Roses Are Not in Love
My Heart Misses Him.

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Being firm does not mean you should not shed tears, but crying is also one of the therapies to stay sane. Sane to face Bang Daffa. And the best way to deal with it is to cry silently in silence, because I still remember the humiliation that night, as well as the words.

"I enjoy your helpless gaze." Therefore, no matter how Bang Daffa treated me, I always smiled in front of him, because I did not want to look weak in front of him.

From that fateful night on, the two mothers returned to the city after Adit had improved. Bang Daffa has not returned home yet, and it has been almost two weeks.

Honestly, I'm glad that Bang Daffa didn't come back to this house. But, while staring at Adit who was playing especially while sleeping curled up in my arms, my heart ached. I don't want to be selfish just by thinking about your own comfort. Because his whereabouts here are clear to Adit and I think Adit needs his father.

Dismissing my pride, I decided to meet Bang Daffa in his office today. Not for me, but for Adit. Carrying lunch and carrying Adit I also arrived in front of the Notary Office of Bang Daffa which was pioneered a year before Kak Melati died.

This two-story building seemed quite busy and even busier as I stepped in, as some workers realized who Adit was busy welcoming Adit.

"Sir Daffanya is there, Ma'am.?" I asked the stale base to resuscitate one of the female employees with my presence.

In his view I was from top to bottom, clearly imprinted on his face that underestimated me, before finally speaking in a proud tone. "Father is in a client, Ma'am. Adit's new babysitter.?"

I took a deep breath, then turned my head right in the rice mirror that reflected my presence there, and it was true that I was considered a nanny for Adit. Does everyone judge the social status of his palakain.? Although I didn't expect anyone to know me as Bang Daffa's wife.

"Please wait there, Ma'am, let me take Adit inside." Follow that woman again.

"No, Adit wants to be with Aunty." Adit said quickly and pulled my hand and dragged me into one of the rooms that turned out to be empty, leaving the woman with her jutek face.

Back, there was an uncomfortable feeling in my chest, as my eyes caught a rather large picture frame as I allowed my eyes to explore the entire room. But, I have no right to feel that it is appropriate for me to protest against Bang Daffa, because indeed only Kak Melati became the queen in Bang Daffa's heart.

For an hour, Adit and I waited in Bang Daffa's room, until Adit who had entered his nap lost his spirit before leaving earlier to meet his father, Adit, then it drooped helplessly with its eyes tightly closed by resting on me.

I also almost closed my eyes if the door at the end of the room did not open and entered the same person we were waiting for. I can guess her death, because almost a year as a wife she did not expect I had memorized out of my head what would be done when I met me. So, I've mentally prepared before.

"You look for your face, you came here with Adit. Even if you take Adit they won't take you as their mistress." It's true what I was thinking just now. There is no good thing about his words being heard.

And as I said earlier, that I had a reason why I came here and lowered my pride, let alone let myself be despised and humbled by Bang Daffa.

Ignoring Bang Daffa, I chose to put Adit to sleep and grabbed my bag. Then walked towards where Bang Daffa was sitting arrogantly in his great chair.

"I didn't ask for much time. I just want to read this and understand it. And I guess, until someone's smart enough, so I don't have to explain what else's after." I said in a flat tone.

Grabbing some of the papers I thrust Bang Daffa immediately read them. "You think this way, little by little you can take all of Melati's places. Not with me Rose, not with me.!" The paper I gave him was right in front of me, and I was expecting it.

"I don't want Kak Melati's place. I did this because of Adit. At least sacrifice a little for Adit, Bang Daffa may hate me, Bang Daffa may not want to see me, but where is Adit's fault.?" Answer me loudly.

"You deliberately used Adit as a weapon for you." Decih.

"Not at all." I looked at Bang Daffa as Bang Daffa did to me, then continued my words. "As I wrote in point nine, that we can set aside our egos for Adit's sake without having to interfere in each other's affairs. You could say it's a charade, for Adit's psychological sake."

"I'm not that stupid, War. You plan to enter my personal life slowly through Adit.!" Cynical Bang Daffa.

"You..!"

"Enough, Bang Daffa. Do not feel like the person who is most at a disadvantage to this marriage. If you really mind why not divorce me. Whyyyy.? Because in reality you need me for Adit, right.? Then why don't we work together."

"Looks I was too kind to you this ahir ahir Roses, until you were brave enough to challenge me this time." Bang Daffa said in a horrible tone to hear.

I spread my smile to Bang Daffa so that Bang Daffa's heart gets hotter by it. "Sampean has a dream, I also have a dream. When our dreams are not in line with reality, is enough to blame each other. Don't think that sampean is the one who's hurt the most, because he's also hurt for me." My words then rushed to my feet and stepped away from Bang Daffa who was still thinking about my words.

"Antar Adit came home when he was awake. Take her heart back, if true Kak Melati is true love until. Because the loss of a loved one, does not mean there is no price of love left for the sakean." Say me again before opening the door and coming out in haste before Bang Daffa spewed out his anger again towards me.

There was not once in my shadow that I would guarantee my marriage a divorce and I felt it was for other women in the world as well. At first I upheld this marriage, and always withstood all the scorn of Bang Daffa.

Patience should have no limits, and making marriage a field of worship is the main goal. But, when every effort of mine is unappreciated and always outcompete to the one already in eternity, the, then there should be no one to blame if there is still another place left for people who have stopped and gave color.

If a man cheats with his lust, then a woman will cheat with her feelings. And that's what happened to me. And re-repeating memories with several times stalking his social media account that once knit fond memories together.

This determination grew stronger until I dared to make a deal against Bang Daffa, and was ready with all the risks, if he would come back to see me soon. By Allah, I was willing to leave Bang Daffa and bring Adit along with me to knit happily together with him.

But man can only plan and God determines everything. No one can guarantee that the human heart will remain the same after a long time and no one knows when this heart will change quickly. As my heart arrived longing for her sweet attitude, and hoping it would still be the same. It turns out that my heart misses him the one who once gave a happy color inside the chest.

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Just this time Mom felt guilty about the character of the novel written. Cheating with his feelings, how cruel to be possessed, like a person who has no ahlaqnya..🤭🤭🤭

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