STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
The Tears of Faiq

The night grew quieter, the clock on the wall showing midnight. Davina stood fretfully waiting for Faiq to come home. Faiq should have been home since the afternoon or no later than after the magrib prayer. But somehow until midnight Faiq had not come home.

Davina waited for Faiq with a sense of uneasiness. He tries to contact Faiq, but Faiq's phone is off. Davina tried to contact the hospital. Officers said Faiq had been home since evening. Davina grew anxious after learning Faiq was not in the hospital. Davina is unlikely to contact Faiq's parents or Fathan Faiq's older brother. Davina didn't want them to worry about Faiq.

Davina continued to wait for Faiq, her eyes as if heavy to stay awake. Davina was getting sleepy, but Faiq never came. There's no sign that Faiq is coming home tonight. Davina decided to wait for Faiq in the room. Actually Faiq always carries a spare key. So easily Faiq can get into the house. Without waiting for Davina to open the door.

At exactly 01:30 in the morning, Faiq arrived at his house. He deliberately came home very late, so that he would not meet Davina. Faiq still could not bear to see the plain face of Davina. The face that endured the pain, hid a very deep sorrow. Faiq went inside the house, then walked slowly towards his room. He's convinced that Davina's wife is asleep. Faiq was right, he saw Davina curled up behind the blanket.

Faiq crouched down in front of Davina's body. Saw Davina's jet hair closing some of her beautiful eyes. Faiq rubbed gently the hair that closed Davina's beautiful eyes. Eyes that nourish Faiq's heart. The clarity of the eyes that Faiq always wanted to see. Lama Faiq looked at Davina's face. Then Faiq gently dyed Davina's forehead.

"I'm not going to let you go for any reason. I will not approve your request. I won't even hear your stupid request. I'd better stay away from you. Than I should have lost you. Don't ever think of leaving me. Forever you are in my heart. Even though the word forever never existed. I will fight forever with you!" inner Faiq pilu.

Without feeling the tears Faiq dripped down his handsome face. The pain that Davina was deliberately killing made her even more hurt. Faiq hit his chest slowly, there was a great sense of pain. Faiq bit his wrist strongly, so that his cries could not be heard by Davina. Faiq was no longer able to endure the pain. She wouldn't be able to imagine, Davina everything in her life.

FLASHBACKS

Since morning Faiq went around checking on his patients. When he was standing right in front of the file room. He overheard some officers whispering. Sayub Faiq heard they were talking about a patient. Though the ethics of the medical team, should not discuss the patient's condition openly. Or accidentally spreading the condition of a patient, except to his family. As a doctor and hospital leader. Faiq was angry to see the attitude of the medics who were not in accordance with ethics.

Faiq was a warm doctor, but as a leader Faiq was very hard and disciplined. He won't rule out medical mistakes. Who is that when it comes to patients? For Faiq the rules remain the rules that all medics must abide by. He was no exception as the hospital leader.

"What are you doing here? It is not good to talk about the condition of the patient. Don't you know the rules that apply? If you hear someone else's talk. It will be difficult for the hospital. Your attitude does not reflect that of a responsible medical officer!" said Faiq emotion, the two hospital officials were surprised to see the arrival of Faiq. They clearly knew how Faiq's leadership was. How Faiq will deal with officers who do not comply with the rules or code of conduct of medical personnel.

Both of Faiq's eyes were perfectly rounded, Faiq was surprised to see the name. Faiq flipped through the medical records. As a doctor, Faiq easily read the written data. A lightning bolt during the day that struck his body. Faiq's entire bone was destroyed, not left. His body felt weak shortly after reading the patient's medical record. The patient was none other than his wife, Davina Nur Latifah. A woman who has been with him for almost a year. A drop of Faiq's tears fell on the paper. Faiq's body trembled violently, his lips twitching at the diagnosis stated in the report.

"When has he been in this hospital? Why don't I ever know about any of this?" faiq asked loudly while staring at the two officers who kept their heads down. It was not the answer Faiq received. Because they just kept quiet. There was nothing more the two officers could do. No one dared to answer Faiq's question. Code of conduct prohibits telling the patient's condition. Without the patient's permission. The reason that made everyone shut their mouths shut. Although they know, if Davina is the wife of the leader and the daughter-in-law of the owner of this hospital.

"Why can you keep a secret this big? Davina my wife, I deserve to know this truth. Why are you keeping such a big secret? Wh why? What wrong? Even if he forbids you, at least I should be there when he feels pain!" faiq said softly, again and again Faiq's tears dripped. Tears from the heart, regrets that Faiq could not bear. Tears that are no longer ashamed to fall. A doctor as great as Muhammad faiq Alhakim wept in front of his employees.

FLASH BACK OFF

"Sister Faiq, are you home yet? Why is Faiq crying? Something happened that I didn't know!" davina said, Faiq shook his head weakly. Davina's hand gently rubbed Faiq's head. While asleep, sayub Davina heard Faiq's crying voice. Davina felt Faiq deliberately held back her cries so she wouldn't hear them. I don't know what burden Faiq is bearing? Davina didn't know it at all.

"It is not me who keeps secrets, but you who keep great secrets from me. You think I mean nothing. What was my fault until you got that old?" faiq said softly, Davina shook her head weakly. He realized the direction of Faiq's conversation. Davina sat right in front of Faiq. He raised Faiq's face, Davina saw both Faiq's eyes red. Faiq's tears were seen dripping. Davina was approaching Faiq. Davina gently kissed Faiq's eyes. Then Davina kissed the old Faiq's forehead.

"Sister Faiq, these shedding tears. The reason I kept all this. I can endure the pain, but I won't be able to see your tears drip. I'll have the heart to lie to you, lest I see your uneasiness. You are my husband at once. You are the breath and spirit of my life. I will not be able to fight this pain. When I see your sadness. I just want to be the reason for your happiness, not your sadness. I'm sorry if my decision hurt you. Don't cry, I need your smile!" davina said softly, then pulled Faiq's head. Davina clutched Faiq's face in her arms. The warmth of Davina made Faiq a little calm. Forgetting the harsh reality he knew. Davina pulled Faiq's body onto the bed. Davina asks Faiq to sleep. Davina slept with Faiq's chest. He could clearly hear the beating heart of Faiq who was hunting.

"I may be sick, but with your smile I feel good. I don't need a cure, the one you've always missed. Don't think I'm sick, let me be healthy around you. Keep smiling for me, the wife who always needs you. If you cry, who will wipe away my tears? If you are sad, then who am I looking for happiness? Trust me I'll be fine. As long as you're beside me!" davina said, closing both eyes. Feeling the warmth Faiq gave. The Deck of Faiq that always makes Davina feel comfortable. Faiq kissed the top of Davina's head long ago. To pour out all the restlessness he had in his heart.

"Don't leave me!"