STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
Consent

"Have you found an answer to my proposal. Do you doubt the earnestness and firmness of my love!" steven said breaking the Nuur daydream.

Nuur looked up to see Steven standing next to Nuur. Steven sat right in front of Nuur. They both promised to meet tonight. Steven's answer ends tonight. The deadline given by Steven, to get an approval or rejection. That's why today Steven's meeting Nuur. Whatever Nuur's answer is? Steven will take it with a chest. Without complaining or asking, Nuur has the right to decide.

"You have come. Should I answer your proposal tonight. Didn't you think back to ask me. My ribs are very fragile, no longer able to sustain or protect your honor. The life I live is full of sharp pebbles. It wasn't easy for me to get to this position. The steep road I'm on will only make you tired and hurt. It would be unwise for me to force you into this burdened life!" nuur said, Steven looked down silent.

Nuur turned to Steven. His silence seemed to confirm the words of Nuur. There is a sense that cannot be expressed. Nuur began to see doubt in Steven's eyes. Even though he said he wanted to see Steven stay away. But deep in his heart, Nuur was happy when anyone hoped to become his prayer priest. Why are you worried? One side she let go and on the other side she was expecting. Love makes him helpless. Between logic and conscience. Between love and the reality of life.

"How many times do you have to ask? How many times do I have to answer? That's how you're going to be me. Are you not sure if I can protect you? Whatever your burden may be, I will bear it with you. I will not feel all that burden. If our hands hold each other. Fight all those tests together. Ever since I saw you that night. I realized one thing. Everyone is not made with perfection. For there are others who will complete his life so that he will be perfect!" steven said, Nuur silently looked at the night sky in front of him.

The number of stars is not as much as the sense of trust stepping into a sacred bond with Steven. A man he had known for a few months. They met at a social service event organized by Faiq's foundation. At that time Faiq could not come. Steven and Vania are replacing Faiq. Nuur was one of the volunteers at the event. Coincidentally a place of social service, none other than the residence of Nuur. It was then that Vania met Nuur and made a friendship.

"How many times do I have to ask? I'm sure of the taste you offer. Not that I refused, but I was too afraid of getting hurt and hurting you. My past is not so easy to forget. There are a lot of stains in the white mucena that I wear. It was like the prayers and prayers I was doing. Not able to remove the stain. Now I deserve to be your prayer master. When I was still in doubt about the face I used!" said Nuur Lirih, his hand squeezed the tip of his hijab.

Steven could never understand Nuur's fear of his past. Fear that is not easily lost imprints deep in the mind. But Steven was sure he could get through it. Provided Nuur is willing to lean on his body. Believe in his heart. That there will be happiness for him when he is with Nuur. Believing that his ribs would be complete after being with Nuur.

"No, I can assure you. As long as you never want to believe it. No matter how much I believe and trust. Only in vain as long as you yourself continue to doubt yourself. It does not mean a person's faith, when he never believes in the written provisions for him. Like you who feel weak and low. I felt the same way when I loved Vania. The woman who is trying to get us closer now. But now I realize one thing. If perfect, it never existed. Perfect exists when we complement each other!" steven said firmly, Nuur looked astonished.

"What do you mean? Vania you mean Fathan's sister, don't you?" said Nuur softly, Steven nodded slowly. Instantly Nuur lowered her head weakly, "Why do I have to deal with two people from the same family? What secrets are hidden from Steven and Vania's relationship? This is why Vania brought me to Fathan. Explain the past that still holds up. The reason I always refused Steven's proposal!" inner Nuur. Steven saw Nuur's face change. As if angry to hear the name Vania called.

"Vania Aulia Azzahra, younger sister of Muhammad Fathan Alfarizqi. The man who introduced you to the meaning of love and made you migrate in search of faith and Islam. Two brothers who are in our past. I don't mind hearing about your past with Fathan. Because I also have a past with Vania. Same with the black stains in your life. I also had a dark stain in my youth. I stayed away from Vania, because I felt unworthy of her. But that does not mean I approach you, because you think you are more despicable or inferior than Vania. I ask you, because with you I want to learn Islam!" steven said, Nuur just looked down.

"Look at the gap in my fingers!" steven said as he extended his hand towards Nuur. Anxiously Nuur looked at Steven's hand.

But Nuur was astonished, when she saw nothing between Steven's fingers? Nuur continued to watch Steven's hand. But he found nothing. The longer he tried, the less he understood Steven's intentions.

"What do you really want to say? Don't worry me, tell me now what happened to you? Honestly you scared me. This is no longer funny!" said Nuur when she saw Steven smiling at the confused Nuur.

There is a sense of happiness in Steven. When he saw Nuur worried about her condition. A sense of love that Nuur deliberately keeps a meeting. Just because of the fear of hurting Steven. The reality that Nuur clearly shows, if the love is there.

"My hand is not hurt, it's just that my hand needs your hand. My fingers will never be tight and strong without your hands. My hand needs your hand, so that it can grip tightly and clench against the steepness of the life we are about to live. It's not you or me that's going to have this relationship. But the two of us who will walk hand in hand face the existing test. There will be no impossible words, if we believe and believe everything can happen. Whatever we will face. Think of it as a test of our love. Don't give up on being happy. Because my happiness is with you. With or without your past!" steven said softly, Nuur nodded slowly.

"Thank you for teaching me the meaning of love and faith!" sahut Nuur's.