STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
Jamaican Prayer

About a week Faiq got a night watch schedule. He must stay awake while the others are asleep. Faiq leaves in the afternoon and returns in the morning. Faiq skipped dinner and breakfast with his family. Instead, Faiq always had dinner with his co-workers. But for breakfast Faiq still went home. She did not want to miss the breakfast that Hana always cooked. She really likes Hana's cooking. Although the relationship between mother and child is not as warm as before. Exactly the relationship before Faiq's departure to study abroad.

What was the reason for Faiq's departure abroad? But for Hana, whatever the reason behind Faiq's cold attitude. All is not important, for Faiq has returned to his side. Hana has two sons of different characters. So Hana begins to learn to understand the nature of both. Without thinking to distinguish one from the other. Hana always tries to be fair in sharing her affection. Rafa as a father has always been proud of his two sons. Not everyone follows in the footsteps of their career.

Tonight's the last schedule Faiq's on tonight. Almost every prayers of magrib and Isya, Faiq is always a prayer imam. Sayub sound murottal mushola, indicating the time of prayer is soon to be implemented. Faiq walked slowly towards the mushola. There are no patients, but if there are patients. Faiq always asked for the help of other doctors to replace him. Faiq prefers congregational prayers, rather than later having to pray alone. Faiq was cold-handed to his patients, but cold-handed to women who wanted to approach him.

Faiq always carries prayer equipment in his bag. Faiq felt uncomfortable when praying using work clothes. Even tonight, Faiq looks perfect when wearing a cocoa shirt. Not the doctor's white coat used, but a white cocoa shirt combined with a black holster and black peci. Faiq looks perfectly even without a medical white coat. Faiq's simple appearance was far from fancy and exaggerated. One of Hana's advantages is that it decreases in Faiq. A low self-esteem that can never be eliminated. The attitude that became the basis of Hana's life all this time. Now it turns into a living principle of Faiq. Simple and does not distinguish between each other. Always help without thinking rich or poor.

Faiq walked with dignity. Faiq's good looks bewitched the employees. Besides being handsome and smart, Faiq was a devout man. Faiq plus value in the eyes of women. Faiq is like a complete package, as a priest of the afterlife who is able to fulfill the birth and inner living. Guiding the makmum to his jannah. But the perfection of Faiq is not easily broken. Only one heart can have it. A name that was beautifully preserved in Faiq's heart. Doesn't anyone know who the lucky lady is? Faiq kept the taste tight, even to the owner of his heart. Faiq remained cold and seemed to hate him.

"Doctor Faiq, wait!" greeting Annisa kindly, Faiq turned his head then quickly stopped his footsteps. He saw Annisa walking quickly towards him. The veiled doctor who used to be his lecturer. The doctor who is none other than his brother, the last daughter of Salsa's sister. Faiq stared fixedly at Annisa, as Annisa was right in front of her. With a gaze that is not easily interpreted. Faiq was astonished to hear Annisa calling out to him. During this time he and Annisa rarely say hello, even almost never. Faiq felt that something was very important. So Annisa greets him and chases him. It was clear that Annisa's face was panicking. Faiq silently stared waiting for Annisa to approach him.

"What's wrong? Tell me quickly, I need to get to mushola!" faiq said coldly without the slightest smile. Annisa gulped her saliva roughly, there was fear as she faced off against Faiq. Cold and uncaring attitude Faiq to women. In contrast to the hospitality of Fathan the elder brother. With a slightly hoarse voice. Annisa tried to answer Faiq's question. At first glance Annisa is fascinated by the appearance and prestige of Faiq. Although the age of both is very far away. But in kinship, Faiq can be said to be his cousin. Annisa harbored an incomprehensible admiration. Faiq became an exemplary student on his campus. While in the hospital, Faiq became a great doctor who always treated his patients with hospitality and warmth.

