STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
The Ex-Love

Since morning blind Hana has been away from home. He came out after dawn prayers. Usually, Hannah would go back to her room. This morning, he accidentally left the house. Hana went without saying goodbye to anyone? Especially Rafa, Hana doesn't want Rafa to know where he's going? Hana wanted to go alone, with no one to follow.

Since last night Hana thought of something. Today was exactly the day that both of Hana's parents died. Hana had never been to the tomb. Rafa deliberately pays more to the tomb caretaker. For him to take good care of Hana's parents' grave. But I don't know why the last few days? Hannah wanted to come to the tomb. Hana used to come, when she was sad or happy. Ever since she married Rafa and she found out Rafa was the one who accidentally bumped into her parents. Hannah never came to the tomb again. Only the prayer after the prayer that he sent for the forgiveness of the sins of his parents.

After arriving at the tomb, Hana cleaned the graves of her parents. Hana borrows a broomstick and a machete from the caretaker. Hana painstakingly cleaned the weeds that grew over the tomb. Hana seemed to forget all her anxiety and regret. Hannah began to feel calm.

Hana comes not as the wife of Rafa Akbar Prawira. She came as a simple princess. There was no luxury inherent in Hana's body. Just a simple negligee Hana was wearing. A negligee that might be cheap for a Rafa. But it is very expensive for a Hana Khairunnisa. The irony of the life Hana lived. The luxury that Hana felt, like a Cinderella story. But Hana is still a simple Hana. Nothing will change, even if he gets the luxury.

Sometimes Hana looked up at the gloomy sky. Since morning, why did the embarrassed sun show his face? No ordinary light illuminates the morning. There is no warmth that gives spirit to all beings. Hana heard a loud voice. The lightning bolt struck felt very close. Although invisible to the eye, but can be felt by Hana. The wind was blowing very hard, hitting his long hijab. The cold wind pierced Hana's bones.

Hannah hastened her work. He must leave the tomb immediately. Otherwise Hana will be rained. The sky is so dark, indicating that there will be a very heavy rain. A few minutes later, Hana was done. He was caught between the graves of his parents. Hannah raised her hand, begging for forgiveness for her parents. Tahlil and Yasin were heard from Hana's lips. Only the prayer that Hana is now able to give as a last service for her late parents.

"Hana!" greeting Rama, Hana looked up to look at Rama. The man who has ever killed it. But must succumb, when the matchmaking path brings Hana to Rafa. Rama chose to retreat for the principles that Hana held firmly.

"Rama, what are you doing here? Who died?" hana said anxiously, while standing face to face with Rama. With a head, Rama answered Hana's question. Although surprised Hana remained silent waiting for Rama's answer.

Hana stared at Rama. The appearance remains the same, neat and polite with glasses attached to two beautiful eyes. Rama has never changed in the past. Unbeknownst to Hana, Rama always comes to the tomb of Hana's parents. For the relationship that was between them before. Without expecting a new relationship between them.

"Nobody died. I purposely came on a pilgrimage to the graves of your parents. Almost every year I come, but this year it looks like we're dating. How are you, Hana?" rama said kindly, Hana nodded with a smile. Rama looked down when he saw Hana smiling. Rama won't be able to see Hana's hospitality. Hana's smile that made Rama captivated first and maybe now the smile was able to make him captivated again.

"Thank you, you always remember my parents. Even though you never knew him. You are still willing to pray for it. Maybe this is all in return for their kindness to me. May your kindness be avenged!" hana said softly, Rama nodded slowly. Hana and Rama looked down at the two headstones lined up. Nisan written the names of Hana's father and mother.

"Hana, now we better start praying. It might rain soon. If it's too long we can be rained on!" rama said, Hana nodded slowly. Then the two crouched down near the grave of Hana's parents.

Hana sits beside her mother's grave, while Rama sits beside her father's grave. Both began to raise their hands. Reading tahlil and tahmid together. Hana and Rama get to know each other when they become members of a mushola teen. So both are very pragmatic will read tahlil and tahmid.

When Hana and Rama were praying. Faiq and Fathan glide towards the graves of Hana's parents. After hearing Davina's words, Faiq felt confident that Hana was at the grave of his grandparents. Faiq immediately contacted Fathan and asked him to go to the tomb. Anyone who got there first? He will contact first.

Faiq arrived five minutes earlier than Fathan. He and Davina saw Hana praying between the graves of her parents. Faiq felt a little astonished. When a man prayed with Hannah. A man who is not Rafa. Davina wanted to see Hana, but was soon prevented by Faiq.

"Wait, leave mom alone. He came here without telling us. Of course he doesn't want us to bother him either. There was a time when my mom wanted to be alone. Let the mama be alone, our job is to watch over the mama and calm the papa!" faiq said firmly and coldly, Davina nodded doubtfully. Then he turned his head to look at Faiq's cold face. There was a clear relief in sight, but there was a sense of anxiety that Faiq still could not explain.

"Why should we calm papa down? My mother was found. I'm sure papa will be fine!" said Davina plainly, faiq shook his head weakly. He pointed at the man sitting not far from Hana.

"He who will arouse papa's anger. He was the first man to be close to his mother after all these years. Especially when mom left without saying goodbye. Do you think papa will be quiet and calm looking at all this? Even though I believe that man is nobody mama? But you have to understand, when men are jealous. Just anger speaking, sense seemed to disappear without rest!" faiq said softly, Davina nodded with a smile.

"I think only jealous women are unclear. In fact now men are also jealous is unclear!" said Davina quipped Faiq, but Faiq scrunched his forehead. He was shocked to hear Davina's words that seemed to insinuate him.

"My lovely darling, we continue that at home. There's a more serious problem than that. Mama was walking here, and papa had just arrived with Brother Fathan. So be prepared to calm papa down!" faiq said affectionately, Davina shook her head weakly.

