Healing
9. Was Born

The time passed felt so slow, the more days my stomach grew bigger, and now all the activities I did were very limited. Sleep was no longer able to rest, because the movement of the baby in my stomach was more active. Want to be stretched hard, tilted was difficult, it felt like carrying this stomach like carrying a load everywhere.

I was getting bored every day at home. It feels very longing to go around the streets while riding a motorbike looking for fresh air. But I was afraid someone else would see me.

My body is getting fatter, especially my stomach is already very big. My pregnancy has entered the 9th month, it means just waiting day or night for me to give birth.

My mom and dad are still going to work. At work my mother was only given permission for maternity leave for 3 months, and my mother had applied for the permit, just had not received confirmation from the office.

It's okay, because I don't think I'm going to give birth right now, maybe a few more days, because I still very rarely feel contractions. Ms. Ara said, if it is near the day of giving birth, pregnant women will often feel the contractions of the uterus. But until now only occasionally in a day I felt the contraction.

Every few hours papa sends a message to ask me how I am, I think papa is actually worried because my pregnancy is nearing the time of delivery.

But if you don't go out, Papa will definitely be confused to feed me and my family how. Because the salary you get is still used to install the motorcycle installment, while the rest is saved for my labor costs later.

Until this moment I still troubled my parents, making me determined to work hard after I gave birth, I will definitely make sure to work and meet the needs of the little one and the needs of my family no matter how.

A week later, Mama got her permission to leave, and Juna was taking her final semester exam. Because now is the time for a class test.

My classmates have finished their graduation exams, just waiting for the results of their struggle, between graduation or not, and the graduation announcement is tomorrow. Fortunately, they no longer come to my house, so they do not see my condition.

" Have you not felt the tightness in your stomach yet Ra?, your estimate of giving birth is 3 days away, you should have started having false contractions".

Mama repeatedly asked me about my situation, but I have not felt anything until now.

" Do we need to go to Ms Ara's house again ma?", because it is approaching the day of labor movement from inside my stomach I feel less and less.

" Yes already, later that night, wait for a quiet situation, because if this day must be a lot of people on the road. Afraid someone might see you". That's what my mom said.

After Ashar mama went with the neighbors to attend the wedding of a neighbor's brother who was in the next town, they entourage to the event by taking a ride on odong-odong.

But before nightfall, precisely when the Maghreb approached, I felt my stomach suddenly feel wrapped around like squeezed and tense, also cramping.

At that time papa just came home after narik ojek, papa asked because he saw the expression of my face in pain while rubbing my large stomach.

" Is it painful for Ra?, it seems like she's giving birth to Ra!. Where is your mama?".

Papa's voice sounded panicked. At this time my mother has not come home from the condangan with the group, but my father looks very panicked to see my face is pale.

" Can you hold onto Papa Ra...?, we go to Ara's midwife's house now?". Papa seems increasingly confused about what to do.

After getting me on the bike, Papa took me straight to Ara's midwife's house, without putting on the jacket or other gear that my mom used to wear to me to cover my big belly.

When the motorbike came out of the alley, we passed by the odong-odong used by the group of mama and the mothers of the neighbors of the house who had run out.

Of course, all eyes were on me and Papa, but because of panic, papa did not care about the situation around, Papa continued to advance his motorbike so that I immediately get handling by the midwife.

" Loh that Kingdom why Win?, he shoots really, brought the same Tono to where it is?".

I still have time to hear some mothers asking my mother when we passed by. But there's not much I've heard because papa keeps pushing his bike.

Shortly after I arrived at Ms. Ara's house, Mama and Juna followed us. Mama brought the maternity equipment that had been prepared some time ago.

" New opening one , still very long until full opening, this will wait here, do you want to go home first?, first birth usually opening slowly".

Ma'am Ara tried to explain.

" We just wait here, ma'am, can we?, if we go back home, maybe more people will see the condition of Raya... just now the friends who meet together have seen the belly of Raya who distended. I was confused as to what to answer".

It turns out that Mama looks angry because the mothers of the neighbors of the house saw my situation. Surely mama was angry, because the secret that was sealed so far was revealed in a short time. All because I was in pain and Papa panicked.

Instantly many people deliberately passed in front of the house of Midwife Ara and looked inside. Fortunately, Ms. Ara understood that and closed the door to her house.

Maybe they want to see and make sure I'm really pregnant or not. I still have contractions for a few minutes. Maybe because this is the first, so I thought I was going to give birth. It turns out that the word Bu Ara is still old, only opening two, and still have to wait a few hours.

I started to feel exhausted from repeatedly pushing my stomach like I was pushing by myself. I didn't try to push, but my body reacted on its own.

" Do not push first yes mba Raya. his energy is saved to push later when it is time", said Bu Midwife.

Papa and my mother did not sleep last night, including the midwife who saw my condition for a few minutes.

" How's Ms Ara?, is it a full opening?".

I heard Mama ask me again when Ms. Midwife checked my way, it's 3 in the morning, and I've been lying on this bed all night. Why has my son not been out for so long, but I have been in a lot of pain since yesterday afternoon. Does this feel like giving birth?.

I stroked my stomach slowly, and inwardly said, "My dear child, come out immediately, do not let my mother be in pain for too long, please come out".

I cried so much that I endured the pain in my stomach and the path of my birth. Mama who was angry was still kind enough to give support so that I was strong and patient.

Until the chicken tree sounded unpretentious, Ms. Ara looked back at my birth path.

" It's time, now Mba Raya can take part in straining if her stomach feels like straining, it means that the little sister again pushes to get out, mba Raya help her baby by straining too".

I nodded weakly, as if my strength was running out. Good thing, Ms. Ara put an infusion hose so that I get nutritional intake.

Ms. Ara gave instructions that I take a deep breath and let out through my mouth. And when the urge came, I immediately pushed as hard as possible so that my son was born soon. I don't know why I suddenly saw a shadow of Yoga's face flashed as I tried to push with all my might.

Could it be that he was thinking about me, so his face flashed as I closed my eyes.

I heard the sound of a baby crying after several times I strained. My son finally came out after a struggle with the pain all night I felt. Current time shows 6 o'clock over 10 minutes. My son was born too. Thank you, Lord, for your mercy.

Ms. Ara immediately wrapped my baby in a cloth after cleaning the remaining blood stuck to her body. Then hand my son over to my mother.

Mama Vienna received while crying, whatever made her cry, maybe happy, maybe also sad.

After handing my baby over to Mama, Ms. Ara went back to inspect my birth canal, and reached into it, clearing the remains of dirt from my body, after putting ari-ari in the container that had been provided.

" Mba Raya is a bit held for a while yes, this is a torn birth canal, so it must be sewn to return back".

I just nodded at the words of Ms. Ara, who now carries the equipment to sew my birth path which she said was torn wide enough.

I felt pain and pain very much again, because it turned out that Ms. Ara was running out of anesthetics, and she sewed my way of birth, without drugging her first. It's a very 'fun' taste, and I'll never forget.