My Love My Pain
Plan

Airin has already matured his mind. He tried to calm down and not be too hasty to decide. Only, his heart was already injured quite badly. He was killed and now he has to lose his son.

"You want me here? what's up?"

Arja entered without permission and immediately hugged Airin's body. Airin let go of the hug hard. Then, he threw the divorce papers at Arja.

"What do you mean? are you still mad because I didn't help you last night?"

Maya says nothing to Arja. Probably because he also didn't want Airin to say anything about his relationship with Kenzo.

"Are we not in love with each other?"

Airin sighed, she closed her eyes for a while and tried to figure out her heart. He should not be complacent just because of sweet words alone.

"I want us to get divorced today. Not because I don't love you, I'm just tired of my life right now."

Arja looked at Airin questioningly. Arja steps her legs to get closer, but Airin stops her.

"Then why do you want us to get divorced?"

Airin laughed a little. "Did Maya not tell you?"

"Tell me what's your real reason?"

This time Arja managed to lock Airin with her body. Airin can't escape the Arja lockdown.

"I lost my son. I don't want my life to be just your doll and Maya's. I want my life and my future" cried Airin.

"I'll never divorce you" Arja drew Airin closer to her, "I know your real reason. You just want to get back to your first love. Vino's."

Airin raised his head. Their eyes met, a tinge of red visible in Arja's eyes. He looks angry this time.

"Who said it?"

"I know everything. You're not pregnant, you're just looking for an excuse for our divorce."

Airin was very upset. Maya is really sneaky and sickening. She tells Arja that Airin is pretending to be pregnant. Airin still has a special relationship with Vino.

"I'm really pregnant and miscarried. You didn't even see me when I was in the hospital."

Arja threw Airin on the bed. Then Arja approached and whispered something to him.

"If you want a child. I'll give it."

***

Airi cried. This time he felt really hurt. Not just physically, but mentally. Arja is not thinking about what will happen to Airin after this.

Airin can only make plans. Surely the plan is for him to escape from a ruthless man like Arja. Even if there is love, long time love will disappear by itself.

Tok to tok.

Ilin came in with tea and breakfast. Airin just smiled.

"It's breakfast, Mom."

"Thank you" said Airin.

"Where for me?" asked Arja who came out from the bathroom.

"I'll bring it here, sir."

"no need. I'll just eat at the office, you can go."

Ilin out. We were both in this room. The more here, Arja's treatment is not good on Airin. He's getting more and more arbitrary.

Airin got out of bed and prepared to take a shower. It's impossible if Airin has to get permission again today. Vino will be more worried later.

"Where are you going today?"

"Wherever I go. It has nothing to do with you" Airin said.

Arja pulls Airin into her arms. His gaze was not even guilty. There was only a gaze that made Airin even more hurt if he remembered it.

"Are you still angry? didn't I give you what you wanted."

Without saying anything Airin pushed Arja roughly.

"I asked for nothing but divorce. You know it."

Arja's face has changed. He looks angry this time. Airin thinks he'll be released and he'll be divorced if he continues to defy. Apparently not, Arja even more like Airin.

"Whatever happens I won't divorce you."

Airin took a deep breath and threw it away. The more he wanted to get out of his grasp, the tighter the grasp was.

"Start tomorrow. You must return to the main house. I want to see you more."

Tired of hearing Arja's words. Airin went straight into the bathroom and turned on the tap.

***

Time has shown eight more. I'm really late for hearing Arja's rant. Airin hastily entered Vino's room without permission.

"Sorry, Sir. I'm late."

Vino was shocked to see Airin coming suddenly. There were some people there who even Airin did not know who they were.

"introduce. This is my secretary, Airin. Actually he was on leave, I called him suddenly."

Everyone there nodded their heads.

"You can go back to your table" Vino said.

"Excuse me."

Airin could only blame himself. He feels so stupid. It should be before entering Airin see the schedule. This time, he will be in trouble again.

"Is there a problem?"

Airin was shocked by the existence of Vino who was already in front of him. Airin turned to the right and left. There was no one but Vino and him.

"Who are you looking for? I noticed you were just daydreaming."

"Sorry, sir."

"Don't call me Father. How are you doing?"

"I'm already good."

"Your husband?"

Airin smiled faintly. "It's in the office sir. Better not talk about it."

"OKs. Lunch with Mama."

Don't know how. Airin really wanted to meet Mama Vino. However, Airin also did not know, his sense of repeating the past was not pleasant. He doesn't want to hope, if he and Arja are having problems.

"Hey, why daydream."

"OKs. I go first" said Vino, who immediately left Airin.

Ting. A message came into my phone.

I'll come get you. Don't get close to other men while still being my wife

Not usually sending messages. Now he's sending a threatening message. Here, Airin is the victim. Next time, Maya. He will bear all his falsehoods. Although she's protected by Arja.

