An Overdose of Love
Need certainty
The heart still remains the same that continues to love him, but how many times must this self try to get the part of the heart that was lost. The hand just keeps holding a tea in a cup, to continue immediately gulped into the mouth.
"What should I do to you Karin, so that I can pull you back into my arms? It seems that there is not the slightest gap, to enter into the space of your heart. Do I have to really give up, to immediately forget and get you? God, what am I supposed to do about this confusion? I love Karin so much and I don't want to part with her, but if it's your destiny to separate us, what else can I do but accept it with sincerity and let it go?" a confused heart, with the netra looking at the pool accompanied by tea.
A thousand ways and thinking have been lived, but still his hands can not be grasped. If indeed he was far from the fate of this meeting but could not have, maybe this was all just a prayer answer that the woman and child I was looking for was still alive, but I can't hold their bodies forever.
"What's up, Adrian?" ask Mom's voice.
"Eeh, you're Ma!" I replied a little surprised.
"I'm good, Ma. Just a tangled mind again," I replied.
"Is this related to, Karin?" ask her.
"Yes, Ma. Adrian is confused about how to get it back, while all the ways I've done? I feel like I just want to give up, when Karin's love belongs to someone else" I explained.
"You can't just give up, Adrian. Is not Karin wholly your property, and it should be obligatory for you to marry immediately because there is Naya who becomes your flesh and blood. Karin does love others, but love can change if you keep trying to get close to her. Mama is very sure if Karin also loves you very much, because the heart of a mother's conscience is sometimes right, even though she is not my biological child. Don't worry if you can't get close to him, because Mama will help you too until you can reunite" he advised with a smile of encouragement.
"Really, Ma? Thank you, for your help. Maybe I am the child who is not devoted to you, when always this self makes trouble, until yesterday-yesterday until it hurts," I replied unpleasantly.
"It's okay, son. Maybe Mama thinks too much about you. Mama loves you, and do not want to hold hands all members of this family apart, until divorce can not be united. Just last year we were all separated by the distance of space and time, until now Mama really hope you two come back, to hold hands together," he said, while gently stroking my shoulder.
"Yes, Ma. Adrian will try, hopefully all of this works," I replied starting to get excited again.
It was so great hope Mama, that she promised to be willing to take a moment to help us reunite.
*******
Because of what my mother said this morning, until now I want to see Karin for a while, who immediately slid to work. Although later must meet with rivals, but the steadiness of the heart that wants to fight in the name of love, make this spirit of self again must meet.
"Can I meet up and talk to Karin for a second?" I asked Chris when we were both sitting in his cake shop.
Karin's invisible face in front of the cake shop room, making me now have to face Karin's lover. Highlight his sharp eyes were blanking the next eyebrow, which was guessed once if Chris did not like.
"What is it and what do you want to see him for?" answer by Chris.
"There's something important I'd like to talk to him about for a moment" I replied casually.
"can't. There is indeed an important business especially what you want to talk about, when you once abandoned it. Isn't there no more business between you, when you know for yourself we're getting married" replied Chris rudely.
"I've spoken well and asked for permission from you, so don't lure my emotions when you just want to meet for a while," I said unfriendly.
"What's this?" ask sidelines Karin, when it comes to preventing our tension.
"This, Karin. I just wanted to talk to you for a little while and ask Chris for permission, but I guess he won't, '" I explained.
"Is that true, Chris?" ask Karin.
"Yes, Karin. But it doesn't mean anything, anyway. I'm just afraid that this man of the past is going to act, and mess with you" Chris explained.
"Hiliiiiih, hypocritical pretender."
"Already ... already, do not suck too much on this issue, at the end of which you are alone who will quarrel. And for you brother Andrian, why should you see me again? Isn't there no more business between us, because everything is clear?" said Karin who saw a stroke of emotion.
"In fact, we have no business anymore, so I want to solve the problem clearly, so that there is no burdening heart. I just want to take a minute to talk to you, can't I?" tanyaku pinta.
"Don't follow her will, Karin. Maybe just a mode to approach you," replied Chris who was worried.
"Calm down, Chris. It may be true said brother Adrian, that there is more important business that we have to finish first," Karin's defense speech.
"Well, if you think it's good. But you have to be careful with him" replied Chris who finally allowed.
"Emm, good Chris. Come on, brother, we can talk a little bit away from here," asked Karin.
This self can finally smile back towards Chris, because it was satisfied when Karin was more agree to come with me. Chris could only reply glaring at the eyes of dislike for the victory I got.
Karin had already walked first, and I could only follow her steps where we would dock, in a place that could only talk alone.
"What kind of a word do you want to talk about, brother!" tell Karin to be impatient.
"I just want to ask for clarity on our relationship" I replied casually.
"It's not very clear that I'm getting married and would prefer Chris" she said.
Deg, the heart has been torn like lightning when it knows the truth. Do I really have to let go of the woman I love be happy with someone else?.
"But, Karin. Do you not think of our son Naya, who desperately needs our affection as a real parent?" I ask you not to give up.
"Heeeh, parents? You should need to bang your head against the wall so you can remember and know how you forgot about me and your son. If you want us, where were you yesterday? Until I have to get tired of fighting alone in the face of the harsh reality of life?" karin's strength started to wither.
"I know that this self is a lot of wrongs for you, but all of it can be corrected from now on" I said unwillingly to give up.
"For me it's too late and everything can't be fixed, because it's just bitter memories that need to be thrown away. From now on forget me, brother. There is no point in remembering it all, because our love will be a lot of victims who are hurt again, so you have to understand and understand it all," said Karin.
This self can only be silent while digesting his words, which is likely me to be self-aware of everything. Maybe this self really should allow him to be happy with others.
There's nothing left.
Why I fell in love again.
The heart is very knowing, if this love is getting stronger.
I don't know how else to make you fall in love with me.
And especially to make you come back to me, so that the sense of broken spirit increasingly feels increasingly worse mood.
Honey, don't go because I don't know what else to do with my life.
Only your name continues to be beautifully engraved in this heart.