My Love My Pain
The wrong feeling

The night is getting late The moon is already emitting its light in the companions of the stars. In fact, the cold penetrated into Airin's body.

It was beautiful looking at the moon and stars. Airin felt that he was just a puppet that could be played at any time by Arja. In fact, Airin cannot get out of this condition. Airin felt his life was just a joke.

Tok to tok. Yes, since then Arja tried to make Airin open the door and out of the room. However, Airin did not want to, the hunger did not approach Airin at all. There was no reason for him to get out of this cage.

"Airines. I beg you, I don't want you to get sick" Arja said from behind the door.

At a time like this. Vino's shadow slowly came and filled the eyelids of Airin. If Airin has feelings for her, then Airin will feel very sinful. Yes, if I love Vino, then I am a traitor to Arja, thought Airin.

"Airines. Don't you want to forgive me?"

Airin was very hurt. In the depths of his heart, he was eager to forgive Arja. He was afraid of being lied to again. He was also afraid of being hurt again.

"Even if you hate me, I'll never divorce you."

Yep. Airin remained silent and did not reply to Arja's words. Airin wanted him to feel the same wound. Silenced and not believed. Feeling alone and no one cares.

"Already, Arja. He will not forgive you. Let's go to the room instead" Maya said in a soothing tone to Arja.

"It's all because of you" Arja said in a snapping tone.

"You're mad at me? didn't you yourself never believe in your first wife."

Plaque. Arja slaps Maya's face hard. Just this time, Airin heard Arja say rude and as if she did not care about Maya. What really happened, Arja doesn't even care about the child Maya conceived.

"Shut up and leave me alone" said Arja.

I felt hurt by Arja. Maya ran into her room. She cries and is unhappy with what Arja did to her.

***

Seeing Arja sitting alone. Kenzo approached and sat down on the chair, not jaub of Arja sitting down.

"Why did you slap Maya? you promised me you wouldn't hurt him."

"That's because he's too chatty and set me up" Arja said without turning to Kenzo.

Kenzo smiled, "What if I say all this to that woman. You know if he's gonna get hit too."

"Don't threaten me." This time Arja looks at Kenzo.

"I'm not threatening. Didn't we have a deal?"

Arja could only nod, "Alright. I promise I won't do it again."

After that conversation. Kenzo decides to leave and leaves Arja alone.

***

Airin woke up when a call came into her phone. Vino, that name is on Airin's phone screen.

"Good morning" said Vino.

"Amorning, what's calling so early?" ask Airin who's curious why Vino called.

"No. I just want to know how you are."

"I'm fine" said Airin.

It sounded if Vino let out a sigh of relief, "I'm glad to hear it. If there's anything tell me," said Vino.

"All right."

After that Airin decided to call and chose to pull the blanket back. The sound in the kitchen was very crowded, maybe the waiters were preparing breakfast.

Airin's stomach is hungry. However, Airin still did not want to face Arja. If Airin had told the waiter to come, Arja would have come too. Finally Airin undoes his intentions.

Airin decided to prepare. Sela will surely gladly accept his arrival. At the very least, he still had a family to share his grief with.

"Airin," call Arja.

Airin was shocked when she saw Arja already at the door with a tray filled with food and drinks.

Airin was still in place with the phone in his left hand. Airin's bag was already carrying because he was ready to go.

"I'm going to go." Airin just passed through Arja.

Arja placed the tray on the floor and she pulled Airin into her opener. He hugged Airin's waist very tightly.

"I am the owner here. You just have to follow me, I'm your husband" said Arja.

Airin looked into his eyes. Airin thought Arja was really sorry. It turned out to be the same as yesterday, he considered Airin only as a puppet.

"No matter what you say. I have a life of my own. I'm not your doll."

"You my wife is not a doll."

Airin did not expect that Arja would say that. Airin could only laugh a little and push her away.

"Better, you take care of your second wife. I have other business" said Airin.

Arja stared at Airin's departure. Until Airin came down the stairs.

"Do you really hate me?" ask Arja.

Quiescent. Airin stopped for a while on the stairs. If it says she hates Arja, maybe Airin doesn't hate her. It's just that Airin's love has begun to fade. Maybe because of Arja's treatment all along.

"You can ask yourself."

After saying that Airin went straight away.he didn't even see Arja's face before actually leaving.

Back, Vino's shadow made Airin feel even more guilty. Airin felt her feelings for Vino were not her real kiss. He just felt homesick because he was used to being together.

***

See the house that Airin used to occupy. A lot has changed, a lot of plants have been replaced with new ones. This house paint has also been replaced, which was originally blue now green.

Looks quiet and soothing. There was no riot of servants just to make breakfast. There was only a green scene that was soothing to the eyes.

Slowly, Airin stepped into the courtyard. A few times Airin pressed the bell until the door opened.

"Airin, are you coming?" ask grandma with a smile.

Airin did not answer, only the embrace that Airin gave. It's been a long time since Airin came here. In the past, Airin used to come here with Vino, even if only to play.

"How are you, Grandma?" ask Airin.

Grandma smiled and took Airin in. Like a child, Airin was just stalking him. Grandma is not Airin's grandmother. She is a grandmother away from her child, only Airin and Vino have been with her since. Until Airin invited uncle moved, so did Vino.

"You and Vino are already big. It must be so beautiful out there, that you rarely come here" Grandma said.

A young maid brought two drinks. For Airin and for Grandma.

"for me, it's not beautiful out there. Beautiful here, along with grandma."

"Are you in trouble?"

Airin shook his head quickly. As much as possible Airin covered all this. Where could Airin have come here and only brought sad news. For an old grandmother, it is better to tell something that is fine.

"Are you and Vino still in touch?" ask grandma.

Airin nodded, "Yes. We still keep in touch, next time I'll bring her here" Airin said with a smile.

"Grandma was looking forward to that day" Grandma said.

We talked about a lot of things. Remembering the past and of course discussing interesting things.

Here, Airin again finds a day where he has not known love. The day where he still felt happy without burden. The day he doesn't lie to himself or others.

Airin knew, the feeling that appeared to Vino was wrong. Airin shouldn't have this feeling anymore. What's more, they already have their own lives. And Airin knows life has a variety of flavors, sometimes sweet sometimes bitter. They just have to be grateful always.

***