My Love My Pain
gila

Airin came out of the room in her nightgown. He dreamed a terrible thing. It bothered him a lot, right now all he wanted was a glass of water to calm him down a bit.

Airin's mind was very messed up. He saw the woman coming, but he didn't know it was illusory or real. Every time someone walks into her room, she'll be gone. When he came, there was only talk of the destruction of Airin.

Unknowingly, Airin poured water into the glass until it overflowed. It makes Vino immediately approach and help Airin. Airin turned to Vino, the same person who always accompanied him and protected him.

"You haven't slept?" ask Airin.

Vino shook his head as he took the glass in Airin's hand, "You? are you having a nightmare?"

"How did you know?"

Vino held Airin's hand and invited her to sit in a chair. Airin had no idea what Vino would say to her. Clearly, Airin had a bad feeling about this.

"The doctor told me everything. You'll have nightmares often. What's more about the woman who kidnapped you, you'll probably see her a lot too. Even if only in your illusion."

"So, am I really crazy?" ask Airin with a smile.

Vino shook his head, he approached Airin, "It's not so. You're just traumatized and you have to run some therapy."

"I don't want to" said Airin, who immediately refused.

"It's for your own good. Otherwise, your mentality will be disturbed."

Airin did not stop thinking about what Vino said. How could Vino immediately decide everything without asking first. Airin took his hand off Vino.

Vino knew that he had hurt Airin. It's just, Vino doesn't want anything to happen to his lover. Whether Airin is crazy or not, Vino will always accompany him.

"Rin, man,"

"I want to rest."

Airin left Vino in the kitchen. He entered the room with all sorts of thoughts. He felt fine, even he had tried to refrain from being afraid when he saw the woman.

Ice, since that incident, is more often near Airin. Even his room was moved next to Airin's. The reason mom moved him was because she didn't want anything to happen to Airin.

Buk, Airin was shocked half dead when he saw Ais with her hair standing in his room. Airin who saw that tried to catch his breath.

"What are you doing here?" ask Airin who is uncomfortable.

Ais tried to tidy up her hair, "I thought you left here, I thought" said Ais.

"You mean?"

"My point is I'm afraid you're out without you knowing. You know, sort of sleepwalking."

Airin shook his head, "I've never had a sleep disorder. You can go now" said Airin.

"All right."

Don't know what to do. Airin chose to send a message with Cika. He said everything and as usual, Cika would reply to the message with parental advice.

Slowly the drowsiness came enveloping Airin. Making him subconsciously close his eyes slowly. Still with a cell phone in his hand.

Vino's footsteps were very slow. It makes Airin unconscious. Full of gentleness, Vino enveloped Airin's body. Before he came out, Vino was able to kiss Airin slowly. In a few days, he will make Airin his true lover.

"I'm sorry" said Vino in the ear of Airin who had fallen asleep.

***

This time Airin chose to meet Cika at lunch. He will ask Cika for help to meet with Sela. After all, Airin was very curious as to who was the mastermind of his kidnapping. He told Cika that.

"Are you not afraid?" cika asked while devouring her fries.

"No. All I'm afraid of is the safety of Sela and the baby."

Cika looked at Airin, "I know you're very curious. It's just not now, maybe there'll be another danger that's asking for you."

Airin felt that what his friend said was true as well. What else does he remember about the woman's words. He'll get rid of everyone who helped Airin. This made Airin think twice.

"What's your next plan then?" ask Cika.

"I still don't know. I have to see a doctor once a week. Otherwise I'd be crazy" Airin said.

Cika patted his friend's shoulder, "You should be able to get through it. Sooner or later, you'll know everything, too."

"Yes." Yeah." Airin looked at the wall clock at the cafe, "it looks like I have to go now. Vino's waiting for me."

"Alright, be careful on the road."

With steady steps Airin left the cafe and met Vino. With an expanding smile, Vino waved his hand at Airin.

Today, Airin will be doing some health checks. Surely so that Vino and his mother would not worry anymore. Fortunately the doctor who will test it is Jay. So it won't make Airin nervous.

"You been a long time?" ask Airin.

"No" said Vino, opening the door for Airin.

Although the disappointment is still in the heart of Airin. Still Airin felt comfortable beside Vino. He is a good husband candidate according to Airin, although Airin does not know that love will make him hurt again or not.

There are a lot of things they do for their wedding. What's more, the event will be held in a few days. Airin was eager to see Sela and say it. It's just, Arja definitely won't allow it.

***

After doing some tests. Airin returned to Vino, sitting in the hospital cafeteria waiting for results. Jay said the results will be out in an hour.

Several times Airin was seen circulating his gaze outwards. He's looking for if there's an Arja car or not. If not, he'll meet Sela for a while.

"Where are you going?" ask Vino when Airin is about to leave.

Airin smiled, "I want to see Sela."

Vino prevents Airin by holding his hand.

"Why?" ask Airin.

"I will accompany you" said Vino.

Airin nodded. Slowly Airin took Vino's hand. They entered the elevator to quickly get to the third floor. Perhaps no one was accompanying Sela at the moment.

