortable.

It really happened, because after Bang Nusa said so. I am so excited to be waiting this week. Likewise with my last check the day after tomorrow. And whatever the results are about the examination, I always think positive. For I think that whatever God's plan is about what I am going through, it is a rebuke that I may be a qona'ah in accepting every scenario that has been made against me.

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I swiped many times the picture frame complete with the contents. Her smile I can't remember, but it felt so close to my heart. Her smile was able to give me peace, the smile of a little girl named Aliena.

Alien. The doctor said she was my daughter who died seven months ago, but I don't remember anything about Aliena at all. Nonetheless, my heart warmed up because I knew I had a daughter as beautiful as Aliena. As to why and what caused Aliena to die, the doctor told me everything. But again, I can't remember it at all.

After the examination to the doctor, Bang Nusa invited me to visit the tomb of Aliena. Japanese grass has covered the entire surface of the ground, various flowers and a bunch of white roses that still look new are sown above until they reach the side of the navel.

Between sadness and sadness, because I still can't remember. And deep down in my heart, as if hearing the whisper that it was forbidden for me to shed tears.

Piling up next to her navel, I chanted a long do'a for my daughter, a daughter I can't remember but felt close to my heart. It felt like a great deal of my love for her, when every single one of the do'a temples I raced did not leave the local paradise for her.

"Impardize Mother. Because he never came here." I said while stroking his navel.

Aliena, that's the only name on there. But the name of his father is what makes me have to really convince that it is not written and true.

Daffa Rendra Bakti's. It was the name of Kak Melati's husband, my brother-in-law's name. Why is it written there too. Back, there was a secret that God did not want me to remember. And when I asked for clarity on Bang Nusa, Bang Nusa was hailed as an answer. I get it, and the more I come here I realize I can't demand anything, because I can't remember it either.

We had just walked a few steps and came back to a standstill, when at the end of the road we saw Rendi walking towards the destination we had just left. A bundle of white Roses accompanied Rendi's steps. The rose was exactly the same one that was located near the Aliena navel. That means, it was Rendilah who often came here.

Then, how close is the relationship between Rendi and Aliena. Or actually what I want to remember, how close my relationship with Rendi, so that Rendi took the time to come to the tomb of Aliena. If, there was no special connection, would it be possible that Rendi had come here only because of Aliena's personal doctor.? I don't know. Only one is certain, my heart warmed by Rendi's attitude.

After saying hello to each other for a while, Bang Nusa invited me to get out of the funeral area first. And as deliberately, Bang Nusa did not immediately invite me to go to wait for Rendi. Sure enough, not so long ago Rendi came out with her flat face. The background that made me was.

"Ren, let's go get a drink around here." Take Bang Nusa to relax.

"May too, Bang. But, it can't be long Bang." Replied Rendi with a glance at the clock that was coiling in her hand.

"War, you agree, right.?" Tanya Bang Nusa arrived.

"What.?" I wondered, what was even more surprising was Bang Nusa and Rendi, because I was between the two of them, but I did not hear what they were talking about at all, I was busy looking for answers to what I was thinking.

"Today is too tiring for you, War." Bang Nusa said again with a thin smile, as well as Rendi.

Rendi, seeing that rancid boy's thin smile made my chest flutter. Because, that smile seemed to mock me. Look, you miss me. The meaning of Rendi's smile if I can understand it. Added to his flat-again look, leaving me in the trough of anxiety, my heart is sibling.

Without another word, Rendi chose to go first. Again, I don't want that back to go far without asking me. And I can do nothing but follow Bang Nusa's steps that run in the opposite direction from Rendi.

"You okay, War.?" Tanya Bang Nusa, as the car moved to leave the cemetery parking area.

"Sure, Bang." Reply doubt. I don't know what is admiring me. The truth about Alienakah, or the truth of who is the Father of Aliena, and much more uncertain is, is it because of the attitude of Rendi who arrived flat against me.?

"Later, when you get home and Daffa is there, you'll get the answer." Bang Nusa.

"Don't I ask you one thing." I don't know, which demon managed to persuade me to give a voice to Bang Nusa, and it was purely a matter of matters of the heart.

"Say." Answer Bang Nusa.

I squeezed my fingers over and over again. "Is my relationship with Bang Daffa over at this time." Just tell me, I'm too brash. Because at this stage, I was thinking in another direction, which was nothing but a strange feeling.

Bang Nusa, like being in trouble looking for answers to my question. And as much as possible, look calm with a focus on the front as a driver. So did I, I kept sharpening my hearing.

"Your relationship was long overdue, before Aliena existed." It's not something painful to hear, and I'm just relieved because of it. As it turns out, my feelings are not insolent. But, my heart was already overblown with Rendi's flat attitude.

Tanya had stuck in the heart. Quite worthy of this uncertain feeling. In stories that don't necessarily happen. While my logic is stirring, and my heart is already coursing. Then the taste, when self-conscious is not so perfect to be together. The blaze blew all over my world, when the heat of the fire froze me. My heart is overwhelmed by reality.

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