STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
A Decision

Since last night Hana's been nauseous and vomiting. None of the food that Hana managed to swallow. Though the age of the womb Hana has passed the first trimester. So the possibility of Hana nausea has passed. Many times Hana went back and forth to the bathroom. Rafa could not bear to see Hana limp. Hana's pregnancy this time wasn't easy. Teekadang is very calm. Until Rafa feels unnecessary. Sometimes it's so fussy that Rafa can't speak.

Hana did not close her eyes last night. When going to sleep, Hana always nausea and vomiting. As a result neither Rafa nor Hana were asleep. Hana just fell asleep after morning prayers. Only then did Rafa feel relieved. Finally, she could see Hannah sleeping. After being sure Hana was asleep, Rafa went downstairs. He was going to make a cup of coffee. Rafa decides to stay awake. Because it's early in the morning and Rafa has to go to the office.

"Kiara, what are you doing? This is helping auntie in the kitchen!" greeting Rafa, Kiara turned her head with an astonished look. He saw clearly both of Rafa's eyes were red. His face was a little shabby, but it still looked handsome and fresh. Because Rafa just prayed at dawn. So he looked fresh, even though both of his eyes were very sleepy.

"I should ask, why did Rafa come to the kitchen? Rafa needs something. Where did my sister Hana not see her? Usually Hana's sister who was in the kitchen before me!" kiara said in surprise, Rafa silently looked at Kiara with a smile. Instead Kiara was more astonished, not answering even Rafa smiled.

"Kiara, ask auntie to make me a cup of coffee. Rafa's waiting in the middle room. About your sister Hana, she just went to bed. Since last night Hana's been nauseous and vomiting. Only after the dawn prayer did he fall asleep. So let him sleep, when he wakes up. You prepare the breakfast!" rafa said softly, Kiara nodded in understanding. Rafa left the kitchen towards the living room. Right after Rafa arrived, Rizal also just came out of his room. They both decided to talk together.

It was not long before Kiara came to bring two cups of coffee. After giving it to her brother and husband. Kiara decided to go back to the kitchen. Leaving Rafa and Rizal sitting together. Indeed Kiara and Rizal still live in Rafa's house. Kiara has not wanted to leave Rafa. She still wants to live with Hannah. He asks Rizal's understanding, in order to allow himself to accompany Hana who is pregnant. Rizal is like Rafa who never wants to make Kiara or Hana disappointed. As much as possible the two of them will make Kiara or Hana happy.

"Rizal, that project on XX island. Can you take over for me. Doesn't your company work in the same field. I don't want to take care of it anymore. There are many factors that make me have to take it off!" rafa said firmly, shortly after drinking his coffee. Rizal was silent in silence, he was surprised and surprised to hear Rafa released the mega project.

Many competing companies got the project. Many even commit fraud just to get the project. But easily Rafa wants to give the project to him. Although Rizal works in the same field as Rafa. But Rizal tends to work on small projects that are mostly in remote areas.

"I don't mean to refuse your request. But Rafa is clear. I never did a project that big. I heard the project was a mega project that involved a lot of big companies. I'm still learning and I don't have enough skills to handle it. Why did Rafa want to take off the project? Wasn't it okay all along!" rizal said politely, he really cannot accept such a huge responsibility. The company still has to learn, in order to complete such a big project. While the team owned by Rafa, there is no need to doubt. Rafa himself has been very capable of completing the project. Rafa's ability to lead the company is beyond doubt.

"That's Rizal I was confused thinking about this project. My inability is not a problem to complete this project. I'm more concerned about the personal issues that revolve around the scope of this project. I can't continue this project. Even though I realize this project is making a lot of profit. But I would be willing to give up that advantage. To keep Hana feeling. I'm so much more at a loss for losing Hana's smile to my heart!" rafa said softly, Rizal scratched his non-itchy nape.

He doesn't understand the direction of Rafa's conversation. Rizal did not understand at all, the relationship of Hana's smile with the mega project that Rafa worked on this time. Rizal really does not understand Rafa's words, just for the sake of a smile Hana. Rafa releases a project that has a lot of advantages. When Rizal is confused to think about the intention behind Rafa's decision. Instead Rafa looks calm without any burden and very relaxed. It was as if the big project he was handling was meaningless.

"Sir Rafa, what really happened? Did sister Hana forbid you to continue this project? Why did he forbid you? I really can't believe it. If sister Hana will ban you!" lecar Rizal was astonished, Rafa shook his head weakly. Rizal is increasingly confused about the intent behind Rafa's decision. Not long after Rizal raised both his hands. As if giving up looking for the reason behind Rafa's decision. Rizal can no longer think about the possible reasons Rafa quit the mega project. Rafa chuckled at Rizal who was confused. He just wanted to offer it to Rizal. Not even want to see Rizal confused.

"All right, I'll tell you the reason behind my decision. You know, no, this project is done by a combination of several companies. Although everything is under my command as the company appointed as full responsibility!" rafa said softly, it looks like Rizal nodded in understanding.

"Want with that much responsibility. What is such an important reason? Until Rafa wants to take off this project and what is his relationship with sister-in-law?" rizal said confusedly, Rafa smiled knotfully. He saw the friend who was now his sister-in-law confused at the thought of his unreasonable decision.

"This project is under my responsibility. But the incorporated company, not my authority, chooses who my colleagues will work with me. I just found out who my partner is? When I started working on this project yesterday. It turned out that Sesil and Alfian companies were involved in the work of this project. I do acknowledge Sesil and Alfian's abilities. They both have abilities that need not be doubted. But my relationship with them in the past scared me to get close to them!" said Rafa, Rizal silently listened to Rafa's explanation.

