Purity Online - The World For The Fallens
Day 63: Keep Fighting (Part 7)

It is recommended that you read it while listening to the backsound 'The Place Where Wishes Came True' from the Clannad anime so that the fees increase rapidly.

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"Thank you for the food!!!" otomura and Iruna said in unison. They had just finished eating lunch and Otomura had changed her school uniform to a home dress.

"Ah, even if the menu is as rough as it is, but it still feels good, yes." Otomura pushed the instant ramen cup away from his body, then stroked his stomach. A smile was engraved on his face. A pure smile. The difference between her personality at home and at school is stark.

"Yes, sister," said Iruna while smiling again. "Because anything you cook always tastes good."

"You could have." Otomura chuckled amusedly.

"Ah, sister. Are you a free man after this?"

"Hm? Yep. I still have time before my part-time shift," said Otomura as he downed the water in his glass. "What's wrong?"

"I want .. to ask for help ...."

"Hm? About what?"

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In the courtyard, it looked like it was already afternoon. The sun is moving west. The air is not as hot as it was. Iruna was sitting on her wheelchair, accompanied by Othomura behind her.

"Hey, Iruna, are you sure you're not going to do anything?" tanya Otomura was worried.

"It's okay." Iruna smiled, then tried to stand up from her wheelchair. "For a long time not moving the body will actually make my body stiff. Oh, ja. Is your sister not coming late?"

"Don't worry, my shift is still a long time ago" Otomura said with a sincere smile etched on his face.

"Can we start?"

"Yes." Yeah."

Iruna tried to move both legs, balancing the movements of the two tiny legs so that the balance was not lost. One step. Two steps. Three steps. Some steps he took. But apparently, the balance did not last long. His body sank a moment later. He was about to fall, but managed to be held by Otomura.

"You're-You're fine."

"Yes, sister," said Iruna. "Let's do it one more time."

Minutes by minutes passed. The birds that perched on the top of the tree watched the beautiful scenery while chirping softly, as if praising the kink and affection of the brother and the fighting spirit of the sister. White clouds that look like cotton blobs also watch as they pass slowly. Now, an hour has passed. The sun has almost set. The blue sky has been replaced by a typical orange sky at dusk.

"We'll take care of it for today" Otomura said.

"No!! One more time." Although already bathed in the sweat that glittered in the twilight sunlight, Iruna still did not seem to give up. He pitched his foot with great difficulty. "A little more!!"

For the umpteenth time, Iruna almost fell down, and for the umpteenth time also the brother caught her body. He then led his sister to the tile floor and sat there together. Iruna breathed in incoherently. His head was bowed and completely drenched in sweat.

"We'll take care of it for today, Iruna" Otomura said. A bottle of drinking water held in his right hand.

"Hey, Iruna." Othomura tried to open the conversation. "From the beginning I was curious, why do you always try so hard to force yourself? What makes you have that much determination?"

"Imagining myself in your position alone has made me lose my spirit. Your burden is far greater than mine. If I were you, I would complain every day. But you never complain. You keep fighting with a pure smile on your face. Why do you keep fighting?"

Iruna looked straight at the nearly setting sun. His golden eyes seemed to shine an orange color because it reflected the twilight light. "Because I want to beat him."

"beat? Defeated who?" Both of Otomura's eyebrows were raised.

"My own self. I want to win from the dark side of myself, namely despair, anger, fear, lack of gratitude, and so on. And also, I want to make it happen."

"Create?" The implied confusion grew clearer on Otomura's face.

"Create a world without pain. Without anyone having to suffer. No crying. Without the scream of fear. Without anger. Without regret. A world like in heaven. Where everyone can smile happily as if without burden. The world is now very harsh and cruel, so I want to turn it into a better place. But, before that, I have to start from myself. If I lose to my dark side, then I won't be able to create a world that's exactly like heaven."

"That's why I have to keep trying. I have to keep fighting, fighting with weakness and despair from myself. I believe our struggle will one day bear fruit."

"You are a great sister, Iruna." Otomura looked at his sister in amazement. "You're very strong. You live by continuing to fight against despair while bearing a heavy burden."

"Actually ..., I'm not that strong, brother ...."

Iruna lowered her head. The upper part of his face was now hidden by the shadows. Despair, sadness, and the pain of loss began to approach his soul. Slowly, his carefree face was replaced by a sad face.

"Actually ..., I also feel the same as brother ...."

"I am not a God or an angel who can neutralize all negative emotions. I'm scared too. I'm afraid that our future is both bleak. I'm afraid I won't be able to heal again. I'm afraid my brother doesn't have enough money to support us. I'm afraid .. if I live only to be a burden brother ...."

"But I can't cry. If I shed a tear, it means that I lost to my negative emotions. I want to keep fighting while bearing this burden, but the burden is too heavy. I'm not strong. I want to shed tears, but I can't. I'm ...."

Tears began to inundate the corner of Iruna's eyes, slowly flowing down past her tiny cheeks. He began to cry bitterly, making Otomura feel pity.

"Hey, Iruna. I don't think crying is a sign of defeat. Crying can be a healing angel. You don't have to carry everything alone anymore. Isn't there me? We're family, right? I won't call you crybaby or weak. Just take out all your grief before they rot in there. Don't hold it anymore. There's nothing wrong with crying. It's a human thing."

"YAHOOOO!!!" Iruna held her sister. His crying sounded louder. With pity, Otomura stroked his sister's golden hair. Without realizing it, tears rolled down his face.

"It's okay, it's okay" Otomura said. "I'm right here. I'll take care of you. There's nothing more to be afraid of."

"Behind that genuine smile ..., there is a great weight ...."

"I can't let my little brother fight alone."

"I promise, I will help him make the world a reality without suffering."

"I will .. continue to fight with him ...."

To be continued