Purity Online - The World For The Fallens
[Season 2] Chapter 17: The World Where I Truly Belong

On that very day, I logged into the virtual-reality world. I fled to the virtual world. I'm playing another VRMMORPG game that I haven't played in a long time. There, I began my journey ....

To find ... a place I can call home ....

I tried to do everything in that virtual world. Things I can't do in the real world. All those restrictions and prohibitions .. I no longer need to think about. For me, the virtual-reality world is the most perfect world.

Since that night ..., I have never done my duty again. I never studied, didn't go to school again, and skipped courses for long periods of time. I never saw my mother again either. We avoided each other. Yet, somehow he still cooked me some food. He also never forced his way into my room or confiscated my Virtual Diver. He never scolded me. What I am doing right now is outrageous. At that time, I started to think that he might still love me. Maybe all this time, he never changed at all. She's still a loving mother, like she was when I was a kid. However, my stupidity and ego made my heart hard. I didn't care about anything at the time. I didn't even pick up the phone from my teacher. I know, if I lift up then I will definitely be told to go back to that hell. I can finally get absolute freedom, where maybe I'll just let it go.

I spend every day playing VRMMORPG games. I tried to make friends with many people, explore various places, become a pro player, join a guild, do farming and leveling together with them. All the things I can't do in the real world can be done in that fantasy world. I was so happy and enjoying my life in that fake world. I consider that the world is the most perfect. However, on the other hand, I also felt a hole in my heart that could not be patched in any way. At first I thought that the hole had arisen because the number of friends I had was not too many and I had not fully enjoyed the beauty of that world. So I try to be friends with more people. I tried to make my guild good by winning various tournaments. I tried to forget the real world and enjoy fully a happy life in this artificial world. However ....

It's all .. there's no point ....

No matter how hard I try to enjoy my life in the virtual world, the hole is still open in my heart.

Is this a sign ...if this virtual world does not accept me?

But, if the virtual world and the real world both reject me, in which world would I be accepted?

Is there no world .. that can accept me?

Do I really have nowhere to go?

Am I ... really not able to find a place I can call home?

Then ..., am I destined to never be happy?

How bad am I, to the point that all the world doesn't accept me?

I thought I had found my happiness again, but apparently I was wrong. I felt happiness for a moment, and then emptiness came back to me.

All this is pointless.

The smiles of my guild members were now as nauseating as the praises of my teachers. Socializing and living in a virtual world is no longer fun for me. My passion for starting a new life is beginning to fade. My smile ... slowly began to disappear. Now, my heart is completely dead, both in the virtual world and the real world. My lips became stiff. It's hard for me to smile back.

When will this void end?

While the question was still ringing in my head, a new problem arose. My mother suddenly fell ill. I had to take care of him, even though I still hated him. My face while taking care of her was always flat with no expression. However, my mother always smiled and thanked me, even though she knew I would never return the words.

My mother's condition is getting worse. My heart is still filled with hatred, but she is still my mother. It was very inhumane to ignore him in his current state like this, so I offered to take him to the doctor. But he rejected my offer.

"Whatchu mean? Do you want your condition to get worse?"

"no need. You've suffered a lot because of mom. You don't have to trouble yourself anymore."

"I'm sorry mom."

(Can be played this soundtrack so that the feels more. https://youtu.be/RwV4xT6DhnM)

"Over this .., mom has been a really bad mom. It's true what you said. I don't even deserve to be called a mother. I've taken away all your rights and happiness."

"Mom did all that because I was worried about your future. I don't want you to have a bleak future. I don't want you to live an undeserved life. But, apparently everything I did wasn't building you up at all. All that treatment has dropped you."

"Mom has too high an expectation on you. Mother's ego that is too high is already tormenting you. From now on, you no longer need to think about being the best. Be yourself."

"You don't have to worry anymore about your future, your grades, your rankings, your achievements, or whatever. As long as you keep trying, I'm sure you can make a bright future."

"Mom's sure you can do it, because you're my great son."

Those words ... managed to melt my frozen heart. Unknowingly, tears began to flow through the corners of my eyes.

"Don't be stupid" I said, trying to hide my sadness. "I haven't been in school for a long time, I'm sure my attitude is zero now. I haven't studied in a long time either. I'm not sure if my abilities still exist or not."

"I won't be able to .. return to being the way I used to be."

My mother smiled once more, even though she seemed to be suffering from her pain. "You can do it. You're still a smart kid like that day. You haven't changed a bit. You're still as good as you used to be."

"Yes ..," I said in a soft voice. "I'll try."

That night .. was my last night with my mom. He died the next morning.

Why didn't I realize it in the first place? I no longer need to find a place that I can call home. From the beginning, the place existed. It was just me who didn't realize it. The world in which I am supposed to be .. is the real world. That's the world where I was born, raised, and where I came home. My mother never changed at all. She is still the great, friendly, loving mother she used to be. It was just me who thought it had changed from being too immersed in my own ego.

Since my mother's death, I have tried hard to regain my achievements. That was really hard. New rivals always appear and my abilities are no longer the same as I used to be. Plus, I had to split my study time and part-time work. However, thanks to my hard work, I managed to graduate with the best grades and returned to score various achievements, even being accepted at a top university. This time all my achievements can be realized not because I am forced, but because I am determined to build a better future. All of those achievements .. can be achieved because of my mother ....

She is not a perfect mother, nor is she a good mother. You could say she was the worst mother ever. But .., if it wasn't for her all my achievements would never have come true.

To me .., she is .. the best mom ....

To be continued

Author: Weeping cieee 😏 *digeplak readers*

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[Season 2] Chapter 18: The Ruler Of All