STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
Night Strolls

After dinner, Hana whines to go for a walk. Like a child Hana cried when Rafa forbade her to leave. Not rejecting Hana's request, but Hana's limp and slightly warm state. Makes Rafa anxious when he goes out Hana will get sicker. Cold night air is not good for pregnant women. Especially Hana who is not healthy. Rafa can't bear to see Hana crying like a child losing his toy.

Rafa's confusion persuades Hana not to cry. But his efforts were in vain, not to stop crying. As Hana grows older, she throws a pillow at Rafa. Hana's emotions were completely unstoppable. He is upset to hear Rafa forbid him from going out. The commotion that occurred rang out all the way to Kiara's room. Hana's angry shout made Kiara worried. Kiara immediately walked towards Hana's room. He wanted to see, what really happened?

"Sir Rafa, what's wrong with sister Hana? Why is he screaming like that? You're all grown up, still happy to fight!" kiara said, Rafa turned to Kiara. He looked at Kiara as if he wanted to devour her. Rafa is really scared to see Hana forcing her to go for a walk. Had Hana been healthy, Rafa wouldn't have banned her. But Hana's condition is different at this time. Hana has a fever and night wind is not good for pregnant women.

"Silent you, Hana whines to go for a walk. While he is not healthy. I'm afraid the night wind will make him even more sick. I was persuading him not to go. Not even silent, he was getting angry. Help me persuade him!" said Rafa annoyed, Kiara shook her head. Rafa glared at Kiara, but was ignored by Kiara. Kiara casually approached Hana. He intends to take Hana out with Rizal. Kiara could not bear to see Hana who whined wanted to get out of the house.

"Sister Hana, if Rafa doesn't let you go. How about we go three? I'll take Rizal's brother to take us. I want to take a walk too. Than at home to see Rafa's mad. It'll just make my heart hurt!" kiara said casually, Hana nodded in agreement. Rafa was flabbergasted to hear Kiara's words. Not helping to persuade Hana, instead Kiara will deliberately take Hana away. Rafa stared intently at Kiara. But Hana blocked that gaze, Hana was standing right in front of Kiara. As if to protect Kiara from Rafa's anger.

"Darling, I'm not banning you from leaving. You are sick. I don't want your condition to get worse. Especially if the air night must be very cold. You forgot it was cold last night. Come on, baby, next time. I promise to accompany you for a full day. As long as it's not tonight!" persuade Rafa to be friendly, Hana shook her head. Then looked down weakly, there was a sobbing sound from Hana's tiny lips. Not a loud cry, but the sobs of Hana can make Rafa more frustrated. Rafa's dilemma of allowing Hana to leave, will make her even more sick. Prohibiting Hana from leaving, can make Hana cry all night even until morning. Rafa grew increasingly upset when Hana did not stop whining. Hana continues to force, the peak when Hana says things that are not-no.

"Sir Rafa, why can't I go there? Is it only Sesil that Rafa's brother allows there? While I can't. Rafa's not banning me because I'm sick. But more because of your many memories with Sesil there!" hana lirih said on the sidelines of her cry. Rafa and Kiara are shocked to hear Hana's words. Since when did Hana know the places Rafa had visited with Sesil? When it comes to jealousy. Rafa could not argue. Rafa slowly approached Hana. Right in front of Hana, Rafa's two hands cupped Hana's cheeks. Rafa looked at the face that filled his entire heart and mind. Rafa looked at both of Hana's beautiful eyes red from crying. Hana's tears kept flowing. As if he did not want to stop, Rafa felt more guilty. Seeing the sadness so deep that Hana felt.

"Darling, I'll let you go. I'll drive you wherever you want to go? But please, never bring up my past. I get hurt every time you remind me of the memories with Sesil. Your jealousy makes me angry, I feel unworthy and unable to make you believe. Let's go now, I'll get you some warm clothes!" rafa said, then wiped away Hana's tears. Then kiss Hana soft forehead. Hana nodded happily, as Rafa promised to take her for a walk. Rafa held onto Hana tightly. If only from the beginning Hana was honest. If his desire is nothing but jealousy. Jealousy at Sesil who once went with Rafa. It's a place Hana wants to visit. Rafa's favorite place to visit with Sesil first. I don't know where Hana found out about this place? One thing is certain, Rafa will fulfill Hana's desire to clear Hana's doubts about her. That Rafa has completely forgotten his past with Sesil. Rafa did not want Hana to continue thinking, Sesil is still in his memory. Sesil is not a memory for Rafa. He's in the past who wants Rafa to bury as deeply as possible. It will no longer appear in his life.

"Never remember my past. Because I know my past will only make you hurt and cry. I am tormented when I remember all that, the past that makes me always regret. I can never change what happened before. But I assure you, there will be no Sesil in my future. Don't hurt yourself by remembering my past. The same pain I felt, when I saw your jealous tears!" rafa whispered right in Hana's ear. Rafa clutched tightly onto Hana's warm body. Even when Rafa kissed Hana's forehead. Rafa felt Hana's body temperature which was a little feverish. Rafa really had to bear to see Hana cold. Hana's tough attitude will never be able to conquer Rafa. Rafa has always relented, not lost, but Rafa does not want to see Hana hurt.

"Thank you!" sahut Hana flat, Rafa nodded.

Kiara was stunned to see her two brothers. Kiara was inexhaustible, the quarrel in an instant could change the intimacy. There was no visible anger. All changed a senselessness that could not be said. Kiara smiled to herself at her brother Rafa. It's like a melt with one word from Hana. Not afraid or want to be fond of Hana. But Rafa forgets his selfishness, so that Hana is no longer angry and crying. Simple, but it will be difficult to do. If we are both selfish and feel the most righteous ourselves.

