STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
Vania Aulia Azzahra

About a week faiq and fellow doctors were in the Rizal pesantren. Davina and Annisa look at home in the pesantren. But sometimes Davina is upset to see the closeness between Faiq and Vania. Both always look compact doing anything. Faiq always paid attention to Davina's attitude. Little by little Faiq began to keep his distance from Vania. But the closeness of both has been established since childhood. A quiet person makes both of them easy to get along with. Sometimes even the closeness of the two is misunderstood by people who see. Everyone thought Vania was none other than Faiq's future wife, not her cousin. Since childhood, Vania only knew Faiq. He has never been friends with the opposite sex. Life in the pesantren seems not to allow all that to happen. Vania is used to living away from men. Vania feels comfortable when she doesn't know the opposite sex.

Vania Aulia Azzahra was the first daughter of Rizal and Kiara. He grew up in a boarding school. After graduating SMU Vania went abroad. He studied religion in one of the Islamic countries. Vania attended one of the best campuses in the country. Vania returned home after her education was over. His appearance has changed. The veil had completely covered his face now. No longer looks pretty. Faiq did not recognize Vania, but one thing did not change. The same cold person as Faiq. One of the reasons that makes the two so close. A quiet person, but light hands. Both have a noble heart. They don't want to see others hard. They are always afraid of the troubles of others.

After a day of checking the santri and santriwati in the pesantren. Faiq always let go of tired by sitting casually in a small cottage right in front of Rizal's house. Almost every night Faiq sat staring at the sky. The stars and moon that fill the night sky, and the cold night wind. Makes Faiq feel calm and peaceful. The sound of the night animals that are mutually unpretentious. Sounds beautiful in Faiq's ears. Harmony of the tone of the night that will not be able to be imitated and belied. Everything is made so real and soothing for those who look at it. Faiq did not realize that Vania was walking towards him. Vania and Faiq have always been a compact team. Do they always help anyone in need? Their hands will be light when helping others.

"Coffee!" greeting Vania, Faiq turned his head while receiving the cup of coffee that Vania offered. Faiq invited Vania to sit next to him. Both of them enjoyed a beautiful night with a cup of coffee. Although they are very familiar. But they did not easily let out his heart. Both are just compact when it comes to helping others. Not in personal matters. Faiq remains a person who does not easily say his heart to anyone?

Faiq and Vania were always staring at the night sky. When both feel lonely and anxious. Two people with the same way of thinking. Neither Faiq nor Vania had any indifferent nature to each other. But it was their attitude that brought them closer. Vania can't get close to Fathan. Fathan is always warm to anyone? Vania finds it hard to understand Fathan's way of thinking. Although actually Fathan is easy to guess. But Fathan's warm demeanor makes Vania awkward. He's more comfortable with Faiq. A very cold and indifferent person.

"Thank you!" sahut Faiq lirih, then look back at the sky tonight. Faiq and Vania dissolved in their own thoughts. Slowly but surely, the distance between the two began to be felt. Moreover, Faiq felt the need to get a little away from Vania. So that Davina wouldn't get too hurt. Instead Vania begins to understand the boundaries between them. The boundary that should exist between women and men. But their closeness is not easily separated. If they were not brothers, they might have been married couples. Their closeness will remain only a brother. There will never be more.

"You remain the same, pouring all your sorrow and fatigue into the sky. If the heavens could complain, perhaps now he would complain. For almost every day you hear your complaints!" vania said softly, Faiq smiled faintly at the words of Vania. While sipping coffee made by Vania. Faiq continued to stare at such a beautiful painting of the night sky. Vania understands Faiq inside out. How was Faiq's attitude when there was a problem? Or to whom would Faiq dare to speak the truth? All understood Faiq's unease with heart. He always understood when Faiq was anxious and agitated. Although Vania finds out when Faiq is injured. But Vania never interfered. Vania appreciates Faiq's silence. Vania was always patiently waiting for Faiq to say all his heart. If Faiq remained silent, it meant that the problem Faiq was facing was not worth knowing to others.

