An Overdose of Love
He's getting further away
# FLASHBACK ON PART 10 #
Finally my mom complied with my willingness to buy a bike, because in fact Adrian is now busy with additional lessons for the graduation test, as well as myself who is busy also with studying because I want the test as well. Every day this self must go to school separately, that is, I ride a bike while the adoptive brother still ride his motorcycle.
Even at home we did not have time to be able to face each other, because busy for the test each of us made the distance between us more and more distant. Sometimes the time to eat together we did not have time to run together, because when I had brother Adrian had left first, it was the opposite with me as well. Even though we were home there was no time to meet face to face, because sometimes we had to eat in the room.
The day of changing months has come, until without feeling we have finished doing the graduation exam. Thank God we have graduated with satisfactory values and now we and our family have come to the graduation ceremony Adrian.
"Congratulations, brother!" I said a greeting when the graduation ceremony was held.
"Thank you, Karin. Congratulations on you graduating too" replied the foster brother.
"Yes, brother."
"Surge .. move aside, I want to talk to Adrian," said Yona's voice telling me to leave, with a strong shoulder.
Immediately I retreated slowly away, when all his friends were huddling with laughter wanted to be with brother Adrian. With a heavy heart, this self tried to get away too, but many times the head tried to look back in the hope that Adrian's brother would prevent me from going in front of him, too, but in reality he was forgetting me because he was busy chatting with his friends who graduated from school as well.
"Why are you Karin?" mama asked when she saw me just sitting quietly watching the behavior of Adrian with his friend.
"What the hell, ma!" weak answer.
"Have you congratulated your brother?" ask him.
"Yes, that was it."
"Oh yeah, ma--?" my voice's stifled.
"Hei jeng Lidya, how are you?" greet a mother to a mother.
"Alhamdulillah, I'm good jeng!" return the greetings of mama while shaking hands and splashing on the person who greeted her earlier.
"Heeeeeeeeeeh!" my breath is long.
Because everyone is busy in their activities, now I try to stay away from the crowd of people who are busy welcoming the happiness of the graduation ceremony. My job is just waiting to sit on the outside bench, watching people passing by and out of the building.
That's the one who's coming over.
When happiness and pleasure hit.
This is how you will feel alone again, without any loved ones approaching.
The shadow of the destruction of compassion is approaching.
It was as if he had slammed the heart of a seed of love upon all.
Is the world so unfair to me, when I need them so much?.
The separation I now feel, which is when my loved ones get farther and farther away no longer care about me.
The emptiness is so felt when the pounding of affection begins to feel lost in the heart of the feeling.
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Year after year has passed, until without feeling I have been three years into a new family Cokro. My road and Adrian's walk are now increasingly far different, not as close as what we used to do. His age is getting mature, somehow increasingly distanced us to be close as a sister. We are one roof but often can not meet to chat with each other like before, even now we say hello only as necessary.
Adrian's activities will be so crowded college, so often he came home late at night. The loneliness of the affection that used to be present in this self once I missed, to keep chatting with each other.
"Have you forgotten your brother? Why are you getting any further away from me? Why don't you ever speak softly to me again? Is this all my fault because my careless self made a plan to stay away from you? I'm sorry, brother, I don't mean this. I miss you so much" I muttered inwardly looking at his body which was now walking into the house.
Without feeling the tears had dripped soaked the cheeks. This longing was so heart-piercing, that it was as if I had been overcome by the thirst of wanting to speak to my own foster brother. Even though the night is getting late running the day, but this self can not close the eyes at all, as a result of the imagined longing for brother Adrian. Without feeling the cock crowing early in the morning was present, but netra was still reluctant to fall asleep.
"Haaaah, why can't I sleep? What the hell happened to me? Have I gone crazy not being able to sleep because I miss Adrian's brother? Aaah, how utterly stupid. Due to the strange feeling of longing, I continue to be uncomfortable to immediately close my eyes," said the heart that felt annoyed at myself.
Without sleep at all, now I am busy with activities ready for school, even though in reality the middle of the day seems still dark. Finished wearing school uniforms, it feels really can not stand to lie on the mattress.
"Carin ... Karin ... wake up .. wake up, it's noon!" say someone told me to sleep.
"Later, ma. Karin is still so sleepy! It's still early in the morning" I replied lazily with my eyes still closed.
"It's seven o'clock" said someone again.
"What?" say I was shocked to get up, who immediately ran to pick up the bag.
"Hah ..hhhh, where are you bag?" I'm upset that I didn't find a school bag.
"It! It's quiet, it's only six o'clock!" a man tried to give me a bag.
The face tried to look to the right, to see who was giving me the thing I was looking for, and how shocked I was when I found out who was waking me up.
"Sister Adrian? You?" i'm surprised.
"Why? Waking up from a dream?" he said I don't understand.
"meaning? Why is my sister here?" I was surprised.
"Hedeeh, it turns out that you are actually still in the dream realm. The part of the tumbennya anyway early in the morning is still molor, what are you afraid of being late for school?" ask Adrian who is now back in wonder.
"He .. he. Last night Karin couldn't sleep" I explained.
"Why indeed?" tanyanya.
"Come, brother. Lately Karin has been hard to sleep at night" I explained.
"really? There must be a lot of thoughts about this guy. It should be that under your eyes there are dark circles" explained Adrian.
"Ciiih .. haah, what the fuck. Really black?" ask me not to believe that now quickly ran towards the glass.
It turns out true what Adrian said, under my eyes there are dark circles due to lack of sleep.
"Believe, right?" ask brother Adrian.
Tok .. tok .. tok, door knocked.
"What are you doing, Adrian? Mama told you to wake up Karin, even preoccupied with talking to her," explained mama approached us, who had cheered into my room.
"Hihihi, sorry ma. After a long time not talking to Karin, yes it will miss talking to him," replied casually brother Adrian.
"Well, is it true what Adrian said just now? Does he really miss me too? Aaah, we turned out to be healthy but no one dared to start first," a mutter of hearts who now felt happy.
"Come on Karin, we're down for breakfast!" said brother Adrian who had pulled my hand to follow him immediately.
"Yes, Karin. Cepetan, maybe later you will be late to school," said the mother warned.
"Yes .. yeah, ma."
Finally we can gather to eat with the family again as usual, which is when I first became a member of their new family. The feeling of haru had been mixed in me, when the atmosphere I missed could finally come together again.