"Why are you here?" said Hana, Davina embraces Hana's left hand. While Faiq embraces Hana's right hand. Both of them expressed anxiety that had hit them. Fear of losing Hana.

"Sorry Brother Rama, I forgot. He's my son Faiq and this is my son-in-law Davina. I forgot to introduce you!" hana introduced the two. Politely Faiq kissed the back of Rama's hand, while Davina cupped her hand toward Rama. With a knotty smile, Rama replied to the warm attitude of Faiq and Davina.

"You're lucky Hana, your son is handsome and your daughter-in-law is beautiful. Both are polite and kind as you are. All right, looks like it's gonna rain. I have to get home!" rama said, Hana nodded with a smile.

Then suddenly Faiq elbowed Hana's arm, he winked at Hana. There was a signal that something was looking at him. Hana turned her head in the direction Faiq pointed. Fathan stands with Rafa.

"Hana, you went to hide to meet him. Aren't you ashamed to meet Rama at the funeral? I'm worried about thinking about your departure. You are busy with Rama. You're outrageous Hana!" rafa said in emotion, Faiq shook his head weakly. Fathan held Rafa's hand. He doesn't expect Rafa's anger to become more. Instead Hana was acting very calm. He did not care, even ignoring Rafa's explosive emotions.

"I went without saying goodbye, but not to meet Rama. He himself came to the tomb of father and mother. We happen to meet!" hana said calmly, Rafa became even more inflamed when Hana admitted to leaving quietly. Fathan and Faiq were astonished to see the quarrel they had never seen. Davina gawked at the sight of her two opposite in-laws. Rafa is tempramental and Hana is very calm. Fire and water meet. One burns and the other cools.

"Hana, you're not ashamed to admit you've left without saying goodbye to me. You're my wife, you should have asked me for permission. At least I know where you're going? I can go with you when needed. Not even I saw you meet your most beautiful ex!" said Rafa getting upset, Sontak Faiq and Fathan looked up in disbelief. Davina shut her mouth, right after Rafa finished talking.

"Have this angry papa. It turns out Rama's ex-boyfriend!" inner Faiq while shaking his head.

Hana was silent to Rafa's words that were getting more and more slurred. Hana can't believe, Rafa can be this angry. Hana didn't want any bigger misunderstandings. Hana knows Rafa's character. When Rafa is emotional, sometimes beyond the limits of reason.

"We should go home, it would be inappropriate to argue at the tomb. At least appreciate the other pilgrims!" hana said softly and calmly, Rafa shook his head weakly. He held Hana's hand to stop. When he saw Hana walking towards Faiq's car. Fathan looks anxious to see Rafa's anger.

"Papa, mama's right. We better go home. It's inappropriate for us to fight here!" said Fathan Lirih, Rafa immediately turned his head to look sharply at Fathan. It was as if Rafa was asking Fathan to shut up. Faiq placed his index finger in front of his lips. A signal to keep Fathan or Davina quiet. They can only watch, without the right to interfere. Faiq believes Hana or Rafa are both adults. But when something goes over the limit, Faiq is the first to act.

"Hana, did you go here alone? Because I was the one who hit both of your parents. That's why you secretly came without inviting me. Do you still blame me for the deaths of your parents? How many times do I have to apologize. Do you blame me for the deaths of your parents!" said Rafa Lirih, Faiq and Fathan were increasingly surprised by the reality they had just heard. The two never thought, there was a big secret that was kept tightly in the peace of the marriage of Hana and Rafa.

"I have no right to blame or justify you for the deaths of my parents. The fact that the accident that befell my parents, is none other than your negligence. It won't be easily erased. I did not want to come with you, because today I came as their daughter. Not as the wife of Rafa Akbar Prawira. People who accidentally become excuses, tragic accidents that befall them. Don't be surprised, Mr. Rafa, behind our happiness. There are facts that will stick and continue to hurt me. After all, your accusation is like the index pointing at you!" hana said, Rafa took a few steps back. Fathan restrains Rafa's body which starts to stagger. It was as if Hana's honesty had ruined her. Instead Faiq felt the pain Hana was trying to endure.

"I'm not gonna bring this up. If you just shut up and trust me. I am not a cheap woman who will easily remember the past. Sometimes I want to go back to being a simple Hana Khairunnisa. The reality of the luxury and happiness of our family has not entirely made me comfortable. We're too takabur, thinking we'll be happy forever. Don't forget there will be sadness. Laws of nature that cannot be changed!" hana said, then walked away from Rafa.

"One more thing, since you first know clearly. Your jealousy is so imprecise. I will not seek comfort from another man. Even though your arms aren't as comfortable as they used to be!" hana said again.

"Davina, never be jealous of Faiq. Be a strong woman, so that men appreciate your value. We are weak in love, but we are strong in love. When they betray our love, turn their betrayal with regret. Something that is wrong will not be right forever. There will be times when they will fall for their own betrayal!" hana said, then pulled Davina into Faiq's car. Hana leaves Rafa who is pensive to hear her words. Rafa is aware of his mistakes that bring up the past. So Hana said something she shouldn't have said.

"Mama, you're making me look wrong!" faiq lirih. Then get in the car. Hana sat in the back seat. He threw his face out the window of Faiq's car.

"Why did Mom do all this?" said Faiq, suddenly Hana turned her head while wiping her tears that dripped.

"You mean!"

"Why keep the tears that should have been dripping earlier?" said Faiq lirih, Hana shook her head weakly. Faiq could always see his tears.

"Because mom loves your dad. Mama didn't want to make papa ruined by seeing these tears. Enough he feels guilty, no need for him to see my destruction. His love for me and my love for him, made us have to endure and be happy. There are tears to be held back!"