An Overdose of Love
Longing
The wounded heart continues to be slashed.
Dusk sail enchanting like a jeweled angel.
The tapestry invites a thousand stories with patterns of beauty.
Stopping my steps with a delinquent in a blanketed deck misses.
To you a heart that has been lost when it went far away in the eyes.
I don't know where Karin is now? Obviously I searched everywhere but never found him. Fatal error has tormented this bath, when the woman I want to hold tightly is now lost somewhere.
"Where are you now, Karin? I miss you so much. Forgive me for forgetting all that happened that night, until you have now disappeared like the earth. Oh my God, if he's alive then meet us soon, but if he's dead show him where the grave is. I would love to meet him, even if only once. Was I wrong not to find him? But the sense of wanting to correct the mistake, so hot to immediately redeem," the murmur was upset by staring at the passing of the vehicle from the balcony of the campus roof.
"How's Adrian? Have you found Karin?" ask my best friend Bayu.
"Yet. I don't know where else I'm gonna start looking for him. It feels quite tired to have gone around from the corner of the village to the corner of the city to look for it, but all the effort is just in vain," I complained bitterly with hands in a bag of pants.
"You who are patient and must always be strong to keep looking for it. I'm sure we will find Karin, even though time has not been able to support," said friends try to encourage.
"Thank you, Bayu. You always give me the zest to keep looking for existence, Karin," I replied giving a sweet smile but like no more energy.
"Together guys. We are good friends, so I will also try to help you find him" the friend said.
"Yes, thank you."
The drums are the melodious groove of every temple of your love, without the dullness to keep me revealing.
I paint a thousand misses every time for you.
The beautiful smile that you have always smeared at that time, becomes a longing incision that continues to mount in the depths of my heart.
A trace of an unfinished story, you have become a sinking story.
It is sad when this heart starts anchoring but you are not on the side.
Now the step is to try to go down with my friend Bayu, to follow immediately the next lesson session. Step by step our journey until also, near the space that makes this self to study.
"Hey baby!" greet Yona's voice spoiled to me.
Instantly Yona lowered her head, shrinking with guts as a result of me snapping with a harsh tone due to anger.
"Never call me dear again. It disgusts me so much and you don't want to call it that" I lamented.
"That's it, Adrian. I've said sorry to you so many times for my mistakes yesterday to Karin" Yona said, sounding sad.
"For me, your actions cannot be forgiven forever. Where there is I who never touched you at all, but I ngaku-ngu have tarnished you, until you with brawn has made a pregnancy drama, she said, so that this self will fall into a trap in your attempt to marry me. Remember, Yona. You are the first person I will ever hate and I will never forgive, because as a result of you being crazy, I have lost the figure and the woman I should have been responsible for," I said full of emotion scolding him.
Without feeling pity, I just kept talking about blaming Yona. All the children and college friends saw our action that was like people fighting. I don't care anymore about Yona's tears that keep flowing, because for me Yona is a cunning woman who always plays a lot of drama. My hatred and disgust for her was so strong that hatred and anger were always on her.
"But, Andrian. I told you that I did it because I love you, and I have repeatedly apologized to you, but why do you always get angry and blame me constantly," his weakness is still in tears.
"Love? What did you say, love? If you really want to get love and my heart sincerely, then you will not do the deed and harm it. Apologizing to me is not enough. Didn't you think and imagine how devastated Karin was when she found out we were getting married, huh? To the extent that he was desperate to end his life, because he did not accept the association of your drama. You should be angry and blamed, because indeed all of that origin is from the cunning and carelessness you have made a fatal mistake," I said to insist again.
It felt like a hand hit him in the face, but fortunately he was a woman, so this self could only hold back by clenching his hands.
"Have ... already, patient Adrian. Let's just go to class. Lookie! Already many of our friends who witnessed this uproar," prevent Bayu who feel bad, because more and more people are watching.
Without many more words, I just complied as Bayu pulled my hand. I left Yona just like that, when she didn't stop being sobbing. I don't care if my friends label me as a man who can humiliate a woman like Yona, for obviously I can bring out my uneg-uneg and anger that has been hidden for Yona so plong. But all still makes me quite uneasy, when Karin has not been found again.
His mistake was truly inexcusable, so many times when I accidentally met in the street even I greeted him with a cynical look of dislike. Many times he also apologized, but I did not immediately comply with his request, because for me the door of his apology has now been closed.
My steps began to tire again, without hugging your love in my time loop.
The clear thread often fell, without any more words that dared to block the dewdrop.
I completely lost my way without you when you were no longer by my side.
You are the pillar of eternal love, and cannot be confused with anything in the world.
Won't give up, for me to find Karin. Even though a million obstacles stand in the way I will still try to find it.
"I'm sure you're alive, Karin. Therefore I will not lose by time, to continue to struggle to find your existence. May you be well out there, with no one to hurt or harm you. Even if you are not by my side anymore, but my prayers will continue to accompany your every step out there. I miss you Karin, come back to me quickly" I said in my heart as I longed for it to come.