STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
Heart Voice

Since a week ago, Naufal has been under Faiq's surveillance. Almost every day Faiq was in Naufal's room. If Faiq were inside, Annisa would not dare to enter. On the contrary, when there is Annisa in Naufal's room. Faiq won't go inside. Besides Faiq keeping boundaries with Annisa. Faiq did not want any misunderstanding between himself and Fathan. Faiq saw clearly Fathan's admiration for Annisa. Faiq did not think at all about getting to know Annisa or any other woman.

There was only one woman who had been teasing Faiq all this time. No other woman could make Faiq turn away. Love in silence Faiq kept tight. Without anyone noticing, even the owner of Faiq's heart never knew Faiq's feelings. Faiq has always been cold. It was as if he never needed the beloved of heart.

Faiq's cold attitude became after his return. But his attitude will be warm when dealing with his patients. Faiq is famous for his hospitality and cold hands. Every patient feels comfortable and happy to be in the handling of Faiq. An attitude rarely seen in his daily life. Faiq's cold attitude declined from Hana. Since childhood Faiq used to live independently, inversely with Fathan who was a little spoiled. Sometimes people think of Faiq as his brother and Fathan as his brother. Faiq's maturity is more visible, but cleverly in terms of business. Faiq is not worth Fathan. Both Fathan and Faiq have their own weaknesses and advantages. Faiq may not be as smart as Fathan when it comes to business. But as a young doctor Faiq is worth taking into account. He has abilities above his age.

Fathan and Faiq have different dispositions and characters. But in his cleverness, both have advantages in different fields. Fathan became a successful young CEO. Faiq became a talented young doctor. Hannah was proud of her two sons. Because their intelligence is useful to everyone. Never have Rafa and Hana compared one to another. For them both his sons were born with different advantages and disadvantages. Rafa never felt disappointed in Faiq who never wanted to be a business like him. Rafa follows Faiq's desire to help others. The noble ideals of the mother who wanted Faiq to realize.

Tonight Salsa and Annisa come to visit. Naufal's health improved. The treatment Faiq gave came to fruition. But Naufal still had to rely on a wheelchair. His physical condition weakened after the accident. At least Naufal's condition is much better than the original condition. Salsa's arrival tonight, in particular, wants to thank Faiq. Thanks to his help Naufal can be healthy again. The treatment Faiq gave was very appropriate. So Naufal can recover quickly. The treatment that has been awaited for the health of Naufal.

Diana will be here tonight. They will celebrate the healing of Naufal. Hana accidentally invites Diana her best friend. Since the first three of them have always been compact and support each other. In the instant Hana's house is crowded, dinner will be very special with the arrival of her brother and best friend. In her life Hana only knew one brother and one friend. Only Salsa and Diana are in every joys and sorrows of Hana. They support and strengthen each other.

Around 19:00 wib, everyone gathered in Hana's backyard. The same dinner happened decades ago. Now Hana wants to repeat those memories. Hana put two large dining tables. One for the parents, one for the young. Hana deliberately separates the parents and their children. So that they can speak according to their age. Hana wanted to see the familiarity between their adult sons and daughters. In Hana's heart once wished friendship to be a brotherhood. He did not want to lose Diana or Salsa.

Naufal and Salsa sat side by side. Diana and Adrian are right next to Hana. Rafa looked authoritative, sitting in the main seat. At the young table. Fathan sat next to Annisa and Davina. Rey sat right next to her sister. Actually Fathan wanted to invite Farah, but he canceled considering this special dinner relatives. Only Faiq the young doctor was invisible. Kiara and Rizal are out of town. They have not returned, Kiara and Rizal have one beautiful daughter who is exactly the same age as Davina and Farah. Faiq seemed to not care about the dinner held by the mother. A cold attitude that never cares about the feelings of others. The cold attitude allowed by Faiq. But wrong in the eyes of his family. But Faiq is still a hard Faiq. No one will ever be able to persuade him. If Rafa or Hana forces Faiq. That means they have to be ready to lose Faiq.

