My Love My Pain
Sela

Thrust in a wheelchair, Airin picked flowers in the back garden. Seeing his current condition, Airin was sometimes angry with himself. To this day, he still can't walk. All because of that incident.

With a blank look Airin pulled out the rose petals that were in his hand violently. Annoyed, he felt annoyed when he remembered everything. Even to this day Airin does not know the reason for being kidnapped.

"Miss, there are guests who want to see you" said Ais.

Airin turned, "Help me there. Where's Vino?"

"Master is already in the living room," Ais said.

Slowly the ice brought Airin into the house. Two men were sitting with Vino. They seem to be discussing something.

"Look, she's my future wife. Airin," said Vino with a big smile.

Airin nodded his head. He also gave a smile.

"You can go" Airin told Ice.

Ice then came out of the living room. He enters while Vino helps Airin sit on the sofa.

They discussed some important things. The two men were the detectives that Vino's mother had asked to come. They're gonna investigate Airin's abduction.

At first, Airin refused. After being remembered again, Airin finally wanted to too. He said everything. From beginning to end. With a feeling that is not good, Airin also said about the face of the kidnapper.

"Okay, we've got all the information. You can wait for the results" said one of the detectives.

"Thank you."

They all stood up and shook hands. But not with Airin, he sat with a meaningless gaze. He still felt the incident when he remembered it.

Vino sat in front of Airin. Slowly his hand touched Airin. Airin regained consciousness and looked at Vino. No matter what happened, he suddenly hugged Vino tightly. She was crying there.

"Why you?"

"I don't know. I just want to cry" said Airin with tears.

Vino rubbed Airin's head very gently.

"Cry if you want" said Vino.

Ais only looked with an unhappy look. Since then he had only seen the friendly gaze of Vino on Airin.

***

Airin woke up because the atmosphere of his room was suddenly very dark. Even Airin could not see anything, with great difficulty he reached for the cane beside his bed. But there is no.

Airin tried to name Vino and Ais. Even mama Vino, the bell provided Airin has been pressing since. Scared, obviously Airin felt it. He remembered when the lights were on and there was a cruel woman before him. The shadow appeared again, this time Airin shouted.

"Vino, is that you?" airin asked who heard the door open.

There's no answer. There were only slow footsteps. Even impressed to be dragged by his feet.

"Vin, Ice. Mama" said Airin.

Brakes. This time Airin heard the sound of something being hit hard. Airin painstakingly got out of his bed. He walked by holding on to the wall.

Sreeet. Airin's clothes were pulled by something. Airin fell down. Now, there is a shining light. Airin knew it was a candle. Slowly, Airin saw a shadow of a long-haired woman.

Silence, even a spit it was very difficult for Airin. The shadow was approaching and getting closer. Then,

"Did you miss me?" ask the woman.

Airin shouted very loudly. The woman just smiled horribly. The woman, the same woman, the woman who kidnapped Airin and tortured him.

"Shhh," the woman put her index finger in Airin's lips, "don't shout. I just came here to see you. Understood?"

Airin's still. Her tears had even started to flow. It made the woman smile horribly.

Brakes. The sound of the door reopening sounded. Airin and the woman looked over. Click, Airin's room light is on. There was Vino there, then when Airin looked in front of him. No one, the woman is gone.

"You why? why are you screaming?" ask Vino who is directly closer to Airin.

Airin held onto Vino's two hands, "He. He came here, he's here" said Airin with eyes looking on him.

"Who's coming?" ask Vino.

"That woman, she's here."

Vino shook his head, then he rubbed Airin's face slowly. Not long after that Ais and Mama Vino came in. They saw Vino helping Airin up in bed.

"What's going on?" ask mama Vino.

"Ma, he's here" Airin said.

Mama Vino immediately sat down beside Airin, "Honey, maybe it's just a hallucination."

Airin loudly shook his head, "No, Ma. He's coming to see me again."

"Did you see anyone when you came in here?" ask Mama Vino to Vino.