Arriving on the third floor, Airin went straight into Sela's room. Sela was sitting with a book about pregnancy in her hands. His smile expanded as soon as he saw Airin enter. Vino also smiled at Sela.

"You guys here?" ask Sela.

"Yes, we want to see how you are." Vino.

"Thank you" said Sela.

Finally, Airin and Vino came out of Sela's ward empty-handed. Airin didn't get the answer he wanted. Disappointed, that's for sure. Airin chose silence.

"I know you really hope Sela says it" Vino said while in the elevator.

Airin was silent. He stared blankly at the elevator door. Vino was annoyed when he saw Airin was not excited. He immediately held onto Airin's two shoulders and looked into his eyes.

"I'll help you find out. So long as you want to do the therapy," said Vino.

"certain."

Vino smiled in satisfaction, then he hugged Airin's waist very gently. It's been a long time since they've both been like this. What has happened since the kidnapping.

Unknowingly, the elevator door opened. Some people came in and made Airin change his position. Vino only smiled slightly, making Airin blush in embarrassment.

From the hallway, Jay ran quickly towards Airin and Vino. He was carrying a paper they already knew was Airin's test.

"How's it?" ask Vino without further ado.

Jay developed a smile on her lips, "This future wife of yours is very healthy. You don't have to be afraid" Jay said.

"But why should he be in therapy?" ask Vino.

Jaya handed the results to Airin, "Follow whatever your mama wants. Maybe he's just worried about Airin."

Airin held Vino's hand, "Right what Jay said."

Vino nodded, "Then we go first. I'll give this result to Mama."

"Yes." Yeah."

It is clear that Vino also does not want Airin treated. It's just that Mama Vino who keeps pushing and making Airin can only say it.

In the car, the mood was quiet. Airin looked at the test results in annoyance. After all, he felt that someone was following him and loving him.

Arriving on a lonely road. Airin sees the woman who kidnapped him carrying a sharp weapon. Perhaps a small knife, he approached and directly pierced the eyes of Tirin.

"Tidaaak" cried Airin very loudly. Vino stopped his car.

Vino pulled Airin closer to him and looked at his face.

"Why you?" ask Vino.

Airin shook his head, "Ti. Maybe it's just my hallucinations." Airin held her left eye which was fine.

"Return your breath. You'll be better" said Vino.

Airin nodded and did as Vino said. Why is he suddenly in the shadow of the kidnapper, Airin thought. Am I really crazy? the question was in the heart of Airin.

Vino's running his car. He runs very slowly. Of course, so that Airin feels calmer and not afraid anymore. Vino really felt that Airin had changed. Sometimes he does things that have never been done before.

***

"How's it?"

"I've done it. You take it easy."

"Then?"

"They would have thought Airin was crazy and would have thrown it away."

"good. Do it fast."

***

That night was very cold. Airin sat next to the window of her room. Several times he sent a message to Sela. There's no reply at all. Airin felt that the threat of the kidnapper actually occurred.

"How's it?"

Airin nodded until he fell from the chair. Again the woman appeared in the clothes she used to wear. Her fickle hair made the impression of the woman even more terrifying.

The woman approached and placed a razor in Airin's hand. He smiled with a wicked face. Then, slowly the woman led Airin's hand to injure herself. Yes, blood started pouring out of Airin's hands, only Airin didn't feel anything.

"What hurts?" ask the woman.

Airin nodded slowly.

"I hope you feel the hurt I feel" said the woman.

"Who are you really?" this time Airin felt a pain in the lika he made.

The woman smiled, "Didn't you remember me?"

Airin was silent while holding the blood coming out of her hands. This time, the woman held the back of her head. Then slowly a mask came off.

Surprised, Airin was shocked by what he saw. The woman is the same woman who came to Airin and Vino's engagement ceremony. Who else if not Heila.

Heila smiled and pressed another razor into Airin's hand. Airin wanted to scream, but couldn't. Heila smiled and whispered something. After that, Airin lay unconscious with hands drenched in blood.

Ice holds a plate filled with bread. Earlier, Airin asked for bread with pineapple jam. Brak, Crang, Ais took off the plate in his hand. He was shocked to see the state of Airin who had been lying unconscious.

Quickly, Ais pressed the bell for Vino or her mother to come. With all her strength, Ais tried to bring Airin to bed.

The atmosphere of the house turned very chaotic. Even some servants said that Airin wanted to kill himself because of his hallucinations.

While Vino and his mother chose to be silent listening to the words of the doctor who handled Airin.

"How's it?" ask Vino.

"This time the hallucinations are getting worse. He could have lost his life at any time" the doctor said.

"Then?"

"You better tie it up and don't let it go."

Vino did not believe what the doctor said. How could he tie Airin and make him hurt. Vino felt that something was wrong.

"Just do what the doctor says. For the good of Airin" said Mama Vino.

Vino just nodded. He asked some of the servants to do what the doctor said.

Sad, Vino was deeply saddened to see Airin lying weakly with ties on his hands and feet. After everyone left, Vino approached and gently hugged Airin.

"Let me do something. I know you're not crazy" said Vino.

***