An Overdose of Love
N2=My Missing Wife >>APologizing is easy, but forgiving mistakes is hard
My heart was filled with anger, so when I went home I just let Adit mas, without any words coming out of my mouth, or immediately say goodbye to him.
Seen from the windows of the boarding house, Adit's car slowly now began to disappear from my view.
You're far away there
So that I can't see you.
Even if I never dreamed
Someone like you is in front of me.
Don't hurt me
And never come near again.
This heart is frozen
It won't be easy to thaw, to hold me back.
The flowers began to fall
Beautiful dreams turned black by tears.
Covering all two reddened netra
Hiding behind this sweet smile.
If only I could turn back time
I wish I wanted to go back.
There was no beautiful day when it was first
But everything turned into pain.
Like the wind ...
Which blows very hard.
Love is ordinary (Like ordinary love)
Will keep these blushing eyes tight shut.
The usual nightmares came
Falling into a good dream.
If I erase you and forget you
It will leave sadness.
We are under the same sky
Running the same time.
How many tears are there?
If I forget you.
I can't stop
I can't even breathe.
I want to love you, though,
But the heart cannot be forced.
The frozen
There's only one you.
If this hand comes off
There will be many memories of sadness.
"Why are you, son? Eyes look so puffy?" ask the father who saw the situation may look chaotic.
"Ana, not pa-pa, sir?"
"Don't lie, son."
"Hhh, yes sir. There's a little problem. Mister, this is about Mas Adit!" I replied while twitching my head.
"You're patient, Ana! It is not easy to get married to rich people. There are always many obstacles," he said.
"Yes sir, Ana understands! I don't know why Adit's mas still hasn't changed, it's still the same as it used to hurt Ana" I explained.
"You have to be patient and strong, you know for yourself, right that Adit from the beginning there is no love for you, so you have to keep trying and sincerely living everything" he said.
"Yes, sir."
Previously told my father about all my problems, so that the youth also understood the direction of my conversation with all the events lately, which was no exception with not returning me for a few days.
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Tok .. tok, my room door was knocked.
"Ana, can you come in?" He asked permission.
"Just go in, sir! The door is locked, really!" my answer.
"Yes, son."
"Father, go to work first! Do not forget to eat. I've made porridge, and eat the full later. Look, your body is now! Looks pale and limp, "His concern when he was sick.
"Yes, Sir! Ana ngak pa - pa. It's just a normal fever attacking. You will carefully go to work" I replied.
His back hand immediately kissed, namely by still lying on the mattress, because the body felt very weak due to pain.
My father was a very patient man. He was never the slightest bit angry, over all the happenings in our household. You can only support and advise, do not want to interfere in my household affairs that have been approaching destruction. Only with enthusiasm and always embracing me, my father unceasingly gave a smile of warmth, so that I could rise and not continue in a slump, due to the trials and problems that attacked our household.
Even if you are just a janitor at State High School, this self will never be ashamed to have a father who is super great and tough for me. Full of struggle and patience when he can take care of me and take care of me to get to the housewife.
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It's been a week. No intention to enter work. It feels quite sick to meet with mas Adit, because over time its nature has crossed the line.
[Hallo, Ana?]
"Geez, what's happening to him now!" The heart wondered because his voice sounded chaotic.
[What the hell, Mom! Emm, what's wrong with Adit, anyway? His voice is fucked right]
[Hehehehe. Ana I really love you, and now I miss you so much]
"Geez, what the hell happened to Mas Adit?" the heart asked again. There was a clumsiness in his voice talking accompanied by screaming.
[Ana, I really ... love you very much! Don't leave me, Ana]
Her voice sobbed.
[Mas Adit is now a mabok, huh?]
[Ooh, no. Ana. Who says I'm a mabok, you don't accuse people carelessly. Don't get me wrong. I really love you, and Salwa is indeed a woman br*ngs*k, how dare she want to destroy our relationship. Wait ... just wait for my revenge on him, so we can reverse it again. You don't trust Salwa, don't .. don't! She is a venomous woman who can peg you at any time, so come back with me again, I will take care of you, hahahha. I'm really in love with you, Ana. Hahaha, I really love you, Ana ]
It feels like my heart is now becoming restless, with the increasingly vague concoction of his voice, like one drinking a drink of k*ras.
Perhaps what Adit said was the fact, that he was not wrong, and the woman who seduced Adit first. The heart is now a little shaky, for his repeated explanations remain the same.
Tut .. tut, suddenly the connection is severed. Trying to contact again due to too worried, but so many times the call was not lifted.
"What's up, Ana? How come your face is bent and tangled like that? Any more problems with Adit?" He asked me who was sitting in the guest room.
"It's nothing, sir! Ana was just thinking. Is what Adit said all this just now is the truth, that he is not wrong?" explanations.
"Maybe Adit's explanation has a point too, all the mistakes should not be left to him. It could be the woman who has also seduced Adit. You see lately Adit tried and aggressively in order to get back to you. So, Father, try you to give space and open a little bit of your sick heart, to give him a chance, which is to correct his mistakes in the past. It is not good if you continue to harbor pain, anger, and disappointment, maybe if it all accumulates, it will make heart disease and over time will grow into endless grudges," at length his advice.
My brain is now working to digest the words of the Father, that this self must open its heart and forgive all its mistakes.
"Here you know, sir! But it felt like Ana was so hard to do it all, because the heart was too deep for a pain, "The end began to waver.
"Father knows once Ana, but what's wrong if you try little by little. Do you understand how your heart pain is? It is not easy to forget the bitter memories, but is not God Oft-Forgiving, so try to forgive him, and over time you will be able to receive him again. You can only pray and support you, on the path you think can be right for you to choose," the seriousness of the Father said.
"Goddess, Sir! Ana will try to forgive and open the door of a wounded heart. Thank you, Sir. You are always there for me, in the times when your child has failed to build a household to be harmonious," he said.
"Yes, Son. More importantly pray and ask Him for guidance."
"Yes, sir."
His body I embrace. The two hands that had been raising me had been patting my hair softly.
[Assalamualaikum, Ma!]
[Guardians, Ana]
[What's up, Ana?]
Trying to get in touch with the in-laws, because who knows if there's a solution.
[That, Ma. If possible, Ana wants to ask for help now, but previously sorry if it was troublesome]
[What do you ask for, son? Don't worry so. Speak]
[Mama can stop by Mas Adit's apartment? Ana is now very worried about him, because on the phone, his voice sounded so messed up]
[What is it? How could that be?]
[Ana also did not know, so ask for help to see it]
[Alright Ana. Mama's gonna slide down there. You don't have to worry. There's mama here, okay]
[Yes ma! Thank you]
[Together, Ana]
The heart has been wracked with anxiety. Afraid that something might happen to Adit, so it was in-laws I asked for help, because this self is not ready to meet him now