My Love My Pain
He's meeting me

Airin POVs

Airin had already told Cika his heart. Airin said all the reasons and why he wanted to leave Cika's house. At this time, Airin wanted to be alone and not meet anyone.

"You must be feeling very depressed. I've explained everything to the reporters, you don't have to be afraid."

"I'm so grateful to you. Sorry, I always bother you."

"We're friends. It was supposed to be like this," said Cika, "i want to ask. Are you and Vino really getting engaged?" ask Cika later.

Because I don't want this to get any longer. Airin chose to tell me everything. The reason for quitting the Cika company was also because of this. Airin does not want Vino and Cika's reputation destroyed because of Arja's revenge on Airin.

Cika could only sigh long. Then, he said what Airin should have done. However, Airin had already made Vino make a promise in front of the crowd. Airin has to take responsibility for that.

"Whatever happens, you have to accept this engagement. Otherwise, Vino's reputation would be further ruined among businesses."

"It's exactly what you said. I'll think about it again, I'll go first."

After finishing the farewell. Airin entered the taxi he had ordered. Many places and houses that Airin stopped by. However, Airin has not found the right place. Like this heart, it is the heart that keeps looking for the right kind of heart patch.

His journey was enveloped in drizzling clouds. The weather in this city is like the heart of Airin. Covered by black clouds. Nothing beautiful and bright. There's just a sense of pain.

Since yesterday. Airin was looking for a rental place and he found a house on the edge of town. Although simple, there Airin can run his life calmly. At least he won't be thinking about money anytime soon. There was still money in his savings.

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Airin fatigue paid off by a very stunning scenery. Airin arrived home just as the sun was sinking. Here, Airin can see the beauty of twilight. Here, Airin feels calmer.

This minimalist house will accompany him for some time. Airin doesn't know when he's gonna get out of here. At least, what Airin wants now is here. Tranquility.

Ting. A message came into his phone. Vino, he's asking Airin. Slowly my smile grew. Apparently, there are still people who care about him out there. Airin can still hope in this world. The endless hope.

I'm doing fine. How's aunt?

Five minutes later.

Mama really wanted to see you, but I told her you were coming home.

He understands Airin.

Thank ye.

Five minutes later.

Take care. If you haven't come back in a week, I'll find you.

There was no intention for Airin to reply to the message. If Airin responds, she fears Vino will have more hope for her. Airin also did not want to be back swayed in feelings. His mind is only one, if indeed he is Airin's soul mate. Whatever the path, they will meet.

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Arja POVs

Arja left the house quietly. Sela who was behind him approached and gave him a bag. Cup, a kiss landed on Sela's cheek.

"I'm going to go. Later in the night and beautiful dance, I'll take you away."

"really? where to?"

"Wherever. Where you and I are happy."

Since yesterday we have been going home. Arja's treatment is so sweet on Sela. Even Arja also gives a necklace with a flower pendant. The stuff that Sela dreamed of.

Sela could only wave her hand as Arja left. This house feels so warm when Arja has a good nature. This house, like a reflection of Arja.

"Madam, what about the task the mistress gave me?" ask a waiter.

"Not to be done anymore. Arja has come back to me, she has forgotten Airin."

"Good, madam. Excuse me."

Sela does intend to do something to Arja. He did not want his love all this time in camped by Arja. Sela was willing to do anything. Where maybe he will take Arja off just like that, what else is the reason for Airin.

In the car. Arja thought of something beautiful. He was in the office and Airin came. He came to ask for his love again. If so, Sela will be removed easily. Nor will Sela say anything stupid anymore, Arja thought.

"Sir. There's important news from Sa's secretary" said Arja's private driver.

"I don't want to hear anything before I get to the office."

"Good, sir."

The driver was running the car at the speed Arja wanted. Today, Arja is enjoying the scenery along the way.in fact, she usually does not care about anything.

Arja is focused on one goal. Bringing her woman back and gathering her wealth and power for Airin to be happy with her.

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Brakes. Arja did not accept what secretary Sa said. What he had imagined was now shattered by the report.

"How can you lose track of that woman. Don't you know why I want it" Arja said in a high tone.

"Sorry, we don't know if Airin will leave town."

"Let's see him. Do what you said yesterday."

"But, Sir..."

"Are you against me?"

"No, Sir."

"Do what I say."

"Good."

Secretary Sa comes out of Arja's room. Leaving behind Arja who was feeling chaotic. He could almost make Airin back. Now he lost himself again. Arja feels she has to intervene on her own, but if she intervenes on her own at the moment. Airin would hate him.