"Doctor Annisa, I don't understand what you mean. I told you from the beginning, I can't join. I'm just a young doctor, with no experience. I still have a lot to learn. So again, I'm sorry. I can't help you. You are a doctor with above average skills. You should be able to provide much better care. Of course you as a senior doctor, must know many great doctors. So you don't really need the help of a young doctor like me. You better have another doctor take care of Naufal!" said Faiq, then left Annisa who was silent. Never did she expect, Faiq could be that cold to her. At least Faiq did not feel sorry for Naufal. Though consciously Faiq knew. If Naufal was the husband of Salsa, who was none other than her own aunt. Faiq seems to forget the family relationship. Just for the sake of a principle that is not easily understood by others.

"Doctor Muhammad Faiq Alhakim, is not the meaning of your name a wise man-winner. Why do I feel you are nothing more than a vengeful man? I'm sorry I hurt Mama Hana. It was all my fault, nothing to do with papa. But it seems that wisdom that is nothing but the meaning of your name does not match. A doctor should always help patients. Without thinking of refusing, is not a doctor there for a sick patient. What does the white coat you wear? If to help a patient you need experience, that's really just an excuse for how you repay me. The white color of medical suit describes the clean color. The foundation of a doctor who must have a clean heart!" said Annisa lirih, Sontak Faiq turned his head. He walked backwards closer to Annisa. He stared at Annisa who kept looking down. If he could, it would be like Faiq to lift Annisa's chin. So that he could see the honesty in both of his eyes. Hope Annisa can see the seriousness of Faiq's words. What he said, not just an excuse. I want Faiq to say it out loud. That he is not a liar. But he realized, his attitude would only make Annisa embarrassed.

"Doctor Annisa Maulida Zahro, listen to me carefully. If you need to look me in both eyes. So that you can see the honesty that I will say. If you think rejection, I'm no other way to take revenge on you. I can make sure you are wrong. I am a doctor not a gambler. I will not gamble with the lives of others. For the sake of revenge. As a doctor, I am not allowed to refuse patients, but I accept the responsibility that should be the right of others. Even if no one says it, you should realize. I'm just a young and new doctor at this hospital. What will senior doctors say? When the care of the chief director of the hospital is charged to me. How do they feel about me? Will they behave normally or even there will be awkwardness. Not that I'm not willing to help. But it would be nice, let the senior doctors take care of him. If they give up, I'll try. We live in a world full of fights and I'm not a man who likes to fight. I'll be out when everyone starts giving up!" faiq said, Annisa was stunned. He did not expect that simple thinking could have such a broad meaning. Annisa lowered her head in embarrassment, after hearing the reason behind Faiq's refusal.

"Sorry!" sahut Annisa, Faiq was silent without budding. He stepped away, the voice of the azan was finished. Everyone was waiting for Faiq to become a prayer priest. Annisa looked at Faiq's back that was starting to move away. Broad thinking, behind a very young age. Annisa was proud of the simple thought of a Faiq.

"Doctor Annisa, until when are you standing here? Soon the prayer will begin. Is not the mukena that you bring, indicating that you will go to mushola. I will not wait for you, even though I know you will be my prayer makmum. There are many people in Mushola waiting for me. Decide for yourself, you'll either keep quiet or start walking towards the mushola!" faiq said shortly after turning to Annisa who was silent at the pecking. Annisa shook her head weakly, then walked along Faiq's long steps towards the mushola. Annisa continued to ponder every word that came out of Faiq. Something Annisa never thought of. A simple thought that will never be in everyone's mind.

"I don't think my opinion of you is wrong. I thought you refused to help me, because of your grudge against me. I didn't expect, you rejected me with a very long thought. You have always been superior to others. Without thinking to outperform. Now you choose silence, for the honor of your senior. I'm proud to hear your reasons, but as a child. Can't I be selfish and just think about my papa's recovery. Forgetting for a moment the feeling of being left out by others. Doctor Faiq, I hope you change your mind. I need your help, for the sake of my papa's recovery. If you can be my prayer priest. Can't I awaken papa's hope of healing to you. Only you are my last hope. If there was a way I could take. For papa's sake, I'll do it. Doctor Faiq, please take care of Papa. At least I can hope, papa can recover if taken care of by you!" annisa's mind as she continued to stare at Faiq's distant back. Annisa walked quickly after Faiq. He does not want to be late to pray.