"Secil and Alfian are two people who are so close to me. A woman who has been in my life before. Long before I knew Hana. She was the woman who made me feel so loved. But when I met Hana, I began to realize that my relationship with Sesil was nothing more than a full-on relationship. Relationships that shouldn't have happened, something that I regret for a while. Even openly Sesil still holds a taste for me. Although he never intended to take me from Hana. But he asked me to make him his second self. All just for the sake of his momentary nap. As for Alfian the best friend I've ever known in the night world. I spent my days with drinks and other nightlife. Although now he knows I don't want to touch that. Alfian never took me to a place like that. But either Sesil or Alfian was able to get me back to the world that once drove me away from HIM. I don't want to get close to them. If they can make me come back to a life full of death. The existence of Sesil in the project could make Hana hurt. I don't want to see Hannah jealous. Every time I think of meeting Sesil. Although I was sure, Hana knew that I would not be interested in Sesil. That's why I've decided to give up this project!" said Rafa, Rizal was surprised to hear the words of Rafa. He never thought he was a successful businessman. Thinking about his wife's feelings, behind the profits is always the reason entrepreneurs compete for big projects.

"I admire you, brother. You prefer to keep the feeling of sister Hana. Rather than getting a small profit. Even though Rafa continues to work on this project. Brother Hana will never realize, that Rafa's sister met Sesil. Kak Hana never wanted to interfere in the company's affairs. I'll help you, but the moon is working on this project to the fullest. I'll replace you in taking over the authority of this project. But it's still under your command!" rizal said firmly, Rafa nodded slowly. Rizal looked at the other side of the entrepreneur. He started learning something from Rafa. That not always profit becomes more important than the smile of the wife. It's an absurd thought. It is logical, however, for a husband to understand the sacrifice of a wife.

"Thank you Rizal, I'll call Adrian to get all the files ready. He will help you with all these projects. I'll be monitoring and watching from afar. At least now I can focus on thinking about Hana's condition. Since last night when I saw Hana in trouble. I could not bear it and kept silent to meet Sesil. Even though I never thought of getting into a relationship with Sesil. It's not fair to me for Hana. When I was able to meet Sesil, Hana had trouble conceiving my son. Last night I saw Hana's sacrifice, not yet when she gave birth. Hana will feel pain that I myself cannot imagine!"

"Sir Rafa, I see a love that will not be easily swayed. We should avoid anything that might get us stuck. A wise attitude, an easy thought. But this is the life we have to live. Sometimes choosing is difficult, especially between two equally good choices. But I believe in putting faith as the foundation. We will find the best way among the good. Rafa decided to give up his responsibilities as a businessman. For the sake of being a good husband and father to your little family. The responsibility as the head of the family is much greater. Rather than being responsible for being a successful entrepreneur. If you end up living without a family!" rizal said softly, Rafa nodded in understanding. Hana was silent at hearing all Rafa's words. She never realized Rafa's love for her was so great. Hana arranged the clingy face of Rafa who looked calm when talking to Rizal. As if he did not feel the loss of taking off such a big project in order to keep Hana feeling.

"Why do you have to love me this big? I don't deserve this much love. I'm just a woman full of flaws. I can never make you feel calm. You always make me feel valuable. What good have I ever done? I have you, someone who puts me above all your interests. I always put you in the wrong position. Everyone always blames you for every wound and tear. I will never be able to repay your great love. Your love makes me lucky and scared. I'm afraid I'm losing all this affection. I'm starting to feel comfortable and dependent on you. I'm sorry, if I've put you in a very difficult position. Thank you for loving me with all your heart!" inward Hana, then approached Rafa.

"Darling, why come down here? I was just about to see you. Sorry I left you so long!" rafa said softly, Hana was sitting next to Rafa. Leaning on Rafa's body, Rafa immediately embraces Hana's body. Hana hears Rafa's heartbeat. Heartbeats that always call his name with love. Rizal saw the warmth intertwined without a word.

"Sir Rafa, just for a moment you left me. But with great regret you apologized. It's not you who should apologize. But myself, because I always trouble you. Thank you for the love that will never be able to return. Only loyalty and determination, which I promise in return for the greatness of your love!" hana looked up at Rafa.

"Sir Rafa, thank you!" hana said softly, Rafa looked down at Hana's face. Rafa furrowed his brows not understanding. Kiara came with toast. He looked at Rafa and Hana who were sitting side by side affectionately. Kiara smiled happily seeing her brother live filled with happiness and warmth.

"Dear, why thank you? I didn't give you anything?" said Rafa, Hana shook her head weakly.

"Thank you for giving me this heart completely. You made me the most precious and the only woman in your life!" hana said as she placed her hand right on Rafa's chest. Hana clings her head, then kisses Rafa's soft chest. It was as if kissing Rafa's heart that was filled with his name. Instantly Rafa kissed Hana's head crest gently and affectionately.

"Thank you for being in my life. You made me a perfect man. Just stay by my side, you and our two sons will be my smile and my life!" said Rafa lirih, then clutched tightly Hana.

"Sister, you guys are so heartless. We're still here, but you're busy making out. Brother Rizal, we're just leaving rather than not being considered!" kiara teases Rafa and Hana. He and Rizal stood up about to leave the two of them.

"Kiara, you're leaving not upset with us. Actually you're looking for a reason to want to be with Rizal!" sahut Rafa, Kiara looked at Rafa who was upset. Instead Rafa chuckled, he felt winning had upset Kiara.

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