Roses Are Not in Love
Not a Dream Marriage.

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The universe has indeed arranged everything, and I can only follow the flow. Like today's story that makes me sit with a fairly great inner struggle, but I have no power to express it. All for the sake of the smile of the people who surround me, especially the sweet child who does not want to be separated from me.

There is no magnificent clothes or guarantee like the throne of the King who is side by side with the Queen next to him. Everything looks so simple, as simple as a clean white robe with a Syar'i hijab that I wear, as well as the Ijab Qobul event that has just been carried out. But, despite this all seemed happy in simplicity.

Is this my dream wedding.? If anyone asks me that, obviously I answer no. Because every woman wants marriage only once in a lifetime, therefore even the moment wants the right can be remembered at all times. But then again, man can only plan and God has the will to decide everything.

Like my plan that wants Mas Karang for the reason of accompanying the rest of the remaining age with beautiful worship and crochet happy things together, but God actually predestined Bang Daffa as an answer to the do'a that I had once set before the name Mas Karang I called.

If all can be replayed back, then choose to harbor feelings of like to Mas Karang much better. Because, either reciprocated love or love that lives in silence and never reaches its destination, in the end all only remains memories.

If I had chosen silence then, perhaps what I feel right now would not have been anything like this. And the presence of Bang Daffa will not be as strong as it is in the heart. But no one can deny the destiny of God, nor can I. However and whatever the circumstances, Bang Daffa began this second after making his covenant with God, then he deserves my full respect and everything from me. Then from that moment on, it was haram for me to think of another man besides my Mahram.

This one week, the wedding only needed preparation a week after I nodded. And it would be too greedy if I wanted this and that, even though I could impose on the family. But again, my reason remained silent because Bang Daffa who wanted simplicity was quite legitimate in the eyes of both Religion and the State. And that was my first devotion to her.

Even Bang Daffa also asked me to prepare all my things and have Adit from yesterday, because today also Bang Daffa will bring me and Adit to live outside the city. Perhaps this is also the reason Bang Daffa hastened this marriage. Or indeed Bang Daffa deliberately gave distance and did not want me to know his family for a moment. I don't know.

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Tasyakuran event with several families that I know it is not more than half, berahir after dzuhur. And after only staying in the nuclear family, Bang Daffa immediately told me to quickly improve and prepare Adit as well.

Finished with the preparation of the journey I was about to go to, the city where I and Bang Daffa first met. Aditpun fast asleep, then I was busy with parting with one by one family member. And when he arrived at Bang Daffa's father, he deliberately invited me over and invited me to chat briefly before the end of this conversation turned serious.

"Roses, do you know, son. That you've met Dad before.?" I shook my head slowly while looking at Pak Bakti.

"We've met at your boarding school before, son. Do you remember.?" Back I looked at Pak Bakti and back to shake his head.

"No, Sir."

"Don't be paggil, sir. Call Dad. You are now our daughter. Let's try calling Dad.!" Pinta Pak Bakti's.

"Oh, Dad. When did you ever come to Pesantren.?" My great-grandson in a soft tone of voice.

Pak Bakti smiled kindly and somehow this smile reminded me with a thin smile Mas Karang. Ahh, why, why am I just at a time like this Mas Karang is present in my brain.

"At that time, Dad came there with the intention of looking for a companion of his sister Daffa named Daffin. And when I saw you, I was always sure that you would be Dad's daughter. And Alhamdulillah, now you are truly Father's daughter, even if it is for Daffa." Pak Bakti's smile widened and spread to me, even though it was only a thin review.

"Dad knows, you're a good boy, Rose. I believe you can be a good mother to Adit and a great wife to Daffa. Because I believe in you, you have to believe in me." My heart breaks hearing Pak Bakti's words, how it did not happen, because my insolent heart just keeps turning the face of Mas Karang.

"Rose, would you believe me.?" Ask Pak Bakti.

I was silent for a moment looking for the right answer to ask Pak Bakti. "How's it going, Dad.?" Ahirnya answered me out.

Pak Bakti smiled and patted my shoulder slowly. "Dad knows it will be difficult for you to face Daffa later. And therefore, do not ever hesitate to tell Dad anything, especially if it concerns the bad behavior that Daffa might do to you. Whatever it is, I'll listen and be on your side."

