My Love My Pain
Engagement day

The engagement day has arrived. Last night Airin stayed at Vino's house. So that Airin is not late. Airin did not expect that this engagement would be so luxurious. Exceeding his wedding day with Arja.

"You look so pretty" said Mama Vino as soon as she walked into the room.

"Thank you, aunt."

"Why still call aunty. Just call me mama, it'll be more familiar."

"Good, ma."

"Mama will see Vino's preparations first. The guests are waiting for you."

Airin could only smile at the words of Mama Vino. Honestly, Airin was very nervous. The nausea is back. Yesterday, Airin did not get to meet Jay. He's not back yet, maybe tomorrow he'll see her.

Airin looked back at herself into the makeup mirror. Airin looked quite pale this time, Airin slowly opened the make-up box and started polishing her face. There was no other reason than to cover this pale face.

A loud voice came from the main room. There's a place they'll use to exchange rings and tell reporters. If Airin and Vino are serious about this relationship.

Slowly Airin heard a footsteps coming into his room. With a smile, Airin turned to the door.

"Why are you here?" ask Airin while standing up.

"I just want to see you. Are you really going to do it?"

"I'm gonna do it. It's my own choice" Airin said.

Arja approached and pulled the hand of Airin who had just finished polishing the lipstick, "Do you think I'll just let you go? it won't."

With all her might Airin tried to release Arja's embrace from her. If anyone sees this, everything Airin does will be free.

"I'm not letting you go. You've made the world for me."

"You're nuts. You've brought Sela into your arms. Now you want me back."

Arja smiled with her evil face.

"I can just throw Sela away whenever I want."

Airin was getting angry at Arja's words. He is the heart of the devil. He easily said this. He also did not think about what the woman next to him wanted. Arja is very selfish.

Tok to tok.

"Airines. Are you ready?"

Airin looked at the door. Fortunately, Arja locked it. If not, Vino would have seen this disgusting thing. Airin stomped on Arja's feet hard. Until Arja releases her arms from Airin.

"Get out of here and never show yourself in front of me."

Airin walked away from Arja who was still in pain. Slowly Airin opened the door and saw Vino standing there. He looks fresher in his suit. Airin thought, he would be very funny when wearing official clothes.

Airin quickly closed the door to my room. Vino will see Arja if he doesn't.

"Are you ready?" ask Vino to Airin.

"certain. Are you ready for everything?"

"You mean?" ask Vino.

"I'm not the woman someone else dreams of. I was also married, although I regretted the marriage. Are you ready for all the scorn out there?"

The approaching Vino makes Airin cornered by the wall. Slowly Vino's hands coiled around Airin's waist. His eyes stared intently at Airin, leaving Airin speechless.

"I still choose you" whispered Vino right in Airin's ear.

Even his body and Vino were very close. Airin could hear her breathing. Airin could only hope that what he chose at this moment would not hurt him in the future. Hopefully, the past doesn't repeat itself.

"What are you doing? they're waiting."

Airin and Vino let go of each other's embrace and stood facing Mama Vino. Malunya Airin, why can he fall so far. Airin could only hide his face with a bow.

"If you can't hold back. You must get married soon."

"Ma, let's go ahead. Mama said they were waiting."

"All right, come on."

After the ring exchange is over. Airin and Vino chose to sit in a fairly quiet room. While Cika and Mama Vino are still taking care of guests.

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Arja POVs

Arja was annoyed by what she saw. The woman who had made her heart melt was being embraced by another man. The man who used to want to take Airin away from him.

This time, Arja let everything go smoothly. Only, Arja will not let go of Airin just like that. He will continue to pursue Airin until Airin begs to return to his side.

"What's wrong? you don't look happy" said Sela, who wears a sleeveless dress next to Arja.

"Shut up."

"You're not willing? then what's the point of me beside you. I'm prettier than her" Sela said.

"He's not cheap like you." Brisks Arja to Sela.

Sela could only fall silent with what Arja was doing. As powerful as anything, Sela grasped Arja. Still, the man beside her was just looking at Airin.

Everyone congratulates Vino and Airin on their engagement. Only Arja, Sela and Heila did not congratulate him. Not knowing what happened, Arja could only look at Airin from a distance with her feelings.

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Airin POVs

"Airines. Do you really love me?" ask Vino.

"I don't know."

Vino just smiled and pulled Airin closer to him. Since Airin asked for this engagement. Airin felt closer to Vino. There is no love, only Airin is upset when Vino looks at another woman.

This engagement will be the beginning for Airin. Sooner or later, Mama Vino will definitely ask them to get married. I don't know what answer Airin would give. May this love grow in their midst. Not love as a friend. Love that exceeds anything, that's what Airin wants.

"Let's get out. There's Heila and the others."

Airin immediately turned his head as soon as he heard Heila said. It sounded very soft as Vino said it.

"Why?"

"No."

"Rin, I love you. So, open a little heart for me." Vino said as he held onto Airin's two hands, "never think that I'd have feelings for another woman."

Quiescent. Their eyes met, slowly Vino's face approached. He's gonna kiss Airin? wait for. Why Airin felt so nauseous this time. Unknowingly Airin immediately pushed Vino away.

"Vino. I'll rest in my room, at dinner I'll be out."

Airin just left Vino. Not to the room, Airin met Jay who was waiting for him in the garden behind the house. There was no one, this was also a proposal from Cika so that mama Vino and Vino did not know.

Arrive at the back garden. Airin saw Jay sitting on the bench. He's playing with his cell phone. Maybe he got bored because Airin was too long.

"Jay. Sorry I'm late."

"It's okay. What do you want to say?"

"Actually...."

Airin told Jay everything. From the beginning Airin began to feel it. Until a few times relapsed. Airin thought something was wrong with him.

"Sorry, Rin. I can't help you this time. Better, you'll see me tomorrow at the hospital. We'll have some tests for you."

"All right."

"Please yourself and enjoy your life. That would be more helpful" Jay said.

"Thank you."

After that conversation. Jay went to see Cika. While Airin just sat down and thought about what would happen. Afraid, Airin is very afraid if there is a disease in his body. Airin could not imagine it.

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