Vino just shook his head slowly. Mama Vino turned to Airin.

"Isn't your bedside a stick. You can also press the bell provided."

Airin shook his head, still with tears, "Everything is not there" Airin said.

Simultaneously Vino, mama Vino and Ais turned their heads beside Airin's bed. There is still a stick available. In fact, Ais also tried the bell, and it functioned properly.

Airin did not believe what was happening. If it's illusory, why is it so real. Even his elbow was also bruised because the woman pulled it. Airin could only remain silent, he could not defend himself anymore.

"It's already night. It's time to go to bed" Vino said, "mama and Ais can go back to rest. I'll talk to Airin for a second."

With forced mama Vino and Ais kelyar from the room. There is only Vino and Airin. Airin bowed her head, she felt annoyed at herself. Why is he so weak.

"Watery."

"You can get out now," Airin said in a flat tone.

Vino approached, but Airin chose to pull the blanket and lay down. He even covered his entire body. Disappointed, he feels that way when Vino says that Airin is lying.

"Good night" said Vino.

Then Vino came out with a gloomy face. After all, Vino clearly believed in what he saw. Vino still thinks that Airin is just hallucinating. This makes Vino more worried about the health of Airin.

***

"It's good what you do."

"obvious. I'm not only a good actress, but I'm also a hurt woman."

Then they both laughed.

***

Tearin's eyes look blackened around him. It's clear that Airin hasn't slept all night. He kept thinking about who the woman really was. Real people, or just illusions.

Airin grabbed the stick beside her. From today on, he will no longer use a wheelchair. He felt very weak when using it.

Airin's steps look very not easy. One step, Airin stopped. He tried to encourage himself. Till, bruk. Airin fell in his second step.

The ice outside Airin's room came in because he heard something fall. Ais saw Airin sitting with a stick next to him.

"Are you okay?" ask Ais who will help Airin stand up.

Airin let go of Ais' handrails, "I can do it myself."

"But, Miss."

"Shut up and do my bidding" said Airin, "get out of here."

The ice could do nothing but nod its head and get out of Airin's room. If you remember what happened last night, Airin felt like he was a fool. Perhaps, Vino and his mother already considered Airin abnormal.

Again Airin woke up with the help of a barge in his hand. If she recovered quickly, surely the woman would be caught. Yeah, Airin's been driven mad by that woman. Airin did not know what was wrong with him.

"I have to get the woman" said Airin.

After cleaning up. Airin sat in front of the dresser. He stared at her reflection. There was still a slight wound on Airin's face.

"I'm ready for my new day. I wasn't Airin before."

Airin used to say that, but she wavers because of the love in her heart. This time, he had a heart and a treasure. He can do whatever he wants.

***

Vino and Mama Vino were already at the dining table. Yes, they will do breakfast as usual. It's just, there's no Airin on that table.

Not long after, Ais came to the dining table with a worried face. He smiled at Vino and Mama Vino.

"Why hasn't Airin come yet?" ask Vino.

"Miss Airin. He doesn't want me in his room."

Vino let out a long sigh, "What else does he want."

"Vino. Look at him" said Mama Vino.

Vino rushed into Airin's room. Vino was shocked by what he saw. Airin dressed up very pretty with a fiery red dress. In fact, just this time Vino saw Airin apply makeup on his face.

"What are you doing here?" ask Airin.

"Where are you going? why put on your face?"

Airin smiled, "Do I have to ask your permission to do this."

"It's not so, I mean..."

"You're surprised you didn't see me like this?" Airin approached with a stick supporting her body, "Vino, you must remember. I'm not crazy."

After saying that. Airin walked past Vino just like that. It is true, Vino is not wrong in this regard. He just believes what he sees.

Airin was heartbroken because Vino had invited a psychiatric doctor for her. That's what makes Airin feel no more trust with Vino. This salama guy is next to him. Now thinks he's crazy.

"Ais, can you take me to Cika?" ask Airin.

"Good, Miss."