I stared intensely at Pak Bakti, and tried to understand Pak Bakti's intentions about the difficulties I would face if I were with Bang Daffa. If Pak Bakti can predict that, of course Pak Bakti knows something that even I do not know. Or indeed because Pak Bakti who understands the character of Bang Daffa. Everything seems mysterious to me, as mysterious as the household life I want to live later.

Pak Bakti never ceases to give me spirit and encouragement and even praise, until his happiness has a daughter-in-law of his dreams. And either I have to be flattered or I have to be sad, because in reality my heart is still branching. Until Bang Daffa came in our midst, and Pak Bakti even gave a special message to Bang Daffa to take care of me.

He also came to me from the house that gave me shade, and went to be carried by a stranger called husband. Dam of all the things I did today, this is all that went according to my plan. He was taken away with the status of wife.

Keep staring back until everything is out of sight, then I return everything forward. Like leaving my mass there, and choosing to set the future. Whether it will be as difficult as it is, in the end the right walk is still forward, and left everything behind as a memory. Likewise, later with Mas Karang, and hopefully during my efforts to open my heart again to Bang Daffa, I did not return to the meeting with Mas Karang.

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A month had passed, I enjoyed my role as a housewife, even though my head rarely went home. And during this month, Bang Daffa only came home twice after leaving me and Adit in a house big enough for both of us at that time.

And tonight, I think it's a good time to talk to Bang Daffa and start over. Starting from a misunderstanding to why this marriage should occur. And I was ready for everything, including being honest about Mas Karang, which I had thought mature.

I've prepared dinner and put Adit to bed early. I was just thinking, maybe we need to talk to each other without any distractions. However, until the wall clock shows at 21:00, there is no sign of Bang Daffa coming out of the room that I myself do not know what is in there, he said, bang Daffa had locked the room since he left.

Recalling the cooling food, I ventured to knock on the tightly shut door right beside my room and Adit. Once and twice there was no answer, until after the knock to the four doors slowly opened and a moment of cold immediately enveloped me, because of Bang Daffa's cold gaze on me.

Not saying anything, Bang Daffa kept looking at me from top to bottom. And I strangely followed the same thing that Bang Daffa did to me. Still without saying Bang Daffa widened the door of his room and then went inside, I followed him. But my steps came to an instant halt, as a loud ultimatum from Bang Daffa blared like lightning without rain.

"Stop where you're the Roses." Bang Daffa stared at me. "You think you have the right to enter here." Continue with a tone of fright.

"Ak, I, just want the bill."

"Shut up." He said in a harsh tone while walking slowly towards me with his eagle eyes that could not escape scanning me. "Look at yourself like ****** this." He grabbed a negligee rope that was right above my chest.

I gasped in shock and because I was so shocked I couldn't even answer what, in my brain, I just thought that my clothes weren't wrong, and it was natural to use them inside the house. What else is there is only a husband, and I call it as an effort to please the husband.

"You're trying to tease me with this kind of transparent gown. Even if you take off one by one your clothes in front of me I will never be interested in you, War."

"Ak, a.k.."

"You have no right to speak in front of me." Bang Daffa said as he threw some papers at me. "Read it right, and get rid of the thought that you will take the place of Melati. Although you can take Melati's place in this world, but you will never be able to touch my heart."

My heart hurts, I want to cry right now. However, my ego forbids it. I don't want to look weak, I don't know why. And so I surrounded my gaze in all directions, not to Bang Daffa. I also found a wedding photo of Bang Daffa and Kak Melati which was framed large right above the rangjang king size.

"Son Jasmine is so pretty."

"Get out of here, I'm disgusted to see your bitch body in this room." The cold tone of Bang Daffa reached my heart. "Remember one thing, I ask you to be the Mother of Adit, not to be my wife. So, don't try to tease me, because it makes me hate you even more. Go away.." One loud screech Bang Daffa made me retreat slowly, though I kept my head upright, but my trembling could not conceal that my heart was really hurt.

"One more thing, don't ever think of falling in love with me the Rose." Said Bang Daffa again before slamming the door behind me fit together with my tears that were shed immeasurably swift. A person is in an unwanted marriage, or an unwanted woman.

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