" Kak Hana, why haven't I seen Faiq since? Is he out? Annisa told me, Faiq came in the morning. So chances are she's home tonight!" salsa said softly, Hana shook her head weakly. His face changed. Salsa saw Hana's sadness clearly. Actually, Hana has invited Faiq to dinner together. But politely Faiq refused. He was not used to gathering. Hana was sad not because of Faiq's rejection. Hana felt embarrassed, because as the host Faiq did not appreciate the guests. Moreover, Salsa specifically came, to say thank you. Faiq's attitude was very wrong according to Hana, but he also could not force Faiq to have dinner with them. A Hana's dilemma confronts a super-cold Faiq.

"I'm sorry, Faiq is not willing to go down. He was not used to the crowd. I honestly feel ashamed of you guys. Faiq cannot appreciate your arrival. But what is my day? Faiq is not a child, he already knows the risks of his attitude!" said Hana Lirih while looking down embarrassed. Rafa nodded apologizing to the others. Faiq's attitude was purely his thinking. Davina and Annisa looked down at once, as if they were disappointed to hear that Faiq would not be having dinner together. A little bit of Annisa and Davina were hoping to have dinner with Faiq. But in reality they had to accept Faiq's decision to never go to dinner.

"Hana, there's no need for you to apologize. Faiq's cold attitude we already knew it and we understood it. Instead you should be proud of him. He's a cold-handed doctor. He always takes care of his patients patiently. When Davina was sick, I saw Faiq was so warm. Faiq's anxiety seemed to be afraid of not being able to help my daughter. Let Faiq remain in the cold. Later when there are women who can warm it. He will surely know us!" diana said wisely, everyone nodded in agreement. Finally everyone started dinner without Faiq. No one objected to Faiq's attitude. All were aware of Faiq's attitude, not out of hate but something Faiq deliberately wanted to avoid. Everyone understands, the nature of Faiq clearly decreases from Hana who is always closed to the problem.

Everyone quietly looked at the dishes available. There was only the sound of plates and spoons clashing. Everyone seemed to be enjoying Hana's cooking. Hana's ability remains the same when it comes to cooking. No one can doubt the enjoyment of Hana's cooking. Even Rafa is lured to Hana because of the cuisine she makes. Since Hana made breakfast for Rafa. Since then Rafa's heart has been tied to Hana. Not because of the pleasure of Hana's cooking. But Hana's sincerity makes dishes that don't hurt Rafa. Makes Rafa feel valuable and protected. A love that suddenly appears without being controlled anymore.

"Doctor Annisa, can I ask for your help!" fathan said just after dinner. Annisa turned her head then nodded slowly. A smile knots Annisa thread behind the veil. Although invisible, Fathan could notice Annisa's smile. Quite a gaze full of shade Annisa that makes Fathan captivated. Both beautiful eyes that make Fathan fascinated. Annisa's good manners make Fathan think there's no better woman Annisa.

"Please, as long as I can help. God willing I will do it. But before that, it is much better that you call me by name. It feels awkward when you call me with a doctor's call. Although our age is much different, but still you are my brother. Better call it by name. So that we can get along with each other. We've known each other for a long time. So I guess there's no need for excessive manners!" annisa said, firmly Fathan nodded. In the heart Fathan cheered. He's one step closer to Annisa. Davina and Rey are the audience, they only listen when Annisa and Fathan talk to each other. From the beginning Davina and Fathan have never had more of a relationship than a friendship. Rey is not too close to Annisa. So that for both of them it is not too important to interfere in the affairs of Annisa and Fathan.

"Tomorrow I have business out of town. So I can't go to the hospital. And tomorrow I'll have a meeting with some parts. It could not be if you replaced me. Later the meeting results, give it to me!" fathan said without hesitation, Annisa fell silent in silence. He was afraid to take on a big responsibility. If he does not agree. Annisa will be a selfish person. Long Annisa weighed in, finally Annisa accepted Fathan's request. Annisa only helps to the extent that she is able to. It will not exceed his ability. Because Annisa is just a doctor with no background as a leader.

"All right, I'll help you. But what do I do wrong? Please forgive me, this responsibility is too great. So I'm afraid of disappointing you. I doubt I did!" annisa said, Fathan nodded in understanding Annisa's unease. It is not easy to do cooperation or certain business. It takes a lot of experience. Waking up seems to be everyday food. It takes a very tough warrior soul. Not once or twice Fathan fell. He had to fall many times to achieve the success that is now in his grasp.

