An Overdose of Love
I can't find it
"Ahhhh .. ahh, shit." My frustration that continues to hit the steering wheel of the car, due to annoyance can not know the whereabouts of Karin.
Karin's been missing for a week and I don't know if she's alive or dead.
"Oh Allah, when he is alive? Give the servant a clue to find him immediately, but if he has died show him where the grave and the body are now," My prayer in my heart is covered with tears.
I wipe the tears quickly so that parents do not know it, because they do not want to worry more. Weight loss is now starting to drop dramatically, no appetite is too strong the mind thinks of Karin.
The move was so weak when it wanted to set the ground. The bones feel like they want to come out of the joint. I don't know how many steps this self down the road, it feels steps are no longer strong to tread the earth. Though the distance from the car to the house is not too far only 20 steps have arrived, but due to the feeling of passion that is not passionate, making this self was forced to stop to step, but because of the spirit, which finally I was sitting limp in the house, with a blank look at the crowded streets that had many cars passing by.
"Adrian how?" asked Mama who had approached me sitting dreamy.
"Still the same, Ma!"
"Until now there has been no progress on the news of Karin," I replied with my lips already shaking, with my eyes beginning to glaze over.
"You have to be patient and don't stop finding it" Mama said excitedly, patting me on the shoulder gently.
"How Adrian wants the spirit, Ma! If the clues to his whereabouts alone don't exist at all," I lamented in despair.
"Mama knows Adrian, you're so frustrated. But behind it all, I am sure God will show me the way, for God is above all things. Allah will never make his people accept trials beyond the limits of the ability of the people themselves, because you and Karin are strong to face then God gives you this trial" Mama advised.
"Yes Ma, Adrian will try to be more patient and look for it again."
Shok, sad, tangent, has now mixed everything into one in my feelings.
Mama from just now could only sit next to me, who tried to calm down with all her advice and words of encouragement.
"You need to be stronger, calmer and patient. Remember your son Naya that you should pay attention to as well" he reminded.
"Yes, Ma."
"Now go into the house, it's not nice to see people sitting here. Later entertain Naya with encouragement and the right reason, because she looks so sad until a few days do not want to go to school," said the mother.
"Yes, Ma!" i'm lethargic.
At home, we sat back in the guest room. She stepped into the kitchen and returned with a glass of water.
"Adrian, you drink first!" mama said while offering the water she brought just now.
"Thank you, Ma!" I answered while taking the water in Mama's hand.
The water was up to the toilet, then I put the glass I was holding on the table. The body feels very tired, which is coupled with a chaotic and dizzy mind.
"Oh my God, I beg you. Give me my request now. Give me a clue as to how I should look for Karin again" I said in my heart with a pensive face.
"You don't feel sad, Adrian. Mama also became sad to see your state is chaotic like this!" said Mama when she saw my eyes already a little clear water.
It feels like the mind and heart are no longer strong, as a result of enduring this grief and ordeal.
"You must be strong. Mama's sure, we'll soon receive some good news about, Karin!" Imbuh he who has shed tears.
"Amin, Ma."
"Mama don't cry either" I said, wiping away her tears.
"Well, what a pa-pa, son."
"Thank you, Adrian. Mama felt unbearable, seeing your constant state like this!" he said while stroking my shoulder.
"Mama take it easy, I'm a strong boy. Adrian used to be in this position, even longer to lose Karin," My words tried to break the sadness between us.
"It used to be different, son. Karin went and someone helped her. Now she's gone to see who's accompanying her," she asked Mama's answer.
"Don't be sad again Ma, okay!" my words back to encourage.
"Adrian doesn't know how to start looking? It felt like everything was deadlocked there was no one clue at all," The words were already frustrated.
I heard footsteps coming from the door, and it was Chris and Mr. Karin coming.
"Assalammualaikum" Greetings Mr and Chris.
"Waalaikumsalam," answered Mama and myself simultaneously.
"Sit Sir, Chris!" I answer to sit.
Chris was sitting in the chair right in front of me and my father was sitting right next to him, where he had taken out a handkerchief in a shirt bag, after which he wiped his face that had sweat sweat.
