Healing
104. Pros & Cons
" How ?, do you agree with the terms I proposed?, shouldn't we both be one Ra...., Shaka will definitely be very happy if he knows his father and his biological mother to be a real husband and wife" said Yoga with his eyes still the same as before.
The gaze of the eyes with so much love and affection, it's just that we were both consumed by persuading the devil to do a momentary pleasure which was a fatal mistake.
" Now everyone agrees with our marriage, as if nature supports us to unite. There is no longer anything that opposes and hinders our relationship Ra, without us having to elope or marry under our hands. Because your parents and my parents all agree, so do our friends".
" Especially Shaka, she'll be very happy, because that's what she told me".
" When I left, I didn't know if your marriage to Bian had failed" either ".
" I heard the news that Utari was the one who told the Bian family the truth about you, when I heard the news, Shaka heard it too, Shaka feels very guilty for the failure of your marriage to Bian. He sees himself as the reason your life is never happy".
" That's why Ra, I beg you this very much, I must again force you to obey my wishes, but this time for the happiness of all of us, this time for the happiness of all, not only did I want our marriage to happen, but Shaka and my friends were expecting the same thing".
It is true that everything Yoga says now supports our unification, inversely proportional to our circumstances 14 years ago, where so many opposed our relationship.
As yet I gave an answer, Shaka went into the room to join me and Yoga.
" Dad still loves big brother so much, from the past until now, I can tell that, because for a year I lived with him, he never had contact with another woman, he said, even the personal assistant in his office only om Haidar, father is not looking for a beautiful and sexy woman like in other companies".
" Try to accept your father and forgive the mistakes he made before him" Shaka said.
It turns out that Shaka does not hate Yoga in the slightest, even though he was left behind since he was still in the womb, but indeed Shaka still has Papa Tono who became a surrogate father since he was born, maybe that's why Shaka feels he never lacks the affection of a father figure because there is a surrogate father.
Even now she's asking me to agree to Yoga's request that we get married as soon as possible.
But isn't it weird that Shaka calls?, he calls Yoga fatherly so easily, but he still calls me sister even though he already knows that I'm his real mother.
" I'm going to talk about this with mom and dad first" I said as I went out of the Yoga room.
Haidar was still standing in front of the room, while Mama was no longer there. I walked quickly through Haidar just like that to my papa's room in the hospital. And when I got there, it turned out that my mom was sitting on a plastic chair next to my dad's bed.
" Ma, Pa.", call me, make them both look at me at the same time.
" How did Ra?, did you manage to persuade them to drop their demands equally papa?", asked the curious papa.
Did you not tell papa who really hit papa?, then did mama also not tell papa if the terms they proposed were asking me to marry Yoga?.
" They want to drop the charges against papa, but by filing Pa's terms" I replied.
" What's the condition?, why don't you tell papa that they're on condition?".
Mom stood up straight from her seat. " Do you know what conditions they apply?, they ask Raya to want to marry a person who papa hit" said mama lirih, worried that the patient being treated next to Papa heard our conversation.
Papa was immediately shocked to hear the conditions requested. " How could they apply such conditions?", papa was still astonished and felt strange.
" Because the one you hit was Yoga, Shaka's real father. Now Shaka was in the room guarding his father who was lying on the patient bed".
" So mama thought Shaka came here because he heard the news that papa was being treated here, and wanted to see papa, but it turns out that Shaka came here because he wanted to see his father there", mama said with disappointment.
Papa was moved to see Shaka who came and asked him the news, papa waved his hand asking Shaka to get closer to the bed, papa woke up from his sleep and hugged Shaka tightly when Shaka was right beside him.
" Papa no papa, just a little blisters, given the red medicine will also heal, how are you?, you look taller and fatter than the last papa see you. Surely your father has taken good care of you" said Papa while releasing his embrace.
" Shaka is good Pa, what a true papa said, dad took very good care of me. If Shaka is missing papa and mama, I must have asked Shaka to ride his bike and see you from afar. Shaka wants to say hello, but Shaka thinks that if he meets you, Shaka will find it difficult to go again with dad. That's why Shaka only sees mom and dad from afar".
" Shaka just found out that the one who hit the father was papa. I'm sorry that I deliberately made your difficult position even more difficult. Dad was just confused and ran out of ways to get Kak Raya to marry him".
" If Shaka may give advice, mending kak Raya just agree with the terms that father submitted. And Shaka hopes that mom and dad will respect their relationship as well".
Mama and papa looked at each other, feeling that Shaka's speech was like a very wise adult.
" Don't you hate your father son?, he's been leaving you since you were in your mother's womb, he's left you . Do you know how hard your mother struggled to raise you without the support of a husband beside her?".
" The abuse, the mockery, the rude speech and the scorn of the people around your mother made your heart so painful, even more poignant because we had to accept all that, she said, we can't avoid bad names and nicknames against your mother".
" As for your father, where was he then?, he didn't even appear as your mother struggled between life and death to give birth to you".
" Your father's family told your mother to eliminate you while you were still in the womb. Even your midwife's grandmother gave your mother some medicine".
" We've been watching all these dark stories when you were a kid, we didn't want you to grow up with a moral burden on your shoulders. That's why we decided you to become Raya's sister, which means you become our son".
" At that time Raya was not married, because your father did not want to marry her, she just wanted to be nice, after impregnating people's children, she ran away and hid behind the backs of her parents".
" Papa does not matter if Raya does not agree with the conditions proposed, if indeed papa must be imprisoned for having hit the bastard papa is not papa. Had you known if the guy was him, you would have had papa gas screwed his bike so the bastard was hurt worse".
Indeed, every time I remember my past as if there is no apology door for Yoga which is the main cause of the beginning of destruction in my life.
It turns out that in contrast to the mother who has begun to forgive Yoga, in the heart of Papa is still very angry and hate him. Although Yoga has shown good faith by taking care of Shaka for one year.
" But Pa, don't you feel sorry for your mom, if you're in jail, who do you live with?, Raya and Juna are all gone. Papa have heart if you live alone?, mama does not want papa imprisoned, mama does not want", mama's voice is quite loud, making some families of patients who are beside papa staring at us.
" Is it more important to your ego than to think about how your future life would be if you had to go to jail?", you started to get out of control and cry near me.
" No papa attach importance to papa's ego, papa just want Raya happy ma, papa does not want to force the will so that Raya agrees with the conditions they propose. Raya has only briefly felt happiness in her life since she lived in the city with Juna".
" There everyone respects and loves him. There is no scorn, mockery and scorn of the people around like when Raya lived here. That's why you don't want to sacrifice your happiness just to save yourself".
" What kind of father is willing to sacrifice his daughter's happiness for her own safety?", said Papa who returned to lay himself in the patient's bed.
I was more confused to see the attitude of mama and papa who had different opinions. All this time I've only met the two of them not a single voice.
Papa fell asleep back at us, I opted out of the nursery and Shaka followed me, as did Mama who came out. In front of the room, my mother held my hand and begged me to agree to the terms that Yoga proposed. So did Shaka, she begged me to marry Yoga.
" I went to the bathroom first", I said goodbye to Mama and Shaka, honestly I was still confused about what decision to make. One side I don't want papa in prison, but on the other hand I don't want to marry on this basis of coercion, even I don't want to get married at all. After the failure of my marriage with Bian, I felt that marriage was no longer important.
I am happy living alone, there is no burden in life, willing to do anything as I please. But what's the fate of papa if I don't agree to their terms. Yoga really sucks. Why does he always put me in a difficult position.