STEADFASTNESS OF LOVE
Both in the car

"Vania, may I ask you a question!" uhar Raihan while driving a sports car owned by Vania. Sontak Vania turned towards Raihan. Look Raihan focus driving. Vania looked in wonder, not because of Raihan's words. "He called me Vania, could it be that he was still angry. Until he changed his call to me. What does it matter to him to call me? Vania or dear, as she pleases!" inner Vania was upset.

"Vania!" call Raihan again.

"Heeemmm!" sahut Vania was cold, she was annoyed when Raihan did not call her dear. Instead Raihan felt silent Vania, none other than his disappointment and the impact of the debate this morning. "He's still mad at me, obviously from the way he's telling me. Indeed I am the stupid one, too easy to sue without thinking Vania has a reason behind her attitude. Let alone calling him dear, I call by name only he is indifferent!" inner Raihan regretted.

"What do you want to ask? Just tell me, don't keep it in your heart. It'll only hurt you!" vania said, Raihan shook his head weakly. He was truly sorry for making Vania angry. Vania's cold and gluttonous attitude, able to make Raihan a thorny and frustrated. Moreover, it was clearly Raihan who was making trouble with Vania. Even if we look at it again, both are wrong. No one tries to understand, but instead thinks the truest themselves.

"Vania, is there anything else you've kept from me? Who exactly are you? Sometimes I see you so soft and warm. But sometimes I see you so hard and cold. What do I have to become in order to understand you?" said Raihan Lirih, while focusing on driving. Vania looked down weakly, then turned her head outside the window of her car. Vania is confused by Raihan's question. Because Vania herself never felt that way.

"I never kept any secrets from you. It is not you who never ask me. I'm a nobody? I am Vania Aulia Azzahra, a simple woman married to a priest chosen by my parents. I will be hard and cold, when I hear someone doubting my affection. I can be gentle and warm. If someone trusts me, it'll be my decision!" vania said firmly, Raihan gulped his saliva roughly.

Vania's answer made Raihan shunned. Vania's assertiveness cannot be doubted. When Raihan complains of his jealousy. Raihan's doubts about Vania's affection and maturity. Therefore Vania turned cold and hard. He fought back even showing independence that Raihan never imagined. The warmth of Vania that Raihan felt. Instantly lost to change the cold Vania untouched.

"Must I ask, that you be willing to tell me about yourself. I'm no one else, I'm your husband and your priest. It's not appropriate for me to know your innermost side and your heals!" raihan said softly, Vania nodded slowly. Vania puts on a big smile. A smile that is not easily interpreted, an agreement or rejection of Raihan's words.

"Because you're my husband, there's nothing I need to say. Time will get us to know each other. Not with words we can get to know each other. But it is our attitude that shows how much love and trust there is between us. Like me who never asked, who was Raihan who slashed at me in white gray? I believe everything will be good for me!" vania said, Raihan nodded in understanding.

Long both of them were silent, Vania felt tired after a day of work to pursue the target. His decision was to step down as an architect. Make him have to immediately complete the employment contract that he has signed. Vania has to be professional. Otherwise he would be a hypocrite.

Vania opened the glass window of her car. He leaned back on the chair, closing both of his beautiful eyes. The night wind blew the soft face of Vania. It felt a cold chill run down into his heart. Raihan glanced towards Vania, he saw the calmness and shade of both of Vania's eyes.

"Vania, when did you take Vaaz? An architect that developers are very looking for. Even my company's been trying to find you. Every partnership we offer. You always refuse, only some you work for!" said Raihan lirih, Vania opened her two beautiful eyes.

Vania loves her job as an architect, but at Raihan's request. Vania chose to step down, she did not want Raihan to feel insulted by the success he achieved. Even though Vania has to give up her dream. Vania remained silent, when Raihan asked. Vania could not answer. To be honest Vania did not want to remember something she had already let go of.

"Can we stop at the city park. I want to buy something. My stomach is hungry!" vania said to divert Raihan's question. Weakly Raihan nodded, though he realized Vania was trying to dodge his question.

"Must I answer, if my honesty will make you even more sorry. We better forget everything. Enough you know, Vaaz has retreated. He's a nobody you deserve to know?" said Vania final, Raihan pulled the hand of Vania. Raihan kissed Vania's hand gently.

"Jawablah, give me a reason if my regrets are wrong. Tell me the truth, let me learn to know you. Show me your weepiest gap, so I can easily enter it!" raihan said, Vania threw her face out of the car. I heard the breath of Vania. Raihan clasped Vania's hand tightly. Hope Vania answers her anxiety.

"I became Vaaz, ever since I went to college abroad. I majored in architect without anyone knowing it. Dad won't let me be an architect. I disguised my name, so that no one would know who I was. But reality is not as good as hope. Not forever what we want will happen. Dad noticed my drop in shipping. He started investigating my activities on campus!" said Vania lirih, sounding sobs that were held back. Raihan stopped his car.

Raihan looked at Vania who was throwing her face out of the car. Gently Raihan pulled Vania face towards him. Raihan looked at Vania's lips that were starting to shake. Vania's hand patted her chest softly which felt tight to withstand the pain. Raihan was silent at Vania's uneasiness.

"That night was the worst night of my life. Father's anger was real and still sounded in my ears. Dad's smash and slap still hurts. Dad's disappointment in my lies. Makes me regret it to this day. I became the most ungodly child, I fought my father to become an architect. Dad came home full of anger, until the accident happened. Dad's been seriously hurt. I live only a few percent!" said Vania lirih, Vania's body began to shake. Her tears began to drip down her veil.

"My refusal will be your proposal that night. Disappointed father, my anger makes my ego talk. I refuse an arranged marriage, if father doesn't allow me to be an architect. I gambled with the honor of the parents I was supposed to keep. The quarrel that wasn't supposed to happen, became a fateful night for dad. I decided to go back to the boarding school, I quit college. I became the Vania that my father expected me to be. I walked away from my family, I contemplated seeking tranquility!" said Vania, then looked down.

"Lantas, how can you be a great architect without a lecture?" raihan said confusedly, Vania turned her head towards Raihan.

"Being an architect is my biggest dream. I want to make my dream come true for others. There are many ways I can be an architect. Even without school, I studied and learned to be the best. I live with only two dreams. Become the best architect useful to others. To be the best daughter you can be proud of. I became an architect and a messenger of the Quran by all means!" raihan kissed Vania's hand many times.

"Don't back down, stay an architect. I'll understand your work. Nothing will stand in your way. You can reach your expectations!" raihan said, Vania smiled. Vania pulled her hand from Raihan. Then cupped Raihan's face gently.

"It was enough that I was selfish to survive my dreams that I almost lost my father. I'm not going to do it a second time. I don't want to lose my father to my heart. I could lose my dream, but not you!" said Vania, Raihan was silent staring at Vania.

"Why?"

"There is no reason in love, no reason behind affection. My sincerity and loyalty are the answer to your every doubt!" vania said, then kissed the back of Raihan's hand.