My Love My Pain
Trying to Stay Calm

Arja feels something is wrong with his wife. Airin who is usually cheerful is now more often silent. Even more to avoid if you will be spoken to. Arja's mind goes awry, she's afraid that what she's doing has been discovered.

"Rin. Why have you been silent since yesterday. Am I wrong?" asked Arja who saw Airin just staying in front of the food.

"It's okay. You just eat. I still have work to take care of."

After all, Airin endured the pain that was in his heart. If only time could be turned. Perhaps, Airin would choose to wait. Not accepting applications from people he doesn't know.

Airin remained silent not because he was not hurt. He just did not want any commotion to be heard by others about his household.

Airin even kept doing all his obligations. She wanted to remain a patient woman and do nothing. Even though his heart was broken.

After cleaning the dining table. Airin did not enter the room. He chose to read the book in the middle room. Accompanied by a soothing song.

*****

Airin's mind is still very messed up. This time, he was just waiting for Arja. I hope he'll be honest this time. I wish Arja would tell him everything.

Before Arja woke up. Airin had prepared breakfast. Also the clothes and some files Arja needs. Airin did not see what the file was. He was only preparing because Arja asked for it yesterday.

He must have woken up this time, thought Airin. The taxis he was riding were running at medium speed. Early in the morning like this, the streets still look crooked. There were some school children walking in tandem.

Half an hour passed. Finally arrived at the office. Airin came down with the bag in his hand, as well as the tablet he used to work. As he entered the office, an OB approached Airin.

"Mom, Airin. This is a deposit from Mela's mother."

Airin received the dossier, "Where's Mela?"

"So he's here. Because in a hurry, Mela put it on me," said the OB.

"Thank you."

Carefully Airin opened the file. The file that he had to finish today. He also had to send the data that Vino wanted right now. It looks like he will be busy today.

Ting. A message came into his phone.

Work on the file immediately. I need it later. Hurry along!

The nature of Vino's rule is very harsh. Airin rattled his sleeves and started typing. He also sent the report yesterday.

In fact, Airin was not talented at this. If without Miss Mela, this job feels more difficult. For a long time, Airin stayed at home and helped his uncle.

Some say that Airin has many treasures. In fact, Airin's uncle always rejected that statement. He always told Airin that life is not easy. We have to start everything from the beginning. Don't surrender.

"Tired." Airin leaned her body on the chair she was sitting on.

The water nearby had already been drunk. Even his head felt dizzy, probably because he had been staring at the laptop screen without rest.

Still feeling tired. Airin entered the room Vino. Vino was sitting down and signing something.

"You're already here? how's file?" asked Vino when he saw that Airin was already in front of him.

"This, sir." Airin put the file down and it'll be good-bye soon.

"You sit down as long as I check this data. I don't like mistakes" Vino said.

"Good."

Airin sat quietly. His mind was still walking alone somewhere. However, back he thought about Maya. He thinks that Arja is with Maya and having fun.

"What are you doing, Rin?" ask Vino.

"Ma.sorry, sir."

"If tired. You can rest in your room, I'll let you know."

"Once again sorry, sir. Excuse me."

Without thinking. Airin came out of Vino's room. He walked into his own room feeling annoyed. She embarrassed herself for her husband's behavior.

If it wasn't for keeping Om and Aunt feeling. Airin must have acted his way. Only, he did not want to make his parents hurt.

*****

Airin sat on the balcony alone. He has since tried to calm himself. While looking for a way so that his heart is not upset and his household is safe. There was no calmness and no answer in his brain. Even the word divorce at this time.

"What should I do?" ask Airin to himself.

A footstep made Airin choose to pretend to sit and be quiet. Arja must be coming home, Airin thought. It's not usually Arja comes home this fast.

"You're home?" ask Arja after finding Airin sitting on the balcony of the room.

Airin looked up and smiled a smile.

"There's something I want to talk about" Arja said. This time it was very serious.

"Tell me what you want to say."

Arja sat next to Airin. His eyes glared far away, then looked back at Airin. Airin's waiting for that explanation, hopefully Arja's telling the truth.

"Airines. I'm sorry, I made a big mistake with you. I'm..."

Tok to tok. A knock on the door made Arja silent. Airin also looked at the sound. At a time like this, who comes and interrupts. Inevitably Airin finally left Arja and opened the door of the house.

"Sela, why are you crying?" airin asked as soon as he saw Sela coming.

"Rin. Let me stay here, yes" said Airin.

Airin held Sela's hand.

"Sign in first. Tell me what's up."

Inside Sela told me everything. The quarrel Om and Aunt Airin sometimes occur. Although since the first reason is only one, aunty who always wants to live luxury. Unlike the usual Om simple life.

"Let me stay here. Just last night," said Sela.

Airin was silent. He doesn't know what to do, he has to ask Arja for permission. This is Arja's house and Arja's leader here.

"It's okay. You can stay here tonight. Rin, make some drinks for Sela."

I don't know since when Arja was there. Airin just nodded and went into the kitchen. Brewing coffee for Arja. Airin overhears Arja and Sela's conversation. They sound familiar and have known for a long time.

Airin also occasionally heard laughter break out between them. Because Sela was his sister, Airin thought about his jealousy and chose to bring the drink out.

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To be continued