Arja is thinking of a way to get Airin fast. Without coercion and heartache. How, thought Arja.

"I'm a hard woman to get."

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Airin POVs

Some children were seen running around with various toys in their hands. If only Airin could play with them. Airin will be happy here.

"Miss, are you Airin?" ask a mother. He looked old with the cloth he was wearing.

"Yes. What's up, Mom?"

"There are guests in your house. You're the one who's occupying the rental house, right?"

"Yes, Mom. I'm occupying it."

"Hurry along. He's been waiting for you ever since, it seems like there's something important."

"Thank you, Mom."

Who came here and knew Airin. Not even Cika and Vino knew. He's every Airin hideout, anyone comes and destroys his good day.

Still with a little run. Airin went to the house. There were so many questions and preconceptions in his heart. Who came and for what reason.

His steps slowly stopped. Who would have thought that he would come here. Airin said that Airin did not want to see his face again.

His hand picked up the phone and gave a message to Vino. He wished he would come here. At the very least, he could expel this woman from here.

"Look, you're coming at a slow pace. Did you intentionally make me wait?" ask her with a loud tone.

"This is my house. It's up to me, and who told you to wait here."

Airin sat on a wooden chair in front of the house. Intentionally Airin did not enter, Airin did not want this devious woman to enter this quiet house.

"What are you doing here? didn't I tell you not to show up in front of me."

Sela sat in front of Airin, "Come on, brother. I'm your sister, I just miss you."

"Lost you said. Isn't everything you wanted you took from me. My husband and all my possessions."

Airin felt very upset this time. How could he know the house that Airin was occupying. Airin knows, he has Arja and Arja has extensive access. It's impossible that he found Airin this fast.

The message reply from the vino made Airin a little happy. He's gonna come here and see Airin. He's gonna help with Airin's problems.

Sela walked around the porch of this house. He even looked around this house with an unhappy look. Perhaps it was because he was already used to living in a luxurious mansion that had many servants. For Airin, it was all a prison.

"It's good that you live here. At least, Arja won't find you for a while. So, I can make it back to me," Sela said.

"Go home. I'm gonna take a break."

"Sister, didn't you let your sister in?"

Airin looked towards Sela.

"You're not my sister. Go."

"Wait," Sela held Airin's hand to keep Airin from entering the house, "I'm here for one reason only. Don't try to take Arja away from me. You know that, brother."

Airin let go of the hand grip hard.

"I'm happy to be away from that guy. So don't think I want to go back. After all, I don't want to pick up the trash I've thrown away" Airin said with a tone of emphasis at the end of the sentence.

"Good."

"You should remember. If a man cheats once, he'll do it again and again."

Brakes. Sela kicked the table very hard.

"No. Arja loves me, she wouldn't do that."

"Go away from here and take care of your husband."

Airin went straight into the house and closed the door. He also locked it in a meeting. Airin thought what he was doing was right. It was true what Airin thought. A man who likes to cheat, he will be difficult to be loyal.

A few times Airin had love. The result remains the same, love itself hurts him. Airin must find the love that truly belongs to him. It doesn't belong to anyone else.

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Several times Airin tried to look out the window. Sela left after a car came to pick her up. Looks like Sela came here without Arja's knowledge. He left with a sense of annoyance in his heart.

Not long after a silver car stopped right in front of Airin's house. Who else is coming? think Airin. Vino came down looking to the right and to the left. He really came for Airin.

"Have you come?" ask Airin while opening the door.

"Yes. You sent a message and it looks like you're nervous."

Airin nodded, "So it was. Now he's gone. Want some tea?" bargained.

"No. I still have business at the office. You know, reporters just keep coming and asking for you."

Airin lowered his head. All this because Arja is making a fuss. Airin must be responsible. As Cika said, Airin will be engaged to Vino. Airin will accept it.

"Vin, i.i..."

"Rin. I will not force what has happened. I'll wait for your answer" said Vino.

"I know, it's just. I have to do this, I have to take responsibility."

"no need. I'll take care of it."

Airin unknowingly held Vino's hand. Airin looked into his eyes. Right, there's only sincerity there. My former friend, my best friend, he deserves to be all for me, Inner Airin.

"We, we have to get engaged."

"Did I love me?" ask Vino.

"I don't know. Let this all go as it is."

Vino was silent. He let go of Airin's hand.

"I'll go first. You better go in and rest."

After saying. Vino left in his car. She must be feeling weird. Airin knows that.

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