STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
The story behind 6 years

After Hana and Fathan sleep, Rafa sneaks out of her room. Rafa walked into his study. The box and letter given by Gunawan had not been opened. The harsh reality of his mother. Makes Rafa afraid to hear more poignant facts. Rafa's heart was no longer able to endure the pain. Rafa's tears dried up, as if he could no longer cry.

The bitterness of her birth mother's life, unable to feel by her. Her mother's loneliness was covered by a smile that was always visible to Rafa's two eyes. There was no pain indicated by his mother. Only pure happiness is covered by a mother's loving shade. Warm caresses the mother's hand, breaking opinions if during his life his mother felt the cold attitude of the father. All the painful facts seemed to thin Rafa's soft heart. Rafa's bones were fragile, hearing the fact that his mother was standing on her own with nothing to support.

For 6 years Rafa felt wasted. He thought his mother no longer loved him. For 6 years Rafa hated the decision of his mother who always forbade him to go home. For 6 years Rafa was angry at his mother who seemed to want to keep Rafa from his father. For 6 years Rafa cursed himself, that he should live a lonely life in a boarding school when his friends returned home. For 6 years Rafa harbored a longing that paid off with the death of his mother.6 years that Rafa Akbar Prawira will never be able to forget. Live away from family and be separated. But the same 6 years passed by the mother with tears and loneliness. Rafa and Gunawan's meeting unmasked the difficult 6-year-old reason for Rafa. The tightly sealed 6-year-old story unfolds with the box and the mother's last letter.

FLASHBACKS

"The rafa box contains your mother's relics. He left it to me the day before his death. There's a letter in the box. Papa never opened the box, what was the contents of the letter papa never knew? Your mom used to tell you to give this to you after you got married!" ujae Gunawan, with trembling hands. Rafa opened a letter from his parents.

"Mama, I missed you!" said Rafa while putting a letter on the chest of Rafa's field.

Gunawan saw clearly the face of Rafa who missed his mother. Regret is too late, but Gunawan intends to tell 6 years that Rafa never knew. Acts of 6 years when Rafa studied at the ponpes. The bitter reality buried with the body of the mother. The painful story of her beloved mother's life. All the pain given by his own father.

"Papa, why is this box in your hand? What's the reason mom gave it to you? Mama should have given it to me straight away. Mama can ask me to take care of you, it won't be hard for mama to say about this box. Why did you keep this box for so long anyway? Rafa was married for almost two years. Papa just gave it to him when Rafa already has Fathan!" said Rafa confused, Gunawan smiled knot looking at Rafa. Everything Gunawan did according to the request of Ainun his wife first.

"Papa kept this box until the time your mother asked for it. Ainun asked me to hand it over to you when you were married and had a son. I don't know what's in that box? Only your mother knows. Does anyone know this box? Grandfather even Sabrina never saw this box. Papa kept it as best he could. Today's the second time you've seen this box. After papa got it from your mother, since then papa saved it and never saw it again!" said Gunawan, Rafa nodded while staring at the box in front of him. He was agitated at the contents of the box. Rafa misses her mother a lot.

"Why don't you open this box or the letter in it? Perhaps the contents of this box and letter, could make me hate papa and Sabrina!" rafa said softly, Gunawan shook his head weakly. He put on a big smile hearing Rafa's words.

"Without the box or the letter, you can already hate me. There's no more painful reason when I didn't come to your mother's funeral. Even when your mother was dying, papa wasn't there by her side. Why am I afraid of the letter? If your anger is already too great. The box was Ainun's last trust. As a husband, I could never take care of him. At least keeping this box, would make me a little useful to Ainun!" gunawan said, Rafa nodded slowly. Rafa looked at the face of a father he could never hug. Gunawan's warm embrace he never felt. Rafa forgets the feeling when Gunawan carried him first. The warmth of Gunawan's hand had already disappeared. Never mind feeling, imagining the hold of Rafa as if reluctant!

"Why can papa be so sure? If only my hatred had been aroused after reading this letter. What would you expect from me?" rafa said, Gunawan was silent. They both played in their minds. With a long sigh, Gunawan looked at Rafa's face. He made up his mind to tell Rafa everything.

"Rafa, there's something you want to tell you. An honesty that has kept it tight for years. The truth may be written in the letter. The harsh reality that can make you hate your father for the rest of your life. I don't know what Ainun wrote in the letter? Papa's determined to tell you everything now!" gunawan said softly, Rafa nodded flatly. As if whatever was said, everything would be the same.

"Tell me, it's all happening anyway. Nothing will change, even if I am angry or hate you. I'm bound by a promise with mom, will always look after your family! Be honest if you want to be honest, if not keep quiet for me the same!" said Rafa coldly, Gunawan saw the look of Rafa's cold face. The relationship between father and son will never be warm. There will only be a responsibility, without affection between the child to his parents.

"Rafa, actually papa and Sabrina were married religiously, before your mother died. For 6 years, papa has cheated on your mama. She lives with the fact her husband has another wife. That's the reason Ainun sent you to the boarding school. Your mother doesn't want you to know that you're married to Sabrina. Your grandfather knew all of that. For 6 years Ainun forbade you to go home, for ever since you went to the ponpes. Papa never set foot in that house. Ainun never wanted you to see his pain, he didn't want to see the hatred in your eyes for me!" gunawan said, Rafa inflamed his hands tightly clenched. But Rafa tries to calm down, his anger will only make him never know the hidden facts.