"I'm staying back."
"Oh, yes."
"How's Adrian? Have you heard from Karin?" ask the foster father.
"No, Sir. Still the same result, no clues at all," I replied lethargic.
"When what about you?" flip tanyaku.
"Just like, Adrian."
"Either, Chris and I have asked all our neighbors if anyone has seen, but there is also no clue" he replied in despair.
"Heeeh, maybe we should be more careful and patient to look for it," I resigned.
The three of us were silent for a moment, there was no more conversation between us. While Mama has gone who seems to be heading for the kitchen.
"Hey sir, hey Adrian!" yona's greeting suddenly came.
"Hey too, Yona!" weak answer.
"Yes, Yona!" Turn replied father too.
"Where, auntie?" tanyakanya.
"It looks like we went to the kitchen, why?" I answered while asking.
"Ooh, not pa-pa. It's just it."
"You guys talk, I'm the same Chris wants to go home first. Come on Chris, let's go!" pamit father-in-law while taking Chris.
"Yes sir" replied Chris.
"If there's any news about Karin, call us right away."
"Emm, sure it is."
"Then we'll say goodbye."
"alright. Be careful on the road."
After the father and Chris left, my face was daydreaming again because the mind could not be compromised anymore.
"Your face is so fucked up, Adrian?" ask the weird Yona.
"How you doing?" manya curious.
"Oh my God, the more skinny and unkempt you look!" yona's response was worried.
"I should be confused, because my mind and heart are struggling to think about Karin's whereabouts now" I explained.
"So again ... Karin again. There's nothing else you think about but her" Yona's voice is like a displeased person.
"What do you mean?" tanyaku pretended to be curious, because there was an oddity of his speech just now.
"Yes, I should be worried, because she is the precious woman of my life.
"Eee .. eeh, not really!" answer's clumsy.
"What do you mean, just now? How do you say you're so weird?" I'm a little suspicious.
"Now, Adrian. My point is that you don't have to think about Karin too deeply, 'there will be others you have to circulate, for example, your son Naya" he explained with a wry smile like a sincere one.
"Ooh."
My heart is now wondering if this has anything to do with Yona. And even more strangely, these few days Yona always visits to see me, with the reason of wanting to visit. It's okay he came and there's good intentions in touch, but his attitude is a bit strange and I've been a little suspicious of him, because it's not unusual - usually Yona visits too much like this.
I didn't really want to get too bad thinking about her, but my suspicions were so strong and there were strange gags on Yona.
"Yes, I'm going. Fear bothering you who are in a bad mood."
"Emm, be careful on the road."
"Okay, bye .. bye."
"Sipp, bye .. bye."
The hand was already waving weakly towards Yona.
"What's up, Adrian?" Mama asked after Yona's departure.
"There's nothing, Ma! That's all Yona had to see for a while stop by here. But my feelings were strange and stuck with him. Emm, you must be a little suspicious of him" I explained.
"Cock as you think with mom, yeah! I'm very suspicious of him too. What makes mama weird, isn't that she hates Karin so much, but lately after Karin disappeared she's become friendly and kind, kind of friendly with us. Especially with your child, he is willing to bring souvenirs to buy toys and clothes," said the mother who also felt suspicious.
"Yes .. Yeah, Ma! Adrian has known Yona for a long time. Oh yeah, I just remembered. He that if he hates the same people, can not be good again to the people he hated. But this is how nice and want to be friends, weird?" I said with a face to think hard, for the strangeness of Yona's attitude.
"We should be suspicious and careful of him. Maybe he will be able to do cruel, due to a pent-up resentment and resentment," said Mama.
"Yes, Ma. We have to be careful of him. I'll try to investigate it, because who knows if it has anything to do with it" I guess.
"All right, Adrian."
"Mama's message you should be careful when searching for Karin, because we do not know who our opponent is? Most likely the danger will threaten us at any time," said Mama.
"Good, Ma. It must be."
What Mama said has a point. From now on I will investigate Yona, by starting from the first staking out of her house. Because who knows there are clues, because all the places are searched and only Yona's house has not been.