"Don't worry, I will support your every decision. If possible we can contact each other during the meeting!" fathan said, Annisa nodded slowly. Fathan's admiration for Annisa is growing. Annisa's cautious attitude made Fathan feel. Annisa will be a wise wife and mother-to-be. There's no reason for Fathan to reject Annisa's charm. The more he gets to know Annisa, the more Fathan likes Annisa.

"Sir Fathan, starting next week I'll be interning at the hospital. So I beg you to help me, to get my grades high!" davina said, Fathan nodded with a laugh. He felt that someone was being chased by Davina. He knows Davina better than anyone? Their closeness is sometimes interpreted by others. But Fathan only considers Davina like his own sister. Fathan has always protected Davina like a brother protecting his sister.

"Why are you interning at the hospital? Why not in the office? You did it on purpose, because you wanted to get close to Faiq!" fathan teased, Davina shook her head weakly. Rey, on the other hand, was angry to hear Fathan's words. Annisa shook her head, as if signaling she did not want to be involved in Davina and Faiq's matchmaking. Annisa saw Rey's disappointed face. Although the two are not close, Rey is still his sister. Annisa can see Rey's love for Davina. But somehow Rey accidentally covered it?

"Why should I be close to him? The reason is to be in the hospital, because you're not me. So don't ever link me to him. One more thing, ask him to keep his attitude while in the hospital. Don't mess up other people's work. He's a hobby of making trouble!" said Faiq who was standing right behind Annisa. Davina lowered her head while holding her chest that was painful. He felt breathless, after hearing Faiq's words. Davina will feel ordinary. When someone else says it. But this is Faiq the person he loves. The real reason Davina works in a hospital. The world seemed to crumble into his body Davina was angry and disappointed to hear Faiq hated him so much. Even Faiq did not believe that Davina could work.

"Doctor Annisa, this is Naufal's medical record. All I've written, you just need to follow the written steps. I can't take care of Naufal anymore. Tomorrow morning I'll be gone, so I'll give you the full treatment of Naufal!" said Faiq, his hand gave a red file to Annisa. Politely Annisa accepted it. There was a strange feeling in his heart. A sense of loss that cannot be interpreted. Annisa did not expect Faiq to leave her duties of caring for Naufal. But as before, no one could force or restrain Faiq from staying.

Some days Annisa feels comfortable when she becomes Faiq's mum while praying in the hospital. But on the other hand, Annisa feels happy when she is with Fathan. Annisa is caught between two brothers. Davina lowered her head deeply, shortly after she heard Faiq's departure. The love that he buried, whether since when it reappeared? Faiq's cold attitude always hurt him. But the admiration of the figure of Faiq as if to keep it strong. As if Faiq's words had not hurt him enough, Davina now had to hear Faiq's departure. Somehow Faiq always leaves when Davina wants to get close? The attitude is always the same and hurts Davina. Davina's tears seemed dry facing the cold attitude of Faiq. But only Faiq is able to make Davina smile and feel happy. That is true love, painful and happy.

"Wait for Faiq, why is your sudden departure? Wasn't everything okay all this time. Why are you leaving again now? Faiq running is not the way to solve the problem. Face it with courage. Tell Brother, what are you really avoiding?" fathan said with a surprised face. Faiq just kept silent. He does not answer Fathan's questions, it may also be the questions of those who are dear to Faiq. He would remain silent as long as Faiq was still able to finish it. Never had Faiq thought of wanting to depend on others. Especially to his brother Fathan or both of his parents.

"All I've decided, I'll be gone a few weeks. I'm gonna volunteer for an earthquake in a remote town. They need my help. So it's wrong to think I'm avoiding something!" said Faiq lirih, then walked away. Rafa and Hana are already aware of Faiq's decision. Once again they were defeated by the stubbornness of Faiq. Nothing will change Faiq's decision. Including Hana Faiq's most beloved person. He would have left if it were for humanity.

"Why Brother Faiq? Why should I go again? What the hell are you thinking? You keep running away from your family. What's your departure this time? Because my existence. If so, I'm ready to stay away. As long as you are willing to stay. What exactly was my mistake? So I must accept your hatred. Your coldness makes me freeze, my heart no longer warms and my bones are no longer able to stand up straight. Words spoken from your lips. Able to kill me, leaving a sense of extreme tightness. Should I come to you, asking the reason for each of your hatreds!" inward Davina was sad, at last she stood inside the house. He walked in a very chaotic condition. Davina was devastated, not because of Faiq's cold demeanor or the sense he had to bury. But Faiq's departure seemed to carry a mystery that he had to solve.

