An Overdose of Love
N2=My Missing Wife>> Missing a child
The longing for Ana's baby was so intense, I don't know what I'm feeling right now, it felt so strong to want to see the faces of both of them. The sun was very stinging, the heat was so felt in my car, which had been turned on by Ac. Unceasingly the hands fanned, as the car continued to drive towards father Ana's restaurant. The heart was so upset at the road that was so jammed, it seemed that in front of there was a traffic accident.
"Well, how much longer can I get there?" I can't wait to get to Ana's place.
The car was so creeping running, and for thirty minutes finally the car came off also from traffic jam, so without waiting for long I plugged the gas as hard as possible, to get there quickly.
"I miss you guys. May you be kind enough to see the baby. I don't know what this feeling is, Ana! What's clear is that I want to hold your son" a heart murmur.
The feeling that had been so hot want to hurry up, now became squeaky when the car was parked in the restaurant yard. Now it feels so embarrassed because of anger and insulting him yesterday, now even kindly want to meet, it feels really strange but son of a word what else, my longing for the baby is so strong.
Ceklek, the car door I want to open.
When the feet wanted to set the ground, how surprised I was there was Ana's friend named Edo, who was busy carrying Ana's baby. He seemed very happy, when he tried to talk to the little baby. And no less surprised again, it turns out Ana followed Edo from behind, they seemed to laugh happily with each other.
"Well, is Ana going to be happy with that guy?" my question is in my heart.
The heart feels so tight and so hot. Chest had a bad time to see their closeness, which was laughing so rianvmgnya, whereas I could only put on a wry face when I saw them.
Though all this time I had never been like this to Ana, even yesterday this self tried to make their relationship possible. But now I feel something different, which is not happy and comfortable for the closeness of the two of them.
"Am I jealous? Aah no. No, that's not possible. Didn't I hate Ana all this time, but why does my heart seem to be feeling so jealous?" My frustration asks myself.
Jealousy is a sign of love, as people often say. I know this feeling may be wrong, have berated and insulted her, even now I turn to love Ana.
Falling in love with her will definitely be difficult and not as easy as imagined, and Ana will definitely refuse and be uncomfortable, for my attitude that began to be interested in her in other words fall in love.
"Oh my God, what am I supposed to do? Why should I fall in love with someone I hate? Is the bond of our heart that is being broken, now you are trying to link it back? If that is true, then make the way You want, so that we can build a happy household again" My troubled prayer.
Without any more shame, I want to get out of the car to see Ana and my son. I don't care what they say anymore. Even with abuse, this self will still receive with a chest of air, because I also deserve a reply to insults due to my yesterday-yesterday attitude.
"Hi, father's beautiful daughter?" sapaku.
"Mas Adit?" Surprised Ana.
"Sorry to disturb."
"What do you want to do? Why come back here?" edo asked
" Yes, what else are you here for? There is no agreement if we are going to divorce, and there will be no relationship between us anymore" Ana said.
"I just want to visit."
"You are yes, my mother. It's getting crazy."
So spicy Ana's insults. I can only pretend I didn't hear.
"Here, let me carry you!" my words ignored the words of Ana and Edo, with hands outstretched trying to take Ana's son.
"Wait on! What are you doing?" prevent Ana while blocking my hand.
"Yes want to hold it. Himana the hell are you? Cook wants to get him to walk 'it's impossible, '" I said trying to break the tension.
"Don't hope," he replied cynically.
"Why can't it? I am not the biological father. It should be closer instead of being kept away" Looking for a thousand reasons. As strong as heart while smiling.
"What's? The kid? Biological father?" he said a rude snort.
"Yes child. Is he not my son" I answered.
"Ciiih, didn't you yesterday not want to acknowledge him as your son. Strange human beings, always want to be good. After I struggled alone with pain and wounds, easily now use talk your child all," said Ana did not like.
"That's exactly Ana. As good as he could. Yesterday I didn't want to admit it as a child, and now I want to take it easy. Can't .. can't," Edo's defense.
"That's not it, my friend, I want to take responsibility, and now I realize what I did yesterday, so let me hold it for a while" I tried to explain.
"It can't be, Mom. Remember your request yesterday. I've done it, so keep your attitude that's getting weird."
"Wah .. wow, after insulting and trying to abandon your wife Ana, and playing with fire behind her, only now 'are you aware. Where were you yesterday? A lot of joy in Ana's heart," Edo is now following my anger.
"Not so bro, many times already said. I did it all because I didn't realize I had amnesia!" my saut with his teeth rustled and threw a wry smile towards Edo.
"Here ... already, you guys don't make a fuss here. Shame on the customer father, and Aliya is sleeping, so can your voice be swallowed a little," pinta Ana a little angry.
"He'eh, listen to that Edo. Slowly speaking, you keep talking," I chimed in, with a thin smile engraved on the corner of the lips.
"Ciih, Basis. He who started turned the blame." said Edo did not like me.
"I just want to go out Ana, lazy to serve her."
"Yes go there! Hust .. huuuuss," kicked me out.
"Based on a heartless man, I went to work, not to avoid you! But actually lazy to meet you, rather than over time here make emotions, I better work first, really not Ana!" ask her to Ana.
"Benere Edo" said Ana.
My anger was peaking, when Ana had dared to defend her friend from me.
"I'll say goodbye, Ana. Bye ... bye," he said goodbye.
Just let them down their closeness. There was no reason to beat up that guy.
"Yes .. yes, be careful on the road. Bye .. bye" said Ana.
"Behold if you do anything with Ana, I will face you first, to immediately make a calculation," threatened Edo.
"Okay, I'll take care of him and I won't do anything. Go already there! Huuust .. huss," My joy drove him away.
"Mas Adit!," cried Ana with bulging eyes.
"Hehehee, 'it's only natural that he should go, '" my sneeze scratched a non-itchy head.
"Mas Adit actually wants to come here anyway? And the divorce papers why haven't you signed them yet?" ask Ana full of subtlety.
"Oh that problem. You take it easy because I'm still thinking, and my arrival here just wants to give me this!" I said with outstretched hands giving the little guy clothes, which are still neatly wrapped in a pepper bag.
"Thank you" replied Ana wryly.
"What do you mean by Adit?" ask Ana again.
"Which one?" bungungungu.
"The divorce papers!" explanation Ana.
"Ooh that, I don't know. Wait for the good news from me, okay!" I answered by throwing a smile.
"What the hell do you mean?" the question is still tangent.
"Just wait for the next news from me" I said, approaching Ana, trying to snatch little Aliya from Ana's hands.
"Slow-palan, kanapa! Later can wake her up," Ana protests cautiously.
Gratitude teruz spoken in the heart. Loving strands of affection will definitely pour out on a tiny baby who is writhing slowly when alternating that snuggle.
"Yes, I won't wake him" I said.
For a while I didn't want to argue with Ana, so the question of divorce was a distraction to hold my son. I've thought a thousand times, that our closeness is not without reason, maybe this is all destined.
His gaze implied a shade of my own to my heart, so that I was very comfortable near him. Her graceful, gentle, and alluring eyes, always lulling me will imply wanting to tell her a lot.
Now this self can only smile at itself like a madman, and always be upon myself, since when did I really get close and start falling for the woman beside me now, a day does not meet as if there is less.
Although our quarrel yesterday continues to happen, and has had a chance to destroy our relationship, but I will not give up just trying to get close to him.