My Love My Pain
Divorce

Airin POVs

It's been almost a week in a city of people. Many things Airin does here, including helping Ms. Ann work in her garden. The rest, Airin just walked with Vino to some places.

Vino took the time to accompany Airin. Despite not saying it directly, Airin knew that Vino still had feelings for her. Despite that, Airin did not want to make a wish for Vino. What's more when Airin is still tied to another man.

"Mom Ann, is there anything I need to do again?" airin asked as they had just finished picking the apples.

Ms. Ann invited Airin to sit down and eat the apples we had picked. Airin felt very comfortable near Miss Ann. They are like close family.

"Look who's coming" Ms. Ann said, pointing to the side of the field.

Airin turned to the direction Ms. Ann pointed out. Vino, he came back here. Airin told him not to come today. Why is he always like this even though I keep resisting and avoiding, thought Airin. Vino's treatment made Airin feel very guilty.

"Mother go upstairs first. You can talk here."

"Yes, Mom."

Airin set foot to get closer to Vino who was also walking towards him. Back, he immediately thrust a package at Airin.

"What's this?"

"Just open it" said Vino.

"You've always been kind to me and given me a gift" Airin said as he opened the package.

A blue scarf with the name Airin there. Truly a surprise, he still even remembered the color that Airin liked. Foods that Airin likes and what Airin doesn't like.

"The weather is pretty cold. Wear it when you get out of the house" Vino said.

"Thank you."

They were walking in the apple orchard. There was no sound, only a gentle breeze accompanying their leisurely walk. Airin felt there was nothing they needed to talk about. I don't know, Airin doesn't know what to do right now.

"Do you know anything about your husband?" ask Vino then.

Airin turned to Vino, only this time he mentioned about Arja again to Airin. Is there something going on.

"I haven't been in contact with him for a week. Why why?"

Vino pulled out his phone and typed a few words. Then, he gave the phone to Airin.

Shocked, that's how I felt the first time I read the title sentence in the article. Airin did not expect that they would do this. They're gonna get married, not even Airin's been informed or anything like that.

"A..is this true?" ask Airin who still does not believe.

Vino did not answer. He took Airin's hand-held cell phone. Vino chooses to hold her hand and bring Airin back home. Airin could only follow Vino at the moment.

"Look," Vino handed Airin a map, "sorry before. I've read the contents of that map. Sorry I was so presumptuous."

"It's okay."

Slowly Airin opened the map. From the beginning Airin was already feeling bad about what he was about to see. That's right, a divorce warrant signed by Arja. Only Airin has to sign there.

Destroyed, that's what happened to Airin. Honestly, in his heart he still hopes if Arja looks for him and apologizes. However, the results were beyond Airin's expectations. Airin had to go back to swallowing this bitter pill.

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Since this morning, Vino has been accompanying Airin. He didn't even see his client. Surely he felt sorry to see Airin's current condition. Funny, Airin hurt and made others not do their job.

"Since then you haven't eaten. Do you want anything?" ask Vino.

"No. You can eat first if you want" Airin said with a forced smile.

Vino just sighed. Before long, Vino pulled Airin's hand to follow him. I don't know where, clearly Vino brought Airin with his car.

"Where are you taking me?" ask Airin.

Airin just stayed by Vino's side. Vino runs his car pretty fast. Just as we were on our way, Cika called Airin.

He'll definitely tell Airin about what happened there. He'll say everything. Airin better not lift him or he'll get hurt more.

Why Airin still hopes for men who can not be loyal. Airin only hurt himself, but why should Airin leave this heart space for Arja.

While Airin thought about the condition of his heart. Beside Airin was Vino, he who faithfully accompanied Airin. Although he once left Airin, at least, Vino never really left Airin. They are separated because of circumstances. Airin was confused by her own feelings.

"We have arrived" said Vino with a smile on his lips.

"really?"

Airin followed Vino's footsteps down from the car. No Airin thought, Vino took him to a small hill. It is small, but the view is beautiful.

True said Vino, here Airin feels better than before. Airin felt relieved, although there was still a feeling that he could not get out.

Vino pulled Airin's hand until we faced each other. Their eyes met, Vino looked at him fixedly. A gentle gaze however could make Airin speechless.

"Yell out here, you'll feel better."

Airin shook his head, "No. I've been better."

"Do what I say. Shout," said Vino, trying to convince Airin.

Vino made Airin agree to what he said. Airin let go of her hand and slightly moved away. His eyes looked far away, staring at what he wanted. With all his might, Airin shouted loudly. Let go of what was a burden in his heart.

Unknowingly, Airin sat down and cried. Airin was relieved, but her tears could not be contained. Airin felt extremely hurt, a very deep wound.

"Are you okay?" ask Vino who is sitting next to Airin.

Instead of the answer, Airin hugged Vino. Airin needs a place where he feels calm. He needs a place that makes him strong.

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Arja POVs

Cika turned her head with a sharp look at Arja, "Didn't I say she's busy. He won't answer my phone today."

"One more time, please. Let me talk to him," said Arja with a slight force.

Cika kicked down the table in front of her. This time Cika was really upset by Arja. Cika's eyes stared intently at Arja.

"You made him leave. You're also the one who keeps hurting her, why are you bothering me."

"Sika, I beg you."

"Didn't you divorce her. You better call yourself, you'll know what she's gonna do."

After successfully saying her anger Cika pushed Arja out of her room. With a heavy heart, Arja set her foot to leave.

The phone in his hand was still in his gaze with a chaotic mind. Arja is eager to meet and hear Airin's voice. Now, he no longer had the right to miss that woman. The woman he divorced.

"I'll call him."

With determination, Arja finally pressed Airin's number. He really did call it himself. Some of the rings were not lifted, until finally at the last ring, Airin picked them up.

"Hallo," said Airin from across the street.

Arja did not answer. He was stunned when he heard Airin's voice. This voice that had been gone one week from his life.

"Hallo, what's going on? why just shut up?" ask Airin from across there.

Arja doesn't know what to say. He unwittingly disconnects the phone and re-inserts the phone into his pocket. Arja felt herself changing at this moment.

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