Purity Online - The World For The Fallens
[Season 2] Chapter 62: Strange Motivation

The sun began to rise, leaving the horizon. The dark blue night sky slowly began to be replaced by the reddish-colored dawn sky. The reddish sunlight struck the forest where Senshi and Yamarashi's house were located. The air is still cool, but it is not as cold as the air at night. Under the lush foliage of a tree near the east-facing side of the house, Senshi was standing and waiting for someone. His face clearly showed that he did not come to the place voluntarily.

"What does he want to talk about, anyway?" gerutu Senshi while tapping on the grass with the tip of his footwear. "I hope he didn't tell me to come here to talk about something that doesn't matter."

"I'm sorry, I'm a little late" said Yamamura, who had just arrived while groping the back of his head. "I woke up a little bad."

"Basic. Though you yourself reminded me yesterday not to wake up late." Senshi grumbled once more. "So, what do you want to talk about? Tell me quickly."

"All right," Yamamura said.

Both of them sat cross-legged. Their bodies and hair were blown by the refreshing breeze.

"So, Senshi. I already know everything. About your family's past, about your parents, and about the tragedy. I want to convey-"

"All right, that's enough."

Yamamura had not yet finished his sentence, Senshi had already risen to his feet.

"Hey, wait!!" yamamura. "I'm not done talking!!"

"I already know what you want to say, Yamamura," Senshi said with a face that looked somewhat irritated. "Surely Brother Yamarashi told you, right? Sometimes I wonder, why is he always too kind and too open to people he just knew?"

"I'm sorry for meddling in things that may be personal to you, but-"

"You don't need to continue our conversation, Yamamura." Senshi cut off the golden-haired adventurer boy's speech once again.

"You asked me to come a few minutes before sunrise. Our meeting place is a shade under a tree near the side of the house facing east, which is the direction of sunrise. That is, you want to****** our conversation takes place at dawn and at a place that presents a sunrise view, right? From the opening sentence you said, I can already predict what topic of conversation you will convey."

"Jamura .... You're trying to cheer me up, aren't you? That is what is usually done by those who do not yet understand the harsh reality of this world, instilling optimism and useless positive thoughts into me. Surprisingly, my brother who had endured suffering with me all this time still did not understand this either."

"A great and intelligent adventurer like you ..., have you ever felt the feelings that my brother and I feel every day?"

"The "feelings of weakness and helplessness were extremely annoying. The thrill when your hope is destroyed over and over again. A sickening feeling of loneliness. The sense of injustice that arises because you are always surrounded by death angels who are ready to take your life and the lives of those around you, even though you have done nothing wrong. Have you ever felt any of that?"

"I used to think the world betrayed me. I wished, prayed, and fought many times. But all of that never came to fruition. Then I realized. It was not this world that betrayed me, but I was the one who had expected too much to do things in vain. The world is just doing its job. Injustice and cruelty were already natural to him."

"That's not true" Yamamura said.

"I knew. You'd say: 'God won't let His creation suffer alone' or anything like that, right? Unfortunately, I guess at this point even the Gods themselves are already indifferent to us. Your arrival did save us for last night, but once you're gone, the mess is sure to return. Pain and suffering can't disappear from life that easily."

"People who are always positive like you and your brother will definitely not be able to understand the workings of this world. You always cover up the wounds with positivism forced to give 'meaning' to your life."

"I ...."

Yamamura did not continue his words. He lowered his head, hiding his face in the shadows. The atmosphere was silent for a few minutes, filled only by the chirping of birds. What happened next was a shocking event. Instead of trying to argue with Senshi, Yamamura smiled.

"Why are you smiling? You want to laugh at me?" asked Senshi with a astonished face.

"I'm sorry that I may have underestimated your suffering. I must admit that people often underestimate the darkness and pain that lies within themselves and others. Even those who have endured too much darkness do the same. They think too positively until they do not realize that they are right in front of the abyss. Not infrequently they also involuntarily dragged others closer to the abyss."

"Well, there are many things that can blind them to the point of being unaware of the existence of danger, destruction, and bitter reality ahead. Whether it is family, hope to Gods, friends, loved ones, principle of justice — both justice for ourselves and justice for everyone —, dream, dream, or the unyielding soul and the fire spirit that keeps blazing. They have to bind themselves to something, to force themselves to keep moving. Basically, we keep moving forward because we are all slaves to something that holds our lives. Although there are also those who go against the current and let go of all that grip like you."

"I just want to convey this one message to you, Senshi. Live like toilet paper."

Senshi frowned when he heard Yamamura's words. Just natural. Anyone would feel strange if given such a message.

"You're mocking me?" abugn.

"No, it's not," Yamamura said. "The example I took was a bit absurd because toilet paper was always considered a dirty thing and never appreciated, but that's exactly where the point is."

"Toilet paper never complains or gives up, although it is never appreciated and is always regarded as something dirty. From the moment it was first installed, he could only see his friends ending up in the trash one by one and waiting for his turn to be thrown into the trash because of dirty conditions that were not even caused by his own mistakes. He sacrificed himself to keep us clean, the humans. No matter how we look at him, he will continue to fight and wait with great loyalty."

"But toilet paper is a dead thing" Senshi argued. "Toilet paper cannot feel pain or complain. Stop humanizing him with that ridiculous parable."

"Your words are true. However, sometimes we can also get the deep values of life from the lifeless, even much deeper than the values we get from the living." Yamamura.

"I don't understand what you mean at all." Senshi frowned once again.

"Sometimes, you'll understand." Yamamura patted Senshi on the shoulder, then stepped away. "Come, we'll have breakfast first."

"You're not gonna steal my food anymore, are you?"

"Just kid!! Back then, didn't I eat it from hunger and didn't know it was yours!!"

"Reason. Just admit that you have a thief soul like Dire Wolf's flock."

"Don't just accuse, yeah!! That one yesterday was just a coincidence, you know!!"

The sun was getting higher, along with the increasing number of footsteps of the two teenagers. The air was getting warmer and a reddish glow filled the sky. The birds continued to chirp with melodious, welcoming the Dawn. The clouds passed slowly, like a bunch of snails disguised as cotton swabs.

"Actually ..., what message does this adventurer want to give me?" inner Senshi.

To be continued

Hello, the author returned after almost half a year disappeared 🗿 Turns out getting the intention to write it is more difficult than finding the time to write during the graduation exam, yes 🙃 The graduation exam is done, yes, UTBK was sorted out in early June, uh even the laziness that attacked.

Hopefully in the future the author can get enough writing intent to return diligent updates.

Bye, that's it. Sorry for making you wait so long, and see you in the next chapter :3 bye!!

Yamamura: How come the author's tumben is not much of a pleasantries?

Senshi: I don't know. May lose the spirit of life because most nolep when on vacation.