Tok Tok Tok Tok Tok Tok Tok

The sound of Faiq's room door being knocked. Soon Faiq opened the door to his room. Faiq was shocked when he saw Davina standing in front of his room. I don't know what courage made Davina knock on Faiq's bedroom door? Something Davina couldn't have done. Even tidaj was once in Davina's shadow. Now with complete confidence Davina knocked on Faiq's door. Asking the reason for Faiq's departure.

"What's wrong?" said Faiq coldly, he was leaning on the door leaf of his room. There were some clothes on his bed. It turned out that Faiq was packing. Faiq's departure is not a lie, he will leave and when will Faiq return? Davina was getting claustrophobic seeing Faiq preparing. Davina seemed no longer able to stem her sadness. It felt like Davina was running around hugging Faiq. Holding Faiq's body, so as not to stay away.

Davina was sculpting in front of Faiq's room. He was speechless seeing all the preparations for Faiq's departure. His chest felt tight, his eyes felt hot. Davina was confused to say her heart to Faiq. Faiq's cold attitude made Davina's body freeze. Faiq did the same. He was quietly waiting for Davina to speak. He wanted to find out the reason behind Davina's bravery knocking on her bedroom door. Long Davina and Faiq fell silent, the atmosphere of the quiet night grew quieter. The sound of the wall clock ticking sounded very real.

"Sister Faiq!" greet Davina, Faiq looked up. He looked at Davina's sad face. No smile ever made Faiq feel shady.

"Can't Faiq stay. I'm sorry, if my existence has hurt you. I can't watch you leave anymore. Stay with your family, they need you. In exchange I will leave this city!" davina said, Faiq lowered his head. He was silent and did not speak Davina's words. For Faiq will still go, with or without the blessing of his family.

"Sir Faiq, please stay here!" davina said again. Faiq stood up straight, he pulled Davina's body. He leaned his body against the wall of his room. Faiq caged Davina's tiny body with both hands propping up on the wall. Davina closed both her eyes. He was afraid to see Faiq's face so close. Warm murmurs flowed in Faiq's tub, Faiq's breath touching Davina's cheek. While Davina is no longer able to control the weather of his dreams. His heart beat faster than clockwork. Both dissolve in different thoughts.

"Davina Nur Latifah, the light of meek love. A girl who once shook my heart. A friend who makes me feel warm when I look at your smile. A brother who once carved a beautiful story in my heart. A girl who discourages me from knowing other women. The hijab woman that fascinated me, suffered at the same time. That's what I thought of you all along. The woman I dreamed about and wanted to stay away from. You're right that I'm gone because of your existence. I'm tormented every time I see your innocent face. I get angry every time I look at you smiling at someone else. I was devastated when I remembered you were not for me, we were not meant to be a match. As weak as the meaning of your name is, it's as weak as the power of taste between us. I went to find myself. Even if you leave, it won't change anything. We are always at different crossroads. You better get away from me and I'm away from you!" said Faiq, then away from Davina. Leaving Davina shocked to hear the honesty of Faiq's heart.

"Go, I need to rest!" faiq said coldly without the slightest pity on Davina.

"Sister Faiq, if indeed the taste exists. Why do you ignore him? Do I not deserve that feeling? How good am I? Until you ignore the taste that already exists. Although the light of my love is weak, but I believe that feeling is firm for me. The proof of that taste exists to this day. Your cold attitude is the answer to that taste. If it doesn't feel like it's worth it, tell me? What makes you think I'm not worthy of you!" said Davina, Faiq twisted his body. Facing towards Davina.

"That feeling doesn't deserve to exist, because I'm not the one who's gonna hold your hand. That feeling doesn't deserve to exist, because someone else's arm will be your back. That sense does not deserve to exist, because the bodies of other men will protect. I hope tonight's all over. Although it is difficult to forget the taste that already exists. For the sake of a promise of friendship, I am ready to learn to forget your existence. Now go, I don't want to see you!" faiq said, he slammed the door of his room very hard.

Brraaaakkk

"You're cruel, you're heartless!" said Davina softly, while wiping the tears that had already dripped.