My Love My Pain
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Arja is collecting some files on her desk. Last night she really felt that Sela was very different. He even flirted in a very cheap way. Arja knows it was Aunt Mia. He purposely made Sela do such a disgusting thing.

"Sir. The schedule of meeting with Mr. Vino was postponed" Secretary Sa told Arja.

Arja hush. Lay the file quietly.

"It's okay, please tell Vino to see me immediately if there's time."

"Good, sir."

Secretary Sa went back to his desk. While Arja is still thinking of a way to expel Aunt Mia. If he stays here, it's not just Airin. Sela will also be exposed to danger. What's more, Sela is pregnant with Arja's child right now.

Tuk tuk tuk. Sela entered with definite footsteps. He smiled as soon as he saw Arja at his desk.

"Arja," call Sela.

Arja looks over and sees Sela coming. Looks like Sela brought her lunch. Arja approached and kissed Sela's forehead gently.

"I'm sorry for last night" Sela said.

"It's okay. Just don't you repeat it again" said Arja.

Sela just smiled. Then he prepared a table for Arja to have lunch. Just this time Sela came and brought her lunch, attentively. Usually Sela only comes to ask for her monthly ration.

The table was filled with food. Gently Sela took the rice and side dishes to Arja's plate. Arja feels that Sela is trying to get close again.

"Why are you doing this?" ask Arja directly.

Sela turned her head with a puzzled look, "what do you mean?"

"It's not usually you do this. Do you need anything?"

Sela lowered her fist. Then, he set his heart to stare back at Arja. Their eyes looked at each other, Arja still showed her flat expression.

"When are you going to marry me?" the question just popped out of Sela's lips.

"Are we not going to wait for this child to be born."

"I want to be quick. Don't tell me, you just gave me hope. You're gonna get close to Airin again."

Arja knows the worries Sela is experiencing. Slowly Arja rubbed softly Sela's head.

"I'll keep my promise."

"What if Airin comes back to you? are you still going to marry me?"

Arja hush.

"justify. You just give me hope." this time Sela's face has changed.

Sela was disappointed. Slowly water flowed out from her beautiful eyes. He was crying right in front of Arja. Arja tries to get closer, but Sela turns away.

"really. You just love Airin, I'm just a mistress to you. Why should I hope for you, too" said Sela again.

"Sela," cried Arja loudly. As she remained silent, she simply bowed her head. Arja this time looks angry.

"Why did you change Sela. You ask a lot now, not like you used to."

Sela was just silent, but in her heart there was a sense of annoyance that had peaked. He'll meet Airin and tell her how he feels. Airin has to get out of Arja's life.

Arja is still angry. He's not even going to lunch. Sela came out disappointed. True what aunt Mia said, Arja only loves Airin, inner Sela.

I want to meet you.

The message Sela sent to Airin. After what aunt Mia did. Airin would have wanted to see him.

***

Airin was still busy with some files on her computer screen. Vino hasn't come back since coming out with Lola. While Airin had to struggle with a lot of files in the room.

Ting. A message came in on Airin's phone. Sela asked to meet him. Airin smiled.

"It looks like Sela's healthy" said Airin.

Airin quietly shut down his computer. He tidied up his desk from some files he had to sample. While his heart felt very happy to be reunited with Sela.

"You look happy" said Vino, who saw a smile on Airin's face.

Airin nodded. Then he approached Vino who was still at the door.

"I'll meet Sela."

Vino's face changed upon hearing Sela's name. He held Airin's hand and stared fixedly at his eyes.

"Do I need to be with you?" ask Vino.

"I'm just for a minute."

"I'm worried about you" said Vino.

Airin cupped Vino's face with both hands, "I only met Sela. Not a criminal."

"But..."

"Trust me, Vin."

Vino could only nod. He also had to learn to let Airin free. Vino can't keep him or Airin's going to walk out of his life again.

Just now he's backtracked on a meeting with Arja. He lost his chance to have lunch with Airin.

Airin walked with a bag hanging on his right shoulder. The phone is in his hand. Airin went into a place to eat. Airin will wait for Sela there.

Not long after, a taxi stopped. Sela came down with an unusual step. With a smile Airin welcomed Sela's arrival.

"Are you okay?" ask Airin and hug Sela.

