An Overdose of Love
I don't want to lose that pain
Love is so painful, makes me have a few days not good to eat. The story with him has been shattered, as it all goes back in time. The old story is so beautiful that it is hard to forget.
"Are you okay, Chris?" ask Mama to be worried.
"No surprise, Ma!" I answered, I've scooped up some food.
"Mama hopes you can be sincere and patient in facing this ordeal. Perhaps this is God's guidance, that Karin is not the best for you. If it can't be grasped anymore. Now we must pray for him to be happy even with others," advised Mama, when she already knew the mistakes I was facing.
"Chris knows, Ma. Why not tell me from the beginning! If it's this way, our family is the first to feel the most shame, as a result of canceling our marriage," said I who was still arrogant.
"Yes, Son. Mama understands. Love cannot be forced. If we put more pressure on Karin, I'm afraid it's like this! You're the one who ended up getting hurt" Mama added.
"Yes, Ma. Maybe it is true, Mama said. I've been blinded by love, so I don't realize that Karin still holds her love for others" I said.
"Good, Son. May you get a better delivery from Karin,. Mama always wishes you the best" he said.
"Emm, Mum. Thank you." Thank you."
*****
The car has sped up quickly, to get to the shop I own. It didn't take long to arrive, when his speed crossed the line.
Gradak .. klinting, I opened the door violently.
Plok .. plok, clap loudly.
"Gather ... Gather all here, now!" I shouted to call all the officers
Karin's been looking at me weird, but I don't care. Even when she stared intently at me, just grieving her by not looking back at her.
Everything seems to have run away on me.
"What's up, Boss. How did the tumbens this morning gather us? Unusual" asked one of the officers.
"Listen to the announcement I'm about to say now. No one should ask, let alone argue, if you don't want me to fire right now" I said.
All seemed confused, at my attitude that changed somewhat harshly.
"You know that this store is always guarded by Karin. Respectfully, I will now look forward to her work with someone else" I said.
The officers changed their expressions, looking surprised with confusion.
"What do you mean, Chris?" cymbat Karin did not understand.
"So I told you, no one asked. Then you have violated it, so be prepared to accept the paper for your dismissal" I said.
"I asked because I had a right, to what you said just now. It's up to you to fire me if not, but please give me a reason" Karin said.
"There's no good reason for this. It's just, I want to change your position with someone else. After all, your days will now start to get busy with new lovers, so I'm kind enough to give you some free time, so you can be free together" I said to him.
The officers were already astonished to see our words, which felt tense. Everyone knows that we're getting married, maybe they're a little surprised at my reasoning. The personal assistant had already told everyone to disperse, probably with the intention of not listening to our quarrel anymore.
"Come, Chris. You don't be like this. We can talk about this again carefully, without having any emotion to bring up the matter yesterday," said Karin.
"What's there to talk about? Never mind, I'm sick of seeing that innocent-ass face of yours" I quipped.
"Wait, Chris! Why your palm?" call Karin's worries.
"Take me off. You don't need to know what's going on with this hand," I pulled out a strong hand, while there were still wrapping bandages.
It doesn't feel right if Karin taps my skin again. His expression was sluggish. I just squinted, who would no longer be tempted by his compassion.
"I'm sorry if it's all my fault" he said.
"I've forgiven you, so don't feel bad about it. From now on it's up to you, if you want to lift your foot from here. Obviously, I'm not looking at your face anymore" I said.
"Is that what you hate about me, so to look at me you don't want to?" tanyanya pilu's.
"How do you think? If you already know do not need to ask a lot, understand! Yes, our business is done. If you can not be taken advantage of again, marriage problems are clear I canceled, including our relationship that began this moment must end," I explained hoarse.
"I'm sorry, Chris. I know it's my fault, sorry .. forgive me!" the answer is that Pilu has shed tears.
The body turned around immediately and immediately stepped away. He who sobs cries I let him. The hands repeatedly removed the dewdrops, which were not as rigid as they had burst out from my eyes.
When you look at both your eyeballs
It's implied what's going to happen to us.
I let love play my role
Kurela, you've been away from me.
Leaving all wounds
What's my fault with you, when I play.
You want to get away from me
Leaving all our memories behind, by closing all the stories.
I knew it was all over
But I still don't want to let you go.
My mouth just kept silent
Is it wrong if I want to love you.
Don't ask me why I can change when I don't want you to leave
What do I have to do
To get you again.
It feels so painful
When you prefer him to me.
The body had slumped sitting on the floor of the ceramic tile, which was leaning behind the door.
"I'm sorry, Karin. I have to be rude to you. This is the only way I can't remember you anymore. This love of mine let it be kept in the heart, which is increasingly tarnished by being hurt. Really, it hurts me a lot. I'm not strong anymore if I have to look you in the face again" Sadness began to shed tears again, with the position of having buried the head between two thighs.
"Always I've been lied to by love. Actually I already know what's going on, you'd prefer it. Let me now go, to carry the wound. May you keep smiling happily" a still disappointed heart.