My Love My Pain
Remembering the past

It was getting late and the weather was still hot like that. Even within the taxis still felt the stinging heat.

Mata Tirin stared out the window while remembering what her aunt said to her. Even Airin felt strange with the words aunt. He explains that if he's not cheating, he and uncle are having a problem. In fact, aunty said the same thing to Airin. So that Airin doesn't hate Sela.

Aunty no longer wants to see Sela. He felt hurt when he saw Sela, that's what aunt said. He asks Airin to keep accepting Sela. Airin will know everything.

In that confusion. Airin chose not to tell Sela. He'll tell Arja first.

"Miss, is this really the housing that Madam means?" ask the driver to Airin.

"Yes, Sir. I'll just get down here."

After giving the money Airin immediately opened the door and went down. Airin didn't think that I would meet Cika there. She looks beautiful in a red dress and black high heel.

"Where are you from?" ask Cika with her special smile.

"I just got out of aunty's house. You're so pretty, is there a date today?"

Shamefully Cika nodded her head. Maybe Vino's coming to pick her up.

"Vino has dared to take you on the road" Airin said in a seductive tone.

Cika's face changed she looked unhappy with what Airin said.

"Not Vino," said Cika with a bowed face, "Actually, we have not been together for a long time. You know our relationship."

Airin just nodded. Although many time media will certainly highlight this.

"The passion for your new relationship" Airin said.

Yes, Airin tried to encourage Cika. Finally Cika smiled as well and nodded. She was truly beautiful and made Airin again amazed.

"All right, I gotta go home. My husband's pity is waiting" said Airin.

"OK."

Airin put his feet back. Actually it could have been the taxi that delivered Airin to the front of the house. It's just, Airin wants to take a walk for a while. Cooled his mind.

***

It turned out tired also the way from the entrance of the complex to the front of the house. As usual, there were only servants walking around the house.

Slowly, Airin opened the door. There was no one in the living room. Only the butler happened to pass by from the side door.

"Mrs is home?" ask the butler when he sees Airin closing the door.

"Yes. Is the master home yet?" ask Airin.

"It."

"Thank you, you can continue your work."

Airin steps accelerated to get to the room faster. Before that, Airin turned towards Sela's room. Airin will see how he is.

The door to Sela's room opened and Arja walked out from there with a smile. When he saw Airin, he looked shocked, but immediately changed back to how it was.

"You look happy" Airin said with a smile.

Arja approached and wrapped her hands around Airin's waist. They look at each other.

"Sela just went to bed. He asked me to take him to his mother's place."

"Then? why do you look happy? is there anything else?"

"This you, I smile is also considered happy. I just feel good because Sela's condition is improving. So, he can continue his future."

Airin let go of Arja's hand, "I'll see Sela first."

Arja held Airin's hand, "No need, I told you she was sleeping. Let's go to the room."

Arja pulls Airin into the room. Airin simply complied, after removing the jacket Airin sat by the bed.

"What about Sela's mother?" arja asked as Airin untied her hair.

"Lately, you've cared a lot about Sela. What was? is there something you're hiding from me?"

Airin just laughed a little and continued taking off the watch on his left hand. Airin felt something was wrong with Arja's attention. Not usually like this, Airin so remembered with Maya. How are you doing, huh?

Airin's hand took the comb and began to straighten her hair. After a day of sun exposure, her hair felt very greasy.

"Are you jealous of my concern for Sela?" asked Arja while hugging Airin suddenly from behind.

Airin let go of the hug and took the bath towel. Looks like a soak will soon recover his body that feels very tired.

"Come Rin. I didn't do anything."

Arja's words did not Airin hear. Airin prefers to go into the bathroom and lock the door. Lazy to argue and lazy to know the same thing.

***

Just finished Airin feeding Sela's porridge. Arja enters with water and medicine belonging to Sela. Airin hasn't spoken to Arja. Airin was only annoyed because she thought too much about Sela. Though knew Airin was also tired because of the problem of Sela.

"Take medicine first, I also want to rest after this," Airin told Sela.

"Well," said Sela in a still weak tone.

When finished, Airin tidied the bowl and used drugs. No words came out of Arja's mouth. He only occasionally looked at Airin with his eyes.

"Are you guys in trouble?" sela asked as Airin had a tray in her hand.

Airin turned to Arja, she just kept quiet.

"No. I'll go first."

Why is Arja just silent? did he really intend to be like this so that Sela knew? is Arja looking for Sela's attention.

Airin took a long breath. After all, this time Airin really felt jealous. As for not, Arja is clearly paying attention to Sela. Even with Airin, Arja was never that careful.

Arja pulls Airin who just put the tray to the dining table. He looked at Airin questioningly.

"What?" ask Airin loudly.

"Are you really jealous of me?" ask Arja.

He was completely insensitive to the circumstances. Almost all the servants were there staring at Airin and Arja. Airin took off Arja's hand and chose to go from there.

Arja's steps follow Airin to the back garden. The nighttime weather was cold, but Airin did not want their quarrel heard by anyone.

"What are you doing? you want to be a guest for your own servant?"

Arja clucked and put her foot closer to Airin.

"Don't come any closer."

"What's my fault Rin? say it," said Arja.

"What if I say that you'll understand how I feel?"

"Yes. I'll try to understand."

"Try you to say?"

Arja came closer and kissed Airin on the lips. Airin was trying to let go of the kiss. Yes, Airin did it.

"I know you're jealous because of Sela. Listen to me, I'm doing this too because of you. I don't want you to look ugly in your family's eyes" Arja told Airin.

"Your attitude to Sela is the same as it used to be to Maya. Don't think I'm stupid."

"Rin. I'm telling you the truth. Trust me, I don't want our relationship to get worse."

Also true. Airin shouldn't feel this way. If Airin suspects it shouldn't be with Sela. He's sick, where maybe he'll just accept Arja's arrival.

"I'm sorry" whispered Arja.

Seeing the butler approaching. Airin immediately pushed Arja away. There's no way we should be indulging in the present moment.

"I want to rest first" said Airin and immediately left Arja with his gaze.

***