"Maybe the sky will cry at my grievances every night. You know, I'm not the one who can tell anyone about my problems? Including my mom, someone I admire a lot. Only in the night sky can I tell you. For he is a reflection of my heart, dark and silent. I saw my cold self, though the light of the moon and the stars wanted to shine on it. But the sky remains dark and cold. Like my heart is still dark, even though Davina's love is there to shine on it!" faiq said, Vania smiled behind her veil. He looked at Faiq's sharp gaze. A gaze that held the anxiety of his heart to Davina. The fear of loss made Faiq feel uneasy. Although she knew for sure, Davina loved him very much. But Faiq's cold attitude all along. Making her low self-esteem, she's afraid of losing Davina's love. Vania silently listened to Faiq's complaint. Trying to understand the worried Faiq.

"Faiq, that's how much you love Davina. Until you fear that you will hurt him with your cold attitude. I realized as cold or as hard as someone's heart. Later there will be a heart that can warm and soften it. Now I see the true meaning of love. You love Davina, but you never expected to be with her. But you have to trust me. If Davina will be able to warm your heart cold. Davina's love will shine a light on your days. Truly, there is no need for you to doubt the sincerity of love between you!" vania said, Faiq nodded. There was a deep breath of Faiq. He breathed as much as possible. He wanted to escape the burden of the mind that had been stuck in his mind since yesterday. Why did his mind get so fucked up? Davina made her life restless. No one knows how much Faiq loves Davina. But one thing is for sure, only Davina can make Faiq fall apart. She's the woman who's plaguing Faiq's days. There would be no other woman who could make Faiq turn away.

"He is happy with your love, but he is not sure of your heart. He still hesitates, your heart has completely become his. Davina's not changing, she's just hesitating what kind of behavior? In love there is a fear of loss. It was that feeling that made Davina behave like everyone else. As long as I know him, he's been a good person. His love for you made him behave carefully. He doesn't want you to get angry and leave him. Even when we're sitting together like we are now. Davina will just keep her watching, restraining all anger and jealousy. Although she had to hold back her tears until her chest felt tight. Davina's gonna do it, it's all a miracle of love. If Davina becomes an adult in front of you. Why don't you learn to be warm in front of him? Realize Faiq, he is the master who will be behind you. Later on you show her crying and laughter. Trust your heart to him. He's a mum who's gonna follow your footsteps!" vania said, Faiq nodded slowly. Faiq turned his head towards Davina who was standing leaning against the door. It felt like Faiq was running to hug her, but there was a restriction blocking the two. Davina may be in her heart, but Davina is still not her faith. Everything Faiq felt for Davina was still very inappropriate. But when the sacred bond has already occurred. No one will be able to separate them.

"Vania, love is beautiful but scary. Now I feel so far away from him. But I'm afraid I'll lose control when I'm around him. Really do not play with love when it is just a nap. I can't be warm to her. My coldness is the way I get away from her. At least until there is a sacred bond between us!" faiq lirih. Vania nodded in understanding, she stood up leaving Faiq.

"Faiq, love is beautiful and not scary. But lovers who are weak in faith will find it frightening. If all of them can't be arrested. It would be nice to tie that love in the bonds of marriage. Don't forget, we never know what's going on tomorrow? Reassure Mother Hana, your marriage must be carried out immediately. Before eve napsu corrupts the sanctity of your love!" vania said, then walked away from Faiq. Leaving Faiq with a distant wishful thinking into the future.

From the beginning Vania sat down with Faiq. Davina stood staring at the two. There is anger and jealousy. However Davina is aware of Faiq and Vania's brother. There will be no other feeling than brotherhood.

"Why is he so comfortable with Vania? As for talking to me, five minutes is like an hour. Always shy and angry when with me. Is this what is called love? Why do I feel unfair? I held back the jealousy, whereas he sat down casually with Vania. He clearly saw me!" grumbling Davina, Annisa smiled at Davina grumbling. He approached Davina, giving her a bottle of mineral water.

"For comfort and love are different. If he is comfortable with Vania, because they are the same in nature and way of thinking. But if with you Faiq feels love. Because in you, Faiq found a difference that makes him happy!" annisa said softly, Davina turned her head in surprise. Davina saw Annisa smiling towards her, instead Davina shook her head weakly.

"If she loves me, why can't she be comfortable with me. Doesn't that mean, Brother Faiq feels I can't understand his heart and mind!" davina lirih.

"It's not that you're inappropriate, but people like Faiq and Annisa have a different perspective. So too Vania who will feel comfortable talking to Faiq. Rather than tell us his parents!"