My Love My Pain
Confident with a choice

After a long tour. Finally Airin arrived at the cafe owned by Kenzo. After adjusting his breath, Airin again stepped his legs to enter.

Airin was ready to hear whatever Kenzo said. Even though it was very painful for him. Eventually, I had to sacrifice for someone else.

The spring meets Kenzo. It seems Kenzo has been waiting for his arrival for a long time. This time his clothes were different than usual. He wears a suit like Arja.

"Sorry long. I've had a lot of trouble finding this address" said Airin, who sat in front of Kenzo.

"It's okay. I've ordered you a drink."

"Thank you."

It was not long before a servant came to bring two drinks. Airin positioned herself as comfortably as possible. Of course, he also felt calmer.

"Just go. You can say what you want to say."

Kenzo took a long breath. He looked out the glass window. His eyes looked empty, but his face looked agitated.

"Tell me. I'll listen to him."

"Actually..."

"Rin. You here?"

Airin turned her head and got Arja beside her. His face was full of questions because he saw Airin there with Kenzo.

"What are you doing with this traitor?" ask Arja to Airin.

"I have business with Kenzo. Who are you here with?"

Arja looked at someone. The man who delivered Arja yesterday to Sela's house. Airin saw that smile.

"Let's go. We have a lot to talk about."

Without Airin's approval. Arja immediately pulled him away. Several times I tried to let go of Arja's hand. But, the grip tightened and made Airin's wrist flushed.

"Sick to know," Airin said loudly as they reached the front of Arja's car.

"Don't get close to him. I don't like."

"You jealous?"

Not the answer that Airin got. Arja immediately pushed Airin into the car. Arja is obviously angry with Airin.

"Where are you taking me?" ask Airin.

"We're going home."

"I don't want to."

"So you don't love me anymore?" ask Arja who stopped the car immediately.

The look they meet. He needs a sincere answer from Airin. However, Airin himself did not know what to answer. This time, Airin felt his heart completely split.

The sound of car horns streak from outside. Airin realized that Arja stopped the car in the middle of the road. It even makes a pretty long traffic jam.

"Arja. Run the car" Airin told Arja.

"Answer. Then I'll run the car."

"I'm not messing around with Arja."

"I am too."

Damnit. Arja really makes Airin confused. Airin closed his eyes for a while and asked his own heart. He confirmed what was in his heart. Airin has to choose the right choice.

Meanwhile, he's out there already cursing a lot and keeps on turning on the horn. Airin looked at Arja who was still faithful waiting for an answer from her.

"How's it?"

"Yes. I love you."

"less hard."

"Arja. Let's go, don't play games anymore."

"Once again. Whisper in my ear."

Want not. Airin is approaching Arja. Airin whispered the word love in Arja's ear. With a satisfied smile. Arja slowly sidestepped her car. Make all cars run quietly. Although there is still a word of makian there.

***

After a long discussion. Arja stopped her car at a restaurant. He said he's been ordering it since yesterday. They met at Kenzo's cafe.

"Let's get down."

Airin shook his head again, "I told you. I'm not hungry, I just want to go home."

"Come on. Let me make you happy."

Deg. It felt like Airin's heart was beating hard enough after Arja said that. Things Airin had never heard before from Arja's lips.

"I want to go home." Airin insisted on going home.

"Sorry for a long time" Arja said after she finished calling.

Airin just nodded.

"I'll take you home. I have a sudden meeting."

"Yes." Yeah."

On the way to Sela's house. Arja doesn't talk much. He smiled more and looked out at the glass. As expected of Arja. And that's a big thing.

It was a long time to get in front of the house. Maybe because of the silence that haunts them. Without words and without jokes. Want to open your voice, but afraid to interrupt. So, I prefer to be quiet.

"Thank you" said Airin as soon as he got to Sela's house.

"When are you going back home?" ask Arja.

Airin just shrugged his shoulders. There is no definitive answer to Arja's question. In fact, to say I love him alone is very difficult.

"You can go home whenever you want. I will never let you go. Remember that."

Airin only let out a long sigh hearing Arja's words. He really won't let go of Airin. In fact, Airin often asked her to separate. But in fact, Airin could never leave his side.

"I'll go first. I'll call you back."

Airin waved her hand, accompanying Arja's departure with her car.

"Hayoo's. Happy again."

I don't know when Sela was there. Airin felt embarrassed, she was embarrassed if Sela heard her conversation with Arja.

"You hear everything?" ask Airin to Sela.

"Little bit," said Sela with a smile.

They went inside the house, it was getting cold outside. Look at the table in the living room that looks messy. Obviously if there were just a guest. Maybe some people.

"Who's coming?" ask Airin to Sela.

"My buddies. Oh yeah, there's a break from Vino. I put it in your room" said Sela with a funny smile.

"What does your smile mean?"

"You and Vino..."

"Don't think strangely. I've made my choice. I'm not getting a divorce with Arja."

"Why?" a questionable gaze was highlighted from Sela's eyes. He doesn't look happy.

"The client knows. I'll go to the room first."

Airin leaves Sela upset at not getting the answer she wants. From the beginning, Sela preferred to see Airin with Vino, not with Arja. But now, Vino had already chosen his way of life. Airin should do the same.

***

After you finish drying the towel. Airin went back into the room. This atmosphere made Airin choose to relax his body. Remove all fatigue in the body.

When Airin will lie down. He accidentally dropped an item. Airin remembered, if it was Sela who put that thing. Airin opened the parcel quickly. A book called Way Love.

There was a letter saying that Vino would choose his own path. He wants Airin to do the same. Sometimes, the path they take will be painful.

Ting. A message came into my phone. Vinos.

Vim. If we are friends, we will meet.

Airin's smile expands reading the message. He really is the Vino that Airin used to know. Vino is always there when Airin slumped.

Now, Airin is convinced to return to Arja. What's more, the obstacle is gone. Although Airin does not know the real reason about Arja divorcing Maya. Even Maya looks very depressed.

***

Arja sat with a sharp look at Kenzo. He was unhappy with what Kenzo did today. Kenzo met Airin secretly.

"What would you say to Airin?" ask Arja.

Kenzo nodded and chose silence.

"Are you going to tell me the truth?"

"Where is it possible."

"It's good if you don't say it. If I knew you said it, I wouldn't hesitate to make your lover more depressed."

Kenzo nodded, "I know."

"good. I'm going to go now."

Arja took the suit she had pinned down in the chair. This time Arja almost lost Airin completely. Fortunately, Kenzo could still be silenced with wealth.

Kenzo kept silent and looked at Kenzo's departure. She feels hurt looking at Maya right now, but she is also unlikely to continuously sacrifice her lover for the sake of an asset.

***