***

Airin looks for Sela in her room. Nothing, until Airin chooses to ask Sela's friend. They say Sela hasn't left in two days.

"Where is he" Airin said as he exited the room where Sela worked.

Airin kept trying to contact Sela. No messages or phone calls were answered. At times like this, Airin needs Sela's help. It's just that Sela can't be found.

"Will go home, right? let me drive," said Vino who stopped his car in front of Airin.

Airin shook his head, "Arja will pick me up."

"Good."

Airin simply nodded, "I'll accompany you to wait for him." Vino went down and sat down next to Airin.

"thank you. Oh yeah, can I ask for your help?"

"Can. What's?"

"Arja's coming. I have to go, I'll let you know in a message."

Vino was silent when Airin got into Arja's car. Arja and Vino's gaze met, it was clear that Arja did not like Vino. In fact, they're friends. Even if only know each other.

"All your stuff I've moved into the house."

Airin's hand was already playing with the cell phone and pretending not to listen to what Arja said. It's free Airin spoke, at the end of course he would force Airin.

"Where did your relationship go with Vino? have you and her been in touch since Vino left the country?"

"I told you I don't have a relationship with Vino anymore. He's my boss."

Arja laughed loudly. Why he lied to himself. Obviously, if he's jealous, why ask such a stupid question.

Get home. Airin down, it turns out there have been quite a lot of changes in this house. Airin gets a room with a view of the pool below. Appreciable. Rather than having to be close to Maya and Arja.

"This is your new room."

"I know."

Airin came in and closed the door of his room loudly. Without hesitation, Airin threw his jacket and bag to the place. Airin was so stupid in devising the plan, he had to seek the help of others.

***

It's dinner time. But Airin chose to lock himself in the room. It is not impossible that Airin will feel pain again. Seeing her own husband making out with women to his duan.

Tok to tok. Airin opened the door of the room, apparently a servant.

"What's wrong?"

"You've been waiting for everyone at the dinner table."

"I'll be down soon."

Airin closed the door again. After changing clothes and establishing his heart, Airin finally went down. A message came into Airin's phone.

I'll help you.

Finally Vino replied to Airin's message. He agreed with the help Airin requested. At least Airin is not alone, there is Vino who is his friend at this time.

"Night." Airin sat down.

Seeing Kenzo in this house still feels very awkward. Remember what Vino said. Maybe that kid is not Arja's. Then what makes Arja and Maya have a relationship.

"You look happy?" ask Kenzo to Airin.

"Sure, I'm back at my husband's house."

Maya's coming. The clothes are still the same, too open according to Airin.

"Why did you bring him here. Didn't you promise me?" Maya approached and immediately kissed slowly Arja's cheek. Right in front of Airin.

Airin brushed off Arja's disgusting look. He intentionally made something like this. For now, Airin just hates because Arja does not believe in her pregnancy.

"Leave it. She wouldn't dare hurt your heart and baby" Arja said, trying to calm Maya.

Seeing all this makes Airin more lazy to eat. Back Airin put down the spoon and fork.

"I don't have an appetite. You can just eat."

"Are you leaving because there's an appointment with another man."

Airin standing. What Maya said was unethical. During the time Airin and Arja were married, Airin only knew Arja, Vino and Kenzo. Why is Maya provoking Airi's emotions again this time.

"I don't have any appointments with anyone. Even if I have an appointment with another man, at least I'm not pregnant because of another man."

Airin's words managed to keep Maya quiet. Kenzo also looked agitated after Airin said so.

"You..you accuse me?"

Airin shook his head, "I'm not accusing anyone. Night."

Airin's heart was a little relieved. At least Airin knew that the boy was not Arja's. So, Airin could have let Arja know. Arja won't forgive Maya after this.

"Wait, Rin." Arja brought a plate of seafood in front of Airin, "Why don't you eat?"

Airin swallowed. Arja knows I'm allergic to seafood. Why did he bring Airin this food.

"You know what my allergies are."

"Yes. It's just, it's a small punishment because you've scared Maya."

"I don't want to eat it." Airin pushed the plate down and broke, "You don't believe in my pregnancy. I'm still accepting, but I don't accept that you're torturing me for another woman."

The look in our eyes met. Plaque. Yes, a slap landed on Airin's cheek. Not from Arja, but from Maya.

"You are a woman ******. How dare I refuse my husband's request."

"If I'm a woman ******. You're what?”

Maya raised her hand again. He prepared to slap Airin again, before that. Airin had already managed to slap him first.

"Don't make me mad or you'll lose your baby."

Airin pushed Arja. He didn't even dwell in front of Maya. What the hell, he's not the Arja of Airin anymore. He's an Arja who can be enslaved by women like Maya.

***