Not a hug. Sela pushed Airin away from her. Airin confirmed his position and sat in front of Sela.

"Is there a problem?" ask Airin.

"You think?" sela replied with unpleasant words.

Airin sighed, "Did Arja do anything bad to you again?"

"You still ask? you should have been self-conscious and gone from my life and Arja."

Airin did not understand what Sela was saying. For a long time he had not met Arja nor was he related. Why Airin still has a relationship with Arja.

"Arya even delayed marrying me. I already have her child. It's all because of you."

"Cell..."

"You are selfish, Rin. You already have Vino by your side, but you still want Arja."

"Sela, listen to me first."

"That's enough. Don't come any closer to Arja or me."

Airin's still trying to catch up to Sela. But Sela's footsteps were so long. Airin had not had time to get it, a taxi had taken Sela away.

Airin can only stop. Sela just keeps thinking she loves Arja. Though, Airin had already erased that taste and accepted Vino in his heart.

With weak steps. Airin walked back to the office. He will go back to work and think about what he did wrong.

"Airin, are you okay?" ask Arja who helped Airin not fall, "why are you?"

Airin removed Arja's hand from her body, "You...why are you here?" airin asked in shock to see Arja in front of him.

"Someone gave me a message. If you've just been run over by Sela. I'm so sorry," said Arja.

Airin confirmed the location of his bag to the shoulder. Airin looked at Arja. He was already not hopeful with Airin, clearly visible from his eyes.

"Why don't you just marry Sela?"

"Airin, I still need time for that."

Airin did not answer. He chose to keep moving forward. Arja followed him from behind. Since Sela's attention to Arja is very much, Arja feels her desire to pursue Airin has been reduced. But why, Arja still hurt to see Airin sad.

"I'll take you home" Arja said, holding Airin's hand.

Airin immediately pulled back his hand, "No need. I can do it myself" said Airin.

"Watery."

"My engagement has already rejected you. I'll drive him home myself."

Arja and Airin looked in the same direction. Vino came and immediately took the woman's hand. He smiled triumphantly at Arja.

"Goodoo. I can rest easy 'cause somebody's guarding Airin." Arja said with mixed feelings.

"It's my duty to look after him." Vino showed me his hand with Airin.

Feel helpless. Finally Arja got in the car and left. Vino helps Airin get into the car. He'll take Airin home for a break.

***

Aunt Mia laughed loudly inside her space. He felt very satisfied with what his spies had said. He had already succeeded in getting Airin injured by Sela. He also managed to get a photo when Arja helped Airin, seen if there Arja hugged Airin.

"Eventually they will both lose and I will win."

"Boss, it looks like Sela hates her sister a lot."

"Yes. I've made other plans. You just need to give me the information I need."

"Good, Boss."

"You can go" said Aunt Mia, throwing an envelope with money.

If this dispute continues. Easily aunt Mia can instigate Sela to abort her womb. Or aunt Mia herself who will make Sela miscarry. With that, Arja will leave Sela. Aunt Mia is about to lose one of her stupid rivals.

Aunt Mia got off her office. He'll go home and see Sela. Right now he needs a friend to tell him a story. Aunt Mia will be the back of her heart.

****

Airin and Vino are home. The loneliness, jokes and laughter that occurred earlier on top of the car now turned into a silence. Mama Vino still hasn't seen Vino or Airin, they're still standing. It made Airin feel pain in his heart.

"Don't I come back here" Airin said softly, but Vino still heard.

"Don't be like that. Come on in, let's go see Mama and apologize to her."

Airin breathed. That way Airin could slightly reduce the burden in his heart. Then Vino and Airin went hand in hand. They're coming into the house.

A waiter was waiting in the living room. As soon as he saw Vino and Airin enter, he immediately approached them.

"What's wrong?" ask Vino.

"The lady wants to meet you both" said the waiter.

Airin looked at Vino.

"alright. We're going to see Mama" said Vino.

Slowly Vino's hand touched Airin's. He took her hand and took her along. Airin felt very heavy to move her legs, she still felt embarrassed to meet Mama Vino.

Get in the room. Mama Vino sat down with a cup of tea in her hand. With an eye gesture, Vino and Airin sat in front of Mama Vino.

Mama Vino put the cup down slowly. Then, he stared at Airin and Vino in turn.

"Do you know why Mom sent you here?" ask mama Vino.

