STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
Guide Me...

The morning was greeted with great enthusiasm. The sound of the rooster goes hand in hand with the cry of the second sons Rafa and Hana. The sun was bursting out from the eastern horizon, as if shining on a newly born red baby. The anticipated baby is full of anxiety by people who love Hana. The baby may have been born from Hana's womb, but grew up with the affection of those who loved Hana.

The little baby looked at the sun with both eyes still closed. A little prince was reborn from Hana's womb. The younger brother of Fathan and the light of Rafa and Hana's love. Strengthening the wedding rope that seems to continue to experience problems. A baby born from Hana's struggle against her illness. A handsome baby who is able to melt the hearts of women who look at him. His face and eyes were very similar to Hana's. Natural looks, sweet is not boring. As if to show his identity as proof of Rafa's love for Hana.

After cleaning the pangerang keci given to Rafa for diazani. With trembling hands Rafa carried the tiny body of the son. Rafa's voice trembled, mute as if unable to say anything? Both eyes Rafa stared at the greatness of Allah SWT in his arms. A baby created by his love for Hana. A life lived and born from the womb of his wife. Rafa stared at every inch of the son's face.

Rafa clearly saw the two black eyes of the son. Very similar to Hana, sweet but firm full of clarity. Hana is always calm, but scary when hurt or in doubt. Rafa gently touched the thin lips of the son. The lips that Hana had, seemed to move on to the son. The lips that will say the same thoughts as the mother. Only the nose of the son is the same as his. Looks sharp and charming, the only charm Rafa decreased on the baby. Rafa clasped his tiny hand, only Rafa's finger was capable of grasping. As Rafa cried, he saw such a beautiful grace. Now in his arms. Rafa kissed the son's forehead.Rafa's tears dripped down the son's cheeks. There will be no more beautiful happiness than this.

With a vibrating sound Rafa mazani and iqomah. Rafa called for the voice of the azan with great melodiousness. In both ears of the son. The first voice that was heard in the son's ear. If Fathan was born when Rafa's faith was far from perfect. Now the younger brother felt how capable the father was to be a real priest. Rafa declared the azan full of passion as if to say all the meaning. Proof of the greatness of Allah SWT as the Creator.

After nearly 3 hours of unconsciousness. Finally Hana opened her two beautiful eyes inside one of the hospital rooms. Hana blinked her eyes, spreading her eyes all over the room. Hana saw the crib not far from her. Hana smiled realizing that the son had been born. Hana tries to get up, but Hana's body is weak. Finally Hana just looked at the son with a smile. A Hana's relief after nine months of struggling. Defending the son is over and pays off with a joy.

Hana kept staring at the crib where the son was fast asleep. A much awaited happiness, a lamp in her marriage. A light that will illuminate the darkness in his household. His best gift to Rafa, proof of Hana's love for Rafa.

"Darling!" sapa Rafa surprises Hana. As Hana turned her head, Rafa was already standing right beside her. Hana looked at Rafa's beautiful face. It's obvious Rafa didn't sleep last night. Wudhu water soaked his handsome face. A handsome face that once put him in darkness. A grace that can destroy him.

Rafa leaned closer to Hana. Rafa recites Al-Fatihah's letter, then blows it on Hana's crown. Rafa kissed Hana's forehead very long and soft. Rafa recites the letter of Al-Fatihah, the essence of the Qur'an as an expression of gratitude to Hana.

Rafa is grateful to have known Hana. The gift Hana gave was very memorable and meaningful to Rafa. Only something special can replace it. Not a treasure he had, but something very precious. Hana stared in astonishment, as Rafa blew Al-Fatihah's letter. Hana is shocked when Rafa does it. Hana never thought, Rafa was able to do all this.

"Why?" hana said with a hoarse and limp voice. A single word that was able to represent Hana's shock. One word that needs an answer will be Rafa's strange attitude. Not that Hana dislikes it, even Hana is very happy when Rafa does it. For years Hana waited for that voice. Not an expression of love for him, but the expression of Rafa's love for Allah SWT. Proof of Rafa's earnestness in loving Hana with faith.

In her astonishment and shock, Hana involuntarily cried. He felt a happy feeling that multiplied in one moment. The birth of the son, as well as the voice he longed for, had been heard in his ear. Rafa wiped Hana's tears. Rafa bowed kissing both of Hana's beautiful eyes.

Gently Rafa clasped Hana's hand. Rafa gently rubbed his never-tired hand grasping his empty soul. A faithful body awaits her faith. A faithful wife accepts insults and insults, not for the sake of living luxuriously with her. But for the faith that disappeared from his soul first. A silent woman loves him, without demanding anything. Only Rafa's self-awareness and sincerity awaited him. Hana Khairunnisa who loves Rafa with faith and Islam. Not to anyone else, Hana proved it. Only in Allah SWT, Hana proved her love and devotion. Not to Rafa, Hana demands change. With his prostration and prayer Hana asked Rafa to change his faith and Islam.

"Darling, you know why I did it. Forgive me for taking so long to realize your love for me. A love that needs no proof or a life of luxury. The love that always prays for me, that I may return to His ways. Baby, I heard your heart. Your longing for my voice reciting the holy verse. A simple hope you never expressed. Just for the sake of an awareness and respect for me. I heard everything, your crying voice wishing I had recited Al-Fatihah while you were asleep. As a voice that protects you. I saw tears coming. Holy tears that miss my voice reciting the Holy Quranic verse for our family. Forgive me for always taking everything treasure. I'm not gonna promise you. But your hope will come true. It is enough for you to miss my faith, it is time for me to change. Not for your sake or for our family, but for the sake of continuing to be with you in faith!" rafa said, Hana blinked both eyes. Assuming Rafa's words, Hana smiled at her handsome husband. Rafa's words were as if a fresh breeze in Hana's arid heart yearning for Rafa's guidance. Rafa's words of water that cools Hana's love thirst for faith. Only Rafa Hana seeks an imperfect faith.

"When?" hana said, Rafa smiled knot. Hana never realized, when did Rafa see all that? Because Hana never told anyone about her hopes? Hana always kept all her own curiosity, including the singing of Diana. Hana does not want others to know the weakness of the husband.

"Every time you cry in front of Fathan, say your wish so I can guide you. I wanted to feel like I wiped your tears. So that you may realize my existence. Every word you say, it is my passion to be the best priest for our family. Tears that were shed at that time. I'm not gonna let it drip back. Now I am ready to be the new Rafa, with faith and Islam as the foundation of my love!" said Rafa, Hana nodded then rubbed softly on Rafa's face.

"Why am I waiting for you all this time? What makes you feel unsure about guiding me? Am I not the perfect wife? My faith was perfect when my own husband became my prayer priest. I do not cry because of your weakness. I cried lamenting over me you never believed in. Rafa always prays the night by himself without taking me. You taught me in the dark of the night, without me being able to listen to it. I miss your hand, which invites me to sit next to you. I understand you, not a woman with strong faith. I will be together in every step. Not to surpass you, but I will always be below you. I long for the sound of you chanting a holy verse, without me having to hide. It is not the expression of love that you say out loud. Rafa, I am your aunt forever. I need your guidance, our son needs your advice. I'm weak without you, don't think I'm more than you. As long as you say love to me. That long as I want to hear your sweet voice!" hana said softly, Rafa nodded slowly.

"Thank you, you're patiently waiting for me!" said Rafa, Hana shook her head weakly.

"My body will never get tired of waiting for you. I will wait patiently for you to take me. I'm your teacher, lead me!" sahut Hana with a smile.