Kiara learned something, from what she saw in the relationship of her two brothers? It's not just love that a household needs. Understanding and understanding each other. Giving up does not mean losing. So that there is no fatal fight. Lose as long as it is not insulted, only for the sake of peace. Because understanding is not easy to understand. But quarrels are easy, when anger and arrogance are stirred. Kiara saw how love changed her brother Rafa. Being a figure of understanding and caring for Hana's soft feelings.

"Kiara, ask Rizal to take out my sister's car. If you are willing to come, that Hana may accompany you. Brother will get Hana's warm clothes. Then check on Fathan before we go!" rafa said, Kiara nodded in understanding. Kiara walks away from Rafa and Hana. He's looking for Rizal who happens to still be downstairs. Rizal was still awake in the middle room. It looks like Rizal is fiddling with his laptop. Kiara approaches and invites Rizal to go out. Just want to find fresh air, remove fatigue for a moment. Maybe the night wind isn't very good. But the night sky holds a beauty that cannot be said.

Rafa takes Hana her warm clothes. Rafa helps Hana wear it, patiently Rafa faces Hana's spoiled attitude. Rafa looked at the crying that changed smiles in the blink of an eye. The simple happiness of a Hana who is sometimes very difficult to achieve.

"Sir Rafa I'm sorry, if I always corner you with your past. Not that I meant to hurt you. But the memories seemed to tell me. How precious I am to you. I feel like I was never with you. Too many memories with others. The same memories, as if I wanted to engrave with you. I want you to remember me, in every place you've ever been in your past. Maybe I'm selfish, but I'm too scared to lose you. This love scares me to lose you. This love makes me jealous of your past. This love makes me proud of my weakness to accept your past. That your past holds too many memories that never existed in your future with me!" inward Hana while looking at Rafa's very calm face. Rafa continues to help Hana put on her warm clothes. Rafa was really afraid of Hana getting cold.

"Darling, if I could change my past. I never wanted to have a past. Because of my past, you will always feel meaningless to me. I understand if you want to carve out the same memories as me. Memories that were with other women. Fakra that's what makes asphyxiation. I never wanted to see you tormented by my past. Because my future with you is so much more precious!" batin Rafa, as if to tell Hana. Hana is the most important person in her life right now.

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Hana was standing right on the shoreline, under the dark night sky. The sea breeze blew very hard, touching Hana's face. Leaving behind a coldness that seemed to pierce through Hana's skin. Rafa and Rizal were standing right next to the car. Their views could not be separated on Hana and Kiara who were on the beach.

Lama Hana feels a very real blend of nature. The sky looks beautiful with the presence of small stars. The sea looks very scary, when the light no longer shines on it. The wind that felt so cold was making up for the bones. The heart of someone who has no love. Then Hana began to wake up, as a voice called out her name. A voice he was very familiar with.

"Hana!" greeting Sesilia Anastsya, Hana immediately turned her head with a look full of shock. Hana did not expect that she would meet Sesil in this place. Women in Hana's past and now are in a place that once held memories among them. Long Hana fell silent, surprised at the arrival of Sesil. Hana started to wake up when Kiara called out to her.

"Sir Hana is fine! Sesil's brother called you!" kiara said, Hana regained her senses and nodded slowly. With a smile Hana returned Sesil's greeting. Without anyone asking Kiara to stay away from Hana and Sesil. Kiara felt there was a lot they wanted to say. This unexpected encounter happened not without reason. There must be some intent behind this meeting. An affirmation of each position.

"Something is up? I hope you're okay!" hana said back, Sesil smiled at Hana. As if she was hinting that she was okay. After greeting at a glance, Hana and Sesil stared at the sea that was submerged in darkness. Something Rafa always does first. Two women who love one name. Hana wanted to find a reason for how Rafa felt when he was here. Instead, Sesil recalled his memories when he was still with Rafa. Memories that begin to fade and disappear. Just leaving a wound that kept gaping.

"What are you doing here? It's been very night, is not the night wind is very bad for the health of pregnant women. I'm sure Rafa forbids you, because Rafa can never let a woman get hurt. He cares about women. Rafa will be very chatty when it comes to health!" said Sesil, Hana fell silent while looking down. Sesil stared far ahead. Staring at the lost sea swallowed up the sky. Hana took a deep breath, as if a heavy burden was being thought of.

"It turns out you know my husband very well. You can guess all my husband's thoughts very precisely. I believe the relationship between you guys was very close first. If there had never been me among you. Maybe now he is next to her. You are none other than yourself!" hana said, Sesil silently listened to Hana's words. A compliment or a insult? One thing is for sure, what Hana said is absolutely true? He was someone who was a barrier to the relationship between Sesil and Rafa.

"I understand Rafa, because I once felt that attention. Rafa's warm side is kept tightly behind his grumpy nature. The attention that disappeared from me, even the reason I could never get away or forget Rafa's shadow. He's a man who thinks of women as beautiful roses. Rafa touches women with tenderness, because roses break easily and wither!" sesil said then looked up at the dark night sky.

Hana was silent, jealous of the natural thing. But it wasn't jealousy that kept Hana quiet. Sesil's heartache sounded real from every word he said. Hana felt pity, when she saw a woman loved her husband so much. Without even thinking about forgetting it.

"What's going on now? Someone was standing right beside me. He knows my husband better than me. She was none other than the woman who had filled the void of Rafa's heart. Can my ears hear, he admires my husband!" hana Pilu's Inner.

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