My Love My Pain
between the past and the future

Since the accident. Airin had never returned to the hospital to visit Arja. Sometimes there is a sense of wanting to see the situation, but back Airin undo. It still feels very painful considering the betrayal.

Airin had already finished making breakfast for Vino. Yes, Airin still lives with him. Nothing as special happened. Everything goes as desired.

His apartment, no, rather the Vino apartment that was loaned for him is still in the renovation stage. It's actually very uncomfortable living with a guy who doesn't even have any relationship. Friends only.

"How's breakfast? what have you done?" ask Vino.

"Yes. You can have breakfast" said Airin.

Airin had everything ready for the dining table. If it continues like this, Airin feels like a wife to Vino. What's more, Mama Vino even keeps teasing Airin about Vino's feelings.

"Where are you going today?" ask Vino at our breakfast.

"You know my job. Oh yeah, maybe I'll go to Cika's house tomorrow or the day after."

Vino looks surprised. He put down the spoon and fork he was holding and took the drinking water beside him.

"Why? don't you feel at home here? is there a lack of facilities?"

"No. It's not like that, you know that I'm Cika's personal assistant. So, it would be more effective if Cika and I were one house."

"Isn't your job okay. Why so suddenly."

"Vin. You know, we're all grown up and it's impossible if we live together like this. After all, I can still have a place to live other than this."

"Married to me."

Quiescent. The spinning Airin's eyeball. What had happened, why could Vino say that so easily. Marriage is not a joke anymore.

"Rin," Vino held Airin's hand, "i'm serious."

"I'm late. Sorry, I have to go now."

Without an answer Airin immediately took the bag and out of Vino's apartment. Airin was in an unpleasant situation. In fact, they can be close without any words of love and the like. Now, Airin again felt distant with Vino.

***

Airin and Cika have finished meeting at a luxury cafe near the office. Cika is very good at business. While Airin, she could only follow Cika and do as she asked. That'sallthatis.

Because nature calls. I chose to go to the toilet first. While Airin went straight to the parking lot of the car.

I don't know how many times. The messages went into Airin's phone. Only three days did Airin feel calm without interruption. Now, Sela again sent him a message. Arja continues to search for Airin to this day. He wants to see her.

"Cock's not in yet?" ask Cika who suddenly came.

"I'm still waiting for you" said Airin.

"Let's go in. Don't forget, send the file to my email. I'll check it out tonight."

"Ready. Where are we going today?"

"To the hospital. My co-worker was hurt. We should go see him, before that we buy some fruit parcels for him."

Cika's private driver immediately hit the gas as soon as he heard Cika's orders. While Airin was busy checking Cika's schedule after lunch. Nothing important, Cika will see Jay later. So, Airin can go home faster.

Going home? it would be very strange if Airin returned to Vino's apartment. Better Airin looking for a boarding house or a cheap apartment near the office. With the money that Airin has right now. Still enough for one month, while waiting for the payday of tomorrow.

"How's Arja doing?" ask Cika to Airin.

Airin put the tablet in her bag, "I still haven't seen her yet."

"Why? do you hate him?"

"No. I don't hate him, it's just that I still don't want to meet."

"I know how you feel."

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Arja POVs

The doctor has finished injecting the medicine. After that, Arja can eat and take the medicine that has been given by the hospital. Carefully, Sela fed Arja with warm porridge.

Crangs. The bowl was thrown away by Arja. With a questionable look, Arja looked at Sela who was about to clear the shards.

"Where's Airin? why isn't he here yet?" ask Arja.

"He didn't reply to my messages and phone. Maybe, he really doesn't want to be in touch with us anymore."

Arja hush. His eyes straight ahead. There was regret and disappointment in his heart. If only he hadn't met Sela first. Maybe he'll give his whole heart to Airin.

Now, Airin really left because of Arja himself. There is only Sela who constantly demands about wealth and luxury lifestyle.

"Do you want to eat fruit?" ask Sela.

"No."

Sela looked at her watch and looked surprised, "It's good if you don't want to. I'll go first. There's an appointment with a friend."

Cup. A kiss landed on Arja's left cheek. After that, you guys should know. Sela came out of Arja's room and left her alone.

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Airin POVs.

Airin had already finished what Cika had assigned to her. This time, Airin only needed to hand it over to Cika's place. Although the journey is quite far, but this work must be quickly Airin gave.

The jacket was wrapped in his body. It's more comfortable like this because it's pretty cold outside. What's more, the day has started afternoons like this. Airin checked the file in his hand.

"Complete already," said Airin.

"Where are you going?" ask Vino who recently came home from the office.

Airin has been in more rooms. The first reason was because there was work and the second reason for not wanting to meet Vino. Airin doesn't want any discussion like this morning.

"I have to go to Cika's house. There's work."

"Want you to take me?" ask Vino.

Airin shook his head quickly. "No need." Airin walked past Vino just like that.

When Airin will open the door. Airin looked surprised by the person behind the door. Shut up, Airin could only be quiet at this moment.

"Aunty, when is aunt here?" ask Airin.

Airin felt stupid for asking this strange thing. It's his son's house, he can come here anytime. Why did Airin ask.

Mama Vino smiled, "It turns out you guys are already one house. When are you going to formalize this relationship?"

"Ma..meaning auntie what?"

"Come on. Don't be shy like that, auntie knows that you're in love with each other."

Mama Vino pulled Airin back in. They sat facing each other in the living room. Vino is winning with what is happening right now.

Mama Vino keeps saying about Airin's relationship with Vino. This relationship is just a fictional relationship. If it's like this, how else, Airin can not disappoint the heart of a mother.

"Ma, don't push Airin too much. We still want to live it quietly."

"You are both adults. Why don't we just formalize this relationship."

Airin was shocked and immediately looked at Vino. Airin gestured for Vino to tell the truth.

"Ma, if you think that I and Airin are adults. Let us run all this like running water."

"Just as you guys."

Obviously if Mama Vino is disappointed with Vino's answer. However, it is very difficult to explain to parents who already believe.

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