My Love My Pain
Terrible call

Sela was ready with her blue dress. While Airin is still confused about what clothes to wear. Where is it possible that Airin used ordinary clothes to the place of Vino's engagement.

Actually, the reason is not just because of clothes. Airin just doesn't want to meet Vino. He did not want his heart to go back. If that happens, everyone will get hurt.

"Aren't you going?" asked Sela who saw Airin still sitting in the tv room.

"It feels so lazy to go there. There are no matching clothes" Airin said.

Sela sat down next to Airin, "She had made a choice. It's still a dilemma."

"Cell..."

Tok to tok. Airin's voice came to a halt when he heard the knocking of the door. I don't know who comes at a time like this.

"Let me open."

Sela rushed to open the door. Now the eyes of Tirin are back on the tv that is still broadcasting the news.

"Airines. Someone's looking for you. Get out there first," Sela told Airin, Sela's face looks unhappy.

"Who?"

"Look at. At least your heart won't be upset again."

I don't know who's coming, but Airin's curious. His feet moved towards the living room. Look, Airin's husband came in very neat clothes. It even made Airin smile.

"What's wrong? are my clothes funny?" asked Arja with eyes looking at her clothes.

Airin shook his head, "There's nothing wrong. Why come night and put on some nice clothes?" ask Airin.

"I thought you were going to Vino and Cika's engagement place."

"Eitherway. I feel lazy."

Suddenly Arja throws a shopping bag at Airin. Airin stared confusedly at him with question marks.

"Just wear that shirt. We're going together."

"But..."

"See your husband."

Airin could only nod. It turns out that Arja here just wants to make Airin a companion to Vino's engagement place.

Yesterday, Airin made his choice. So Airin has to do it. Airin also wants Vino to be happy, maybe that's love. Seeing our loved ones happy is a great gift.

"I go first huh, Rin," said Sela with glancing eyes at Arja.

"Be careful."

"certain." Sela waved her hand and left.

Until now Airin does not know who the girlfriend of Sela. In fact, Sela has often said about her boyfriend. Girlfriend who is crazy and always busy. Only the gifts and money he sent to Sela. How could Sela survive with such a man, thought Airin.

When you are finished preparing. Airin returns to meet Arja who is still faithful waiting for him in the living room. With a smile, Arja clasped Airin's hand.

A beautiful evening with full attention from Arja. This time, Airin just wanted to be like this. Walking with a smile, accompanying her husband. Without any burden in his heart.

***

The atmosphere of the building looks very luxurious. Many decorations and lights are increasingly making the atmosphere more crowded. Airin's hand was still holding Arja's.

"Are you going home tonight?" arja asked in a whisper to Airin.

Airin looked up and smiled. Nodding Airin made Arja smile broadly. He was glad Airin gave that answer.

"You guys have come. I have been waiting for you ever since" said Cika with a big smile. Obviously, he felt very happy.

Accidentally, the springs of Airin and Vino meet. His eyes did not look happy. Only her smile often adorned her face. I don't know what smile.

"Congratulations to you" Airin told Cika and Vino.

"Why is it so late?"

They looked at Vino. The question makes Airin and Arja just silent. What does that question mean.

"We've exchanged rings and you've just arrived" said Cika trying to melt this strange atmosphere.

"sorry. I've long chosen clothes for my wife." The lyrics of Arja on Vino.

Vino just smiled with the arm that was always held by Cika. A fun engagement for Cika. Although Airin knew, the greed was just an engagement. Just for the company.

"Please enjoy the party. We'll see the other guests."

"Meet me after this" whispered Vino as he passed by Airin and Arja.

Quiescent. What else will Vino do. Is he gonna make me back wobbly? think Airin.

Arja looks unhappy because of Airin's proximity to Cika and Vino. He felt that Airin was getting too close to others, while not with him.

"Let's sit there." Airin pointed at a table close to the window.

Arja just nodded. We talked about a lot of things. But Arja always dodges when Airin asks about Maya.

"Arja. I'll go back for a minute."

"OK."

Airin stepped foot in a hurry. Of course, so as not to be left far behind by Vino. Arriving in a long hallway, Airin saw Vino standing at a room door.

"Why did you tell me to come here?" ask Airin.

Vino smiled and pulled Airin into the room.

"What are you doing?"

"No. I just want to enjoy time with you."

That room is not a room. There is only a table, it is clear if this room is conjured into a romantic dining room.

Candles and flower decorations make this room even more romantic. From behind, Vino gave a rose that was still fresh.

"I love you."

Tearin's eyes widened to hear the words spoken from Vino's lips. Just yesterday he asked Airin to choose the path. Now he says love easily.

Slowly, Vino wrapped his hands around Airin's waist. He said sweet words in Airin's ear. Airin realized, this is wrong. Airin turned around and immediately pushed Vino.

"Vino. It's wrong."

"I knew. But, this is the only way we have."

Airin had no idea what Vino was saying. Airin thinks he's gonna learn to love Cika. Airin shook her head violently. She doesn't want to be a snatch. She already sensed the moment Maya came into her relationship with Arja. Airin didn't want that to happen to other women.

"Rin. If you want, we can have this relationship."

Airin shook back loudly. Airin was confused by my own feelings. But, this was not what Airin expected from Vino.

"Vino. We have our own couple. Don't think about anything else."

"But I love you Rin. I can never forget you for a second."

"No. This is all wrong. I don't want to."

Airin came out of the room to go back to the party. Arja will definitely look for Airin if he takes too long.

Brucks. Airin accidentally hit someone. Airin raised his face. Cica. He looks like he's looking for someone. Of course if it was Vino.

"Did you see Vino?" ask Cika later.

"A.I. I didn't see it."

"Your face is pale. What's up?" Cika tried to hold Airin's face.

"I have to find Arja. Excuse me."

Airin's quick steps made him almost hit a few people. Perhaps, Cika felt if something was wrong with her this time. He would have told Vino.

Tearin's eyes were fixed on Arja who was still sitting in her suit. His eyes look empty. There's Sela beside him. Airin approached him and sat down beside him.

"Sorry for a long time" said Airin.

"It's okay."

Airin tried to cover everything. His heart was hopeful that this was all a dream. However, the fact is that Airin feels very guilty to Arja.

"It's already night. Let's go home." Take Airin to Arja.

"Why rush?" ask Sela.

"I feel so tired."

Arja nodded, "Then. We'll meet Cika and Vino first."

"no need. I've already said goodbye."

Sela stood up, "I'll be home later. You can go first."

Airin sees something wrong with Sela, "Why are you, Cell? is something wrong?" ask Airin.

"Ti.no." Sela tried to throw her face away.

Arja touches Airin's shoulder, "Let's go home, '" Arja said.

"But, Sela..."

"That's it. He can take care of himself."

Sela nodded, "Right Arja said. You guys just go first."

Arja pulled Airin out of the room. They're going back to Arja's house. Although still terbesit wound in the heart of Airin. What else, if the memory of Maya returns.

All this Airin did to forget the flavor that once existed for Vino. Airin doesn't want to be a woman like Maya. Airin did not want to be a woman.

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