My Love My Pain
Not the Airin Plan

Airin's hands were still trembling as she sowed flowers at Grandma's navel. He felt very guilty for not being able to accompany her in the last moment of his life.

Tears of Tear still dripping. If only yesterday Arja wasn't there. Airin will definitely be at Grandma's funeral. However, what happened was unexpected. Airin even had a big fight with Arja and ended up leaving Airin from Arja's house.

Airin remembered his childhood. She and Vino are always with grandma. Even when Airin grew up they had to separate. Vino follows his mother out of town, while Airin follows his uncle to the city.

"You here?"

"Yes. Sorry I couldn't come yesterday" Airin told Vino.

Vino looks healthy and bright. Maybe because he was happy.

"I knew. It just so happens that you're here. Here, my wedding invitation."

Deg. I was surprised to hear that from Vino. Just like yesterday Vino was chasing Airin. Now, Vino has chosen his path and leaves Airin feeling uncertain.

With trembling hands Airin took the invitation. Slowly, Airin began to read it. I didn't expect Vino to accept to marry Cika.

"You know it's not. I can't keep chasing you. You already have a husband" Vino said.

"Yes. Youre right. Congratulations, yes" said Airin with a smile that he forced.

I don't know where that pain came from. Airin felt a great pain hearing this. Yes, Airin no longer has the rights to Vino. Airin could only pray for him now.

"Honey. Still long?" Cika came and immediately took Vino's hand, "You're here too?" ask Cika to Airin.

Airin nodded, "I'll excuse you. It's been so late."

"Be careful, Rin."

Airin just smiled hearing that word from Vino.

"Watery." Call Cika before Airin actually leaves, "Thank you. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be close to Vino."

"Either. I'll go first."

Airin felt strange hearing Cika's thanks. It was Airin who tried to bring them closer. But now, Airin himself felt hurt. What's wrong with my heart? stupid me, thought Airin.

***

Tired of having to walk far enough from public funerals. Not because you do not want to ride a taxi, just feel more calm your own way.

Arriving at the house Sela Airin directly in. No one, Airin chose to sit down and rest her body.

"Home home?"

"I don't think you're home" said Airin, shocked to see Sela coming out of the kitchen.

Sela smiled and sat next to Airin. He said he was going to be overtime. It turns out he was home before Airin came home.

"So Arja from here. Nyari you," said Sela.

Arja here? why is he here? he could send me a message. Think Airin.

"You're asked to go home." Sela looked at Airin who was still silent. "Who's invitation?" Sela immediately snatched the invitation in Airin's hands.

"That's an invitation from..."

"With Cika? why don't you ban it?" shouted Sela at Airin.

"Why should I ban it. You know, we've got our own paths."

Sela just sighed. He had not expected Airin's answer to be like this. Airin was still lucky not to choose Vino at the moment. If he had chosen it, Airin would have been hurt again.

"I'll go to the room first, Cell."

Sela just nodded her head. Airin took the phone from inside the bag. No messages or calls from Arja. Why did he come here to take Airin home.

Arja and Vino's opposite attitude. Make Airin feel different when on their side. Airin felt very hurt when he was with Arja. However, Airin felt very protected by Vino.

***

Tok to tok. Several times Airin had heard the knock on the door. But no one opened the door.

Airin lazily opened the room door and walked towards the exit. It doesn't seem like it's in the house. I don't know where it went.

"Good afternoon."

Plaque. It's not a greeting that Airin got. Except a very hard slap. Airin raised her face and looked at Maya with a sharp look.

"May. What are you doing?" ask Kenzo.

Why do they know Airin's here? it is so easy to find in this city.

"Please come in."

"Why did I get into this ugly house. I'm just here to get you hurt." A knife is drawn before the eyes of Tirin.

Maya brandishes the knife to Airin brutally. Several times Airin tried to avoid. Even Kenzo could only silently watch Maya do that crazy thing.

"Why are you doing this? what wrong? Kenzo stop this lover of yours. Are you crazy too?" airin shouted with a very scared heart.

If Airin rekena that knife. Most likely Airin will feel a terrible incision.

Hap. Kenzo finally gets Maya's body. With a chance, Kenzo can throw the knife in Maya's hand.

"Airines. I'm so sorry. Next time I'll explain everything" Kenzo said with a strange look. Maybe he felt very sorry for his girlfriend.

"May. We go home first yes, tomorrow we come here and make a lesson for Airin." Kenzo said with glancing eyes at Airin.

After Kenzo takes Maya into the car. Airin was still pensive on the terrace. What really happened to Maya, she's not what she used to be. He looks so fucked up. Airin thinks that Arja has done something terrible to Maya.

"Airines. This is my cafe address. We meet here tomorrow. I'll explain everything."

"Why not explain now?"

"There's no way I left the chaotic Maya alone. I have to go."

With a small run, Kenzo returned to his car and immediately gas. When viewed from what Maya did. This time he hated Airin. He even wants to physically injure Airin now.

Airin has to be careful this time. Everything has gone awry since Airin allowed Arja to remarry. Airin thought his life would be freer. But Airin was getting more and more tormented.

Looking at the chaotic living room. Slowly Airin began to clean it up. It wouldn't be nice if Sela came home and saw this. Airin will be increasingly burdening Sela.

"Excuse me."

Bummer. Arja here, this time it's not the sharp gaze that Airin gets from her. However, a gaze that he had always given to Airin.

Airin's body is vibrating. Afraid that the man in front of her would return to Arja yesterday. Arja who often hit him and hurt his heart.

"This. I just want you to see this, after that, you can decide whether to come back or not."

Arja throws a map at Airin. After that he immediately stepped away. Outside, Airin saw someone accompanying him. The middle-aged man who looked very attentive to Arja.

The man opened the door and spoke to Arja several times. Arja just nodded and occasionally gave a smile to the man.

The spring was again fixed on the blue map on the table. Slowly his hands filled the map, afraid that it would be a kite of divorce from Arja. True a kite divorced, slowly Airin read it.

Fear, surprise and disbelief. However, Airin was more distrustful when he saw the name that was divorced with Arja. Not him, Maya. Now, Airin knows why Maya did something crazy to him.

Airin looked out again. Arja's not there anymore. Is it possible, Arja did this for him. Or there's another reason why he divorced Maya in a hurry. Now, Airin must again feel a dilemma. With her marriage and her feelings.

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