Airin and Vino compactly shook their heads.

"Mama was actually very disappointed with you guys. You have dared to cross the engagement line. This is what makes you not feel right out there."

Vino and Airin could only duck. They really feel very guilty. They hurt the people they love.

"Today, what you're afraid of has already happened. What to say, you yourself are breaking. So, mama wants you guys to get married soon, with that mom won't worry anymore."

Airin could not say anything more. What he feared has now come. Even though he already has the seed of love, but that love has not grown perfectly. Airin was still afraid that his love was just a shadow.

"How's it?"

With courage, Airin raised his head.

"We're ready, Ma."

Airin turned to Vino. How could Vino say that word without consideration. He also did not ask Airin first.

Hearing Vino's words, Mama Vino smiled. His face turned cheerful. Slowly he approached Airin and hugged her tightly.

Airin's still. He felt that it was all a dream. But no, how can a dream like this. Now, Airin can only resign to what will happen.

"Sorry mama, Rin. Mama's already mad at you" said Mama Vino.

Airin commented with a smile, "It's okay, Ma."

After that conversation. Airin went back to his room. So did Vino. Vino felt guilty about not asking Airin. Vino will apologize later.

Airin kept pacing back and forth in his room. He doesn't know what to do, maybe Vino will understand about his feelings. What about Mama Vino, Airin has promised not to disappoint her.

Tok to tok. A knock on the door in Airin's room, not long before Vino entered with a fixed gaze on Airin.

"Sorry."

"It's okay" replied Airin.

"Are you sure of how you feel about me?" ask Vino.

Airin did not know clearly about his feelings. Clearly, there is no one's name in Airin's heart right now.

"Vino. Everyone has to learn, and so do I. I have to learn to accept the people who love me and protect me."

Hearing Airin's reply made Vino not feel worried anymore. He could try to keep Airin open his heart to the full.

"Vino, but you have to promise. Don't restrain me, I'll be your wife. Merely, I also need my privacy."

Vino approached and stroked Airin's head slowly, "I know."

Airin hugged Vino at that moment. In a few days, they would completely formalize their relationship. Of course, the road will never be smooth until the end.

***

Aunt Mia approached Sela who was sitting with teary eyes. It's obvious that Sela doesn't have anyone to tell her.

"My dear son-in-law, what's wrong with you?" aunt Mia asked and immediately sat down beside Sela.

Sela did not answer. He still lamented the news that did not improve on Arja. Sela was very eager to be like when she first met Arja. A loving and romantic Arja.

"Sela," call aunt Mia.

This time Sela turned her head and found that Aunt Mia was already beside her with a questioning look.

"When did mom get here?" ask Sela to Aunt Mia.

"So far back, but your room was even crying. What's up?" ask aunt Mia.

Sela says it all to Aunt Mia. Arja's refusal and his encounter with Airin. Everything felt very chaotic to Sela. Slowly aunt Mia pulls Sela into her arms.

"I'm desperate to get rid of Airin from this world, Ma."

Aunt Mia smiled horribly, "Why don't you do it now?"

"What does mama mean?"

"The more you let it. Arja's gonna be getting away from you."

Sela confirmed what aunt Mia said. It's just that he's afraid to do it, afraid of being in prison and afraid of losing Arja forever.

Now Sela's gaze was on Aunt Mia. Since the beginning of Aunt Mia came. He always supported Sela. Sela felt something was wrong.

"Tante," call Sela.

Aunt Mia turned to Sela, "Yes, what's up, honey?"

"Why does my aunt always support me?" ask Sela.

"Because you're aunt's daughter-in-law" replied Aunt Mia.

Sela smiled, "I'm still not married to Arja. There must be a reason why auntie did it."

"Why do you call me aunty. Just call me mama, mama will tell you everything."

Sela just kept quiet while listening to the story of Aunt Mia. Sela knows, after Aunt Mia finished talking. Apparently, Arja used to have a partner named Airina. Airina leaves Arja and leaves with another woman. Since then, Arja has always liked a woman by the name of Airin.

"So, uh,..."

"Yes. I don't want the past to repeat itself. I promise you, I will always support what you do. All this for Arja's good."

Sela nodded. Then they talked about a lot of things. Till late night. Of course the conversation was about Airin and his plan to kill him.

***