Ice comes out to prepare the car. Not seen anywhere mama Vino. Though Airin wanted to say goodbye would go. Airin put his feet back.

***

Sela was neat with a knee-length dress. His handbag he held tightly. He wants to meet Airin. Whatever he did to her was wrong.

What's more, Sela heard that Airin was very traumatized by it. If he apologizes in person. Airin would forgive him. He will also definitely be helped to deal with Aunt Mia.

"Where are you going?"

Sela turned her head, she found Aunt Mia standing up. With an apple in his hand.

"I want to meet a friend" Sela replied.

"Can I come?" ask Aunt Mia.

Sela remained silent.

"Alright if you don't want me to come. I can see you wherever you go." Aunt Mia said with a horrible smile.

Sela just smiled. Then he got out, Arja was still waiting for him in the car. He promised to take Sela today.

In the car, Sela looked agitated. He kept changing his sitting position. His eyes were not focused either. Arja who saw that felt very uncomfortable.

"Is there a problem?" ask Arja.

"Ti.no."

Arja stops her car and pulls Sela's hand closer to her. Sela was silent, she looked into Arja's eyes which were now very close to her.

"Tell me what you think" Arja's words make Sela want to say everything.

"A.I.I.."

"What?"

"I want to get away from Aunt Mia."

Arja was shocked to hear that. It is obvious that they often talk together. Why does Sela look so scared at the moment.

"Say your reasons. Didn't I tell you to either."

Sela remained silent. He chose to push Arja and sat back down to his seat. He looked out the car glass. Actually, Sela was afraid that Arja would know the truth. If he keeps hiding it. Sooner or later Mia's aunt will be able to get rid of her.

Arja's running the car. He drove her to a shopping mall. This time, Arja really just escorted Sela. He did not accompany Sela as he usually did.

Confused, Sela does not know where to meet Airin. If he came to that house, of course Vino would suspect him.

Brucks. Accidentally a man hit Sela very hard. Sela almost fell. Fortunately, Airin passed by, so Sela could hold on to Airin.

Unknowingly Airin also held Sela's hand. The hands he used to hold as friends and relatives.

"Airin," call Sela with a bright face.

Airin just shut up and will walk again.

"Wait," said Sela, holding Airin's hand, "I want to talk to you."

Airin let go of that hand, "Do you want to talk to a madman like me?" ask Airin.

Sela shocked. What happened to Airin really made him change. Sela saw a stick in Airin's hand. He knew Airin could not walk without help. Sela really felt guilty.

"Rin, I'm so sorry" said Sela.

"Not to apologize. It's not all your fault."

"Rin," back Sela held Airin's hand. Highlight his eyes could not be read by Airin, he looked sad.

"Come on. I'll listen to what you're saying. Come with me" said Airin.

They walk quietly. Sela tried to compensate for Airin's limped steps. Sela really feels very stupid to believe in aunt Mia. He almost made Airin die of his blind love.

Too in a place to eat. Airin chose to sit on the edge of the place. Where he could look downstairs. It was fun, Airin thought.

"What do you want to order?" fresh Airin.

Sela shook her head, "I'm not here to eat. I'm here to say something."

"Tell me."

"Actually I know who kidnapped you."

Shocked, that's what Airin's face looks like.

"Yes, this is all my fault. I loved Arja too much until I forgot my conscience. I just trust him. I even intend to eliminate you with him."

Airin could only shake his head. He did not believe what Sela said.

"I'm sorry, Rin. I'm...."

"Just tell me who he is" Airin said very loudly.

"She.he...."

Dor dor dor's. The sound of gunfire made Airin stunned. He was shocked and immediately stood up. Bruk, Sela collapsed right in front of Airin. A lot of blood came out of his body.

"Airin," called Sela very softly.

Slowly, Airin hugged Sela's body in her lap.

"My baby, Rin."

After saying that, Sela fainted. Airin remembers, Sela was pregnant with Arja's child. Airin shouted for help. Although he hates Sela, Sela is still the family left to Airin.

***