My Love My Pain
Turns out

Airin woke up because of the light entering his room. Last night he slept quite late because of his work. He even slept in front of the laptop. Fortunately, Arja took him to move to bed.

The pungent smell of cooking made Airin aware. If she had not cooked, her husband would have cooked. Still with drowsiness. Airin came down to see what Arja was doing.

"Why did you clean it all up? you even cooked breakfast too?" ask Airin.

Arja just put on a smile. He approached Airin and sat him down at the dinner table. Today Arja is very different. Probably because he felt guilty about his wife.

"You look so tired. Take care of the house, take care of myself and take care of your work. I don't have the heart" said Arja.

"Then?"

"I'd like to find you a housekeeper. At least you won't be exhausted anymore."

"As far as you go."

After cleaning and breakfast. Airin left for work on taxis. Arja left first because there was a sudden meeting.

*****

Everything's taken care of. Starting from the room and equipment. Also the file to be used. Airin does it all.

"All that," said Airin.

Tok to tok.

Airin went into Vino's room. Vino is busy with his laptop. When he saw Airin coming in, Vino immediately closed the laptop.

"You here?" asked Vino with a happy face.

"Yes, sir. The meeting room is ready, the meeting will start in ten minutes."

"Yes." Yeah."

"I'm sorry."

Airin has turned around. Vino quickly ran towards Airin. He held Airin's shoulder gently.

"What's up, sir?" ask Airin.

"Can we talk?" ask Arja.

"About what?"

"About.you know. We've been separated long enough. How about we..."

"Sir. It's in the office, it's not good to discuss personal matters here. Better, prepare yourself for the meeting."

"Watery."

"I'm sorry."

With the tablet in his hand. Airin came out of the room. There was a strange taste inside his chest, there was already no sense of pleasure in the wait. Just the pain of being abandoned.

*****

Lunch hours made Airin finish his job. Before exiting the room, Airin gets a message from Arja. He brought lunch together. Since yesterday, Arja has been chasing Airin.

"Airines. Can we eat together?"

Airin turned his head and saw Vino was already behind him. Airin put his phone in his pocket.

"I'm sorry, I can't."

"Why are you avoiding me?"

"I didn't avoid my father. I have an appointment with someone else."

Vino looked disappointed with Airin's reply, "Who? is he the guy who's your girlfriend right now?"

"He's my husband."

"You.you're married?" ask the unbelieving Vino.

"We've been married for two months. He also found work for me."

Vino could only shut up. In his heart, there was still a name. A name that will never disappear from his heart. The name he always wanted to meet. Airin

"I'll excuse you."

Airin came down and immediately greeted Arja in the car. This time it was Arja who chose a place to eat for them. A lot of things Arja talked about, but she did not ask why Airin had been silent since.

"Maya" said Airin.

"You here? it's for lunch."

"Yes, you're right. Want to have lunch together?" fresh Airin. After all, Airin only considered Maya a friend to her husband.

"No." Maya answered tightly while glancing at Arja.

Arja just shut up and immediately invited Airin to enter the restaurant. Even leaving Maya looking upset. After ordering, Arja said she would go to the toilet first.

"Don't take too long" said Airin.

Arja just smiled and walked out. Airin did not realize that her husband was not going to the toilet. He chooses to take Maya to his office and leaves Airin.

Almost half an hour. Arja has not returned yet, Airin who was upset chose to leave. He paid for everything and stopped a taxi.

Airin begins to become suspicious of Arja and Maya's friendship. For now, Airin will choose silence and silence. He'll say it later.

*****

Fortunately, his work in the office was not much. So, Airin can rest and do other things. His mind is currently in chaos. He was eager to meet Arja and ask her everything. It's just, he doesn't want his uncle and aunt to know.

"On the road do not dream. There will be a car."

"You startled me" said Airin quite loudly.

Sela just smiled as she put her phone back in the bag. Many employees leave the office. So, they'll be queuing up to take the bus home. Sela and Airin sat down while waiting for a bus for Sela.

"You work here is it okay with Arja?" ask Sela.

"Why indeed?" ask Airin.

"Vino..."

Airin instantly silenced Sela's mouth. He shook his head.

"Don't say anything about him. We're no longer in a relationship, nor do you say anything to Arja."

"Why?"

"You don't know husband and wife."

"Yes, deh. I know you're married."

"Good."

After the bus arrived. Airin is now sitting alone. Today, he's going to Arja's office and coming home with her. Surely as a surprise, Airin did not inform Arja first.

Ting. A message came into Airin's phone.

Sorry I left you. There was a sudden business at the office.

Airin did not reply to the message and chose to remain in Arja's office. If he feels guilty, he will apologize in person, Airin thought.

***

Unexpected things happen. Airin was shocked and in disbelief. What he saw and heard became evidence. In fact, the fruit pack on his hand fell down. Only her tears did not fall, because Airin was holding her back.

"Why are you doing this. You hurt me" Maya said with her head leaning against Arja's shoulder.

"sorry. You shouldn't be like that, he'll be suspicious."

"You said he was stupid."

"You're this. She's my wife right now."

"When are you going to marry me? said you'd marry me soon."

Arja rubs Maya's long hair. They're very friendly. Even Airin was never treated that way. Jealous, obviously the feeling is present. It's just that Airin doesn't want to make trouble in public.

"After I get what I want. I'll marry you."

"All right."

Airin chose to go from there. He couldn't stand to see all that. This was a big surprise for Airin. Arja who has been good to him, turns out she is a traitor for love.

This love hurts so much, but why can't I step back and forget, thought Airin. This is the love tied to marriage and betrayal.

***