My Love My Pain
Hope

Airin woke up because of the light that entered through the sidelines of the curtains in his room. Slowly, Airin got up and rubbed his eyes. Arja is no longer beside him.

Sorry, I left very early. There's important business in the office.

Reading the message made Airin smile. What's more remembered last night, Arja really prepared dinner carefully. He also gave Airin a necklace.

Hope reappears on Airin Day. Hope for a beautiful and meaningful marriage. Marriage without fear because of the third person.

"Iwlins. Make me some tea and pineapple jam bread."

"Good, mom."

Ilin went into the kitchen. While Airin chose to watch tv while waiting. He's checked Vino's schedule, nothing seems difficult.

The news is the same as yesterday. About Arja's second marriage. They even said about the auction that night.

Airin was bothered by all of that. Fortunately, the reporters did not know about his home and work. If so, it would be very troublesome.

Breakfast is over. Airin took her bag and went back to check what she had to carry. It's all, thought Airin.

"I'm leaving first huh, Lin."

"Yes, mom."

Arriving at the terrace of the house Airin shocked. There was already a man whose age might be older than Airin. He was sitting with coffee next to him.

"Are you leaving mom?" ask the man.

Airin just kept quiet and called out to Ilin. He asked about the man.

"He's my husband ma'am, his name is Amar. He's a driver given by Mr. Arja" Ilin said.

"really? why didn't Arja tell me."

"Maybe you want to give me a gift."

Airin just smiled. Then, he asked Amar to prepare his car. If there is no Amar, this car will be barked in front of the house without anyone touching. Arja really knows Airin's needs.

***

Airin went into Vino's room. It looks so messy. Unlike usual, a lot of files were scattered. There's even a glass shard in there.

Step Airin slowly but surely. In front of Vino. Airin read out his schedule today. From meeting to meeting her mother at a restaurant.

"Cancel everything" said Vino.

"Good, sir."

Airin canceled all schedules today. Vino looked unhappy. There was even anger on his face. He may be having problems right now. It's just, Airin doesn't deserve to ask.

"Why don't you ask why I canceled everything?" said Vino.

"Sorry, Sir. I'm not that kind of person."

"You're this. Never mind, you won't understand. Just clean up this room, I'm leaving."

Airin nodded. After Arja came out of her room. Airin started to clean up some of the files that were there. Lots of important files, but it was corrupted by Vino.

You can go home after cleaning my room.

Why is Vino like this. How could he have sent Airin like a maid in his house. The nature of Arja and Vino is not much different, they are too selfish.

***

"Can you take your time after you get home from work?" sela asked as they were having lunch in the office cafeteria.

"No. I think I'm going to uncle and aunt. It's been a while, I haven't been there."

"Want me to take you?" tawar Sela's.

"No need."

They continued with that lunch. Though his mind did not want to think about Vino. Still his heart said another, he felt anxious because of Vino's sudden change. He even sent Airin home.

"What about your wedding?" tanya Sela dashed Airin's daydream.

"Arja is better."

Airin shook his head, "Why did he hit me?"

"Totally so."

After finishing lunch. Airin went back to his desk. He had just moved to the table in front of Vino's room. Of course, so that Vino does not need to call if he needs it.

Airin meticulously re-prepared the files that will be used for tomorrow. Even Airin worked with a mind that kept walking around somewhere.

Tuk tuk tuk. As someone knocked on the table, Airin finally turned his eyes away.

"Can I help you?" airin asked a woman with blonde hair.

"Is Vino around?"

"Sir Vino has been home since then" Airin said.

"Then. Just tell Vino, Cika's looking for him."

"All right."

"Then. I'm leaving first, sorry to interrupt."

"It's okay" Airin said with a smile.

The file is done and there is nothing else. Finally, Airin decided to go home. Before that, he checked his phone. Sure enough, there was a message from Arja.

I'll come get you. Let Amar go home.

The clock has already shown the end of office work. A boisterous voice filled this office out of excitement. There are also those who sigh because they have to finish their work.

"Come on. He said he was going to go home, "Sela immediately hugged Airin's hand.

Airin stopped and released Sela's hand. She turned to Sela, "I'm sorry, this time I can't. Arja's picking me up."

"Not to be sad. You can go home whenever you want, this time you have to have fun with Brother-in-law." Sela pushed me towards Arja.

I don't know when he was standing there. He also brought a bouquet of flowers for me. Why is he so romantic.

"Thank you" I said after receiving the bouquet.

"Either. Let's go."

I waved at Sela and got into the car.

"Where are we going?"

"We go home, tonight I'll take you out."

Airin felt happy and felt strange. Arja has been so romantic with her since yesterday. Is there anything he wants, or he just wants to make Airin wish.

"Can I ask you a question?"

"Ask what you want to say."

"Do you have a problem with Maya? I haven't seen him since the auction."

Arja did not change her expression, "You know that I have to divide my time. These three days, I will accompany you. The next three days I'll be with Maya."

"Does Maya agree?"

"You want him to agree or not. I don't care, I'm the leader in the household. I have a responsibility for you and him."

Arja is doing justice. Although I do not know the outcome later. Airin can only say that everything is fine.

"Why? don't you like my decision?"

"It's not. I just feel weird, tomorrow you're still there for me. But the day after tomorrow, you'll be with another woman."

"Don't be like that. It has been a consequence for you. If only you had banned ...."

"Even if I forbid. You're still gonna marry her, aren't you?"

There's no answer. They choose silence rather than ruining a beautiful day simply because of trivialities. Airin will spend time with Arja well. He did not want to continue to hurt his own feelings.

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