"What a great Prawira family. Treating my mother like useless trash. After your heir gets it, your heart leaves your mama for another woman. While grandfather blesses his son's desire to break the heart of a wife. A mother who gave birth to a grandchild for him!" rafa said coldly, Gunawan lowered his head weakly. Whatever Rafa will say, he will accept it.

"The night before he died, the night he left this box. Ainun came to me, he wanted to talk to me. Sabrina forbade at first, but with tears Ainun wanted to talk to me alone. That night I became the cruelest man. The woman who is entitled to me, is fond of only to meet me. The cruelest reality, when Ainun saw little Kiara in my arms. Not angry or cursing, Ainun approached me. She kissed Kiara on the cheek, that's when your mama found out that you had a sister. Ainun's tears fell down Kiara's cheeks. Gently Ainun prayed that Kiara would never feel the pain of a woman. Lonely child without his father's arms. Ainun's heartfelt prayers are still blazing in my ears!"

"Papa is wrong Rafa, papa is cruel. Hate as much as you can, maki papa as much as you. Papa will never get angry or hurt. All worth papa getting. Papa's mistake was too big on Ainun. Today papa said it, papa doesn't want to be without your apologies. Like Ainun told papa. That we won't know until when will life continue? Ainun's last message, telling papa all must be revealed. Whatever was written in the letter? Papa doesn't expect you to forgive!" gunawan lirih said, Rafa gripped the sofa as hard as his hand. Had he been able to, Rafa wanted to destroy the person in front of him.

FLASH BACK OFF

With a care Rafa opened the box given by the mother. Rafa opens the pink ribbon box, the color of the symbol of affection. Like a mother who loves him. Carefully Rafa looked at the contents of the blue box. Both of Rafa's eyeballs are perfectly rounded looking at the contents of the box.

Rafa saw two pairs of baby knitting clothes, there were blue and pink. Fits the box that wraps the shirt neatly. Rafa saw that there were two bracelets under the knitwear, one made of gold and one made of silver. Rafa dismantles taking out a pair of tucked up bracelets. There was one name engraved in it, Ainun on a gold bracelet and Gunawan on a silver bracelet.

Rafa increasingly does not understand, he is confused to see all the items stored tightly in the box. Curiosity increasingly rubbed Rafa. With trembling hands Rafa opened the existing letter. He opened very slowly. Although Rafa had forgotten a little, but he could still recognize the handwriting of the mother. A letter that was actually written by her mother.

Rafa Putraku^^^^

Rafa Akbar Prawira my son, there is one word in three words that make up your name. A word that means great and has a very grand meaning. Like your middle name, Akbar. I want you to be big-spirited and broad-hearted. One of them understands the weakness of the mother of this letter. If your father gave it to you, it means that you are no longer by your side. The first big heart I want to see. Release your mother happily, without feeling guilty.

Rafa dear, the second greatness that I asked for. Never hate your father and grandfather. For what happened to Mom? Everything that happens is nothing but a written path. The weakness of every servant will be His ordinance. Rafa never had any intention of your papa hurting mom. Although I'm not a respectable woman, your father never insulted me. Your father was a good-hearted man. But his meeting with Sabrina and his good intentions are to help Sabrina. Be the beginning of the destruction of the mother's household with your father.

The pain that you've suffered, is comparable to your father's regret for his goodwill to Sabrina. Love is never wrong, but sometimes it is in the wrong heart. Your father never forgets you, every night he comes just to kiss you on the forehead. Your father was ashamed of his mistake. He never thought he would leave you. I could have ended the relationship with your father. But the farewell between us, will also separate mother from you. Mother who chose to be hurt rather than separate from you. So never blame your father or grandfather. The wounds you feel, the path you choose for yourself. Magnanimity to accept your papa's apology, second mother's hope.

Along with this letter, I made two knit shirts. Mother's weak hands make it for your sons. This knit mom made as a desolate remover. Mother made it lovingly. As warm as this knitting shirt, so warm as that I hope you embrace your family.

Never hurt them. Don't stay away from them. Even if your bones are fragile, never think of leaving them. Make your body the most powerful and great support for your family. Dear Rafa, two bracelets bearing the names of mother and father. I hope you are willing to wear it to your son and daughter later.

A woman is like gold. Beautiful and precious, but easily broken. Men are like silver. Ordinary and worthless, but not easily broken. Without silver gold will not look worth it. Without silver gold would not be able to form. Without silver gold will not be raised.

Like mother wouldn't be considered without your papa. You wouldn't have been born without your father's love. Enlarge your heart and soul as much as your name means. I'll never leave you. Take care and protect your family. Do not hate, because Rafa Akbar Prawira is able to have a big soul. I love you, greetings to the woman who knocks on the door of your heart. Mother's love for grandchildren you can't see. Be happy because you deserve to be happy.

^^^^The Mother Loves you.^^^

"Sorry, forgive Rafa. Dirty minds blame you. Without thinking clean and clear your mind for my calm. My cold heart once cursed you. Without feeling your heart may be more hurt just for my sake. Forgive your son who never saw your tears. Is this karma for me? When I got hurt watching my mom get hurt, I didn't realize I ever did the same to my wife. I'm sorry mom, for hurting you by hurting your daughter-in-law. Sorry!" rafa's inner self, shortly after reading the mother's letter. Rafa shed tears remembering every anger he ever showed his mother. Every complaint she made to her mother. Any accusations that hurt the mother. Rafa's tears wash over the mother's loving letter. Confidence and steadfastness of a wife's love, the sincerity of a mother's affection. If anyone thought the mother was stupid, Rafa would never care. Everyone is able to say, because they are not in the same position. Not the anger left behind, just the love embedded.

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