Healing
146. What It Is

Shaka Pov's

" You plan to continue college where Ka?. have you chosen the University that you will enter?, surely you are not confused and afraid of not being accepted, just like me, as well as me, there must have been some universities that sent letters and offered scholarships for high-achieving students like you" asked Adel.

My father did invite Adel's father and his family home, I don't know what my father planned. But I'm pretty sure you're up to something. Because this is the first time I invited a stranger into our house.

Adel had been my toughest rival in school, but I always managed to beat him, until we were both 12th grade. One more stage until I can be declared an absolute win from him. The final exam that will determine who the real champion is.

Since then I have chosen to play with Syifa, because today my mother did not come home. Mama and Papa are away umrah, and there is only Kak Juna who lives at home alone.

I did call Kak Raya 'mother', because she was my real mother. But I didn't change my calls to Mama, Papa, and Kak Juna, I still called them by the same name as before. For me it feels closer to the old name, than to change into a grandmother, grandfather, and Uncle.

As I was playing around with Syifa, Adel quietly approached towards us. Syifa who has never seen Adel of course immediately away when invited shake hands.

Syifa ran over to me and asked in the carrier. Syifa doesn't seem to like Adel very much, I don't know why, but it's better than Syifa dropping on the girl who's my rival, it's better this way.

But Adel did not give up, he kept coming closer and invited me to chat, as if we were close friends. Even though we had three years of one class, we were not that close when we were in school. I don't like hanging out with girlfriends. I deliberately kept my distance from women, so as not to cause many problems in my life.

Adel asked this and that, almost all the questions he asked, and I just answered as necessary.

Except for the last question that asked me where I wanted to continue my education.

" I want to go to a college in a faraway place, where I can learn to live independently, without anyone knowing who I am, who my parents are, and what my family background is. I want to make friends and get to know people who are sincere and want to be close to me because of what I am".

Once I saw Adel stunned, but only for a moment, because then we called my mother to lunch together.

At the dinner table, there was no sound, except Syifa who still occasionally asked for help to get side dishes and vegetables.

After the meal was over, my father asked me something that I thought was quite strange to Adel.

" Is Adel at the school close to Shaka?. Um look at you two talking a long time ago".

Adel just smiled, but he shook his head. Thank goodness she didn't pretend to be close to me in front of our family. Because that's how it really is, we were just classmates, never played together.

" Shaka is the same kind of girl Om, she has a lot of friends, but her friends are all guys. Adel knows many girlfriends at school who often come to class and bring gifts or gifts for Shaka. But the same Shaka has never seen the contents of Om, the same Shaka was immediately given to Anas, if not to Galih, who yesterday together with Adel Nengokin Aunt in the hospital".

This Adel besides being annoying, it turns out he's a ngadu as well. It made me dislike his attitude even more.

Fortunately after eating, Adel's family said goodbye to go home. If not, I would have intended to leave the house.

Suddenly it rained in the afternoon. It has entered the rainy season, so some days the rain can fall suddenly, just like that without cloudy warnings first.

Soon the door of my room was knocked, and entered Kak Juna with slightly wet arms. Maybe he came with a motorcycle, and only wore a short coat, so that part of his arm was a bit wet.

" Once there are guests Ka?, very tumben this house the arrival of guests... new age this time I saw a guest come to this house".

Brother Juna wiped his arm with my towel in the bathroom, then joined the rest beside me.

" Pad's guest, Kak Juna Tumben Sunday off?, usually Sunday workshop keep open?, is it because mama and papa are not there, so lazy brother Juna?".

Now Kak Juna is no longer working in the region, already a few months ago he began to pioneer the workshop business. Of course working with my mother as an investor. Even though Kak Juna already has enough savings. But to open a car repair shop that also provides spare parts, Kak Juna is still not able to stand alone. That's why my mother offered to cooperate with him.

" The workshop is open, more crowded even.but there are already sister employees in the workshop, Brother is not feeling well, so brother came here who has friends, at home alone. Brother finished taking medicine, want to sleep here".

After explaining, Kak Juna really went to sleep, maybe he felt very sleepy, or maybe the effects of drugs taken made him sleepy and immediately slept easily.

I checked Kak Juna's phone that was placed next to me, actually accidentally, just curious because it was lit up, and there was an incoming message that I accidentally read.

It looks like Kak Juna is approaching a girl, on the phone screen the contact of the person who sent the message is named 'Bungaku', and the message I accidentally read read reads.

" May Brother soon recover after taking the medicine, do not forget to eat regularly, and rest enough so as not to be tired".

Doesn't that sentence seem so attentive and romantic. Or maybe it's because I've never messaged a girl friend like that. Not yet, for me being close to women will only hinder my process to success.

I'm just learning from my father's and mother's past. I don't want to misstep like the two of them, and there will be another Shaka born into this world. It's enough that I feel what the confusion is like to be in a position that is all wrong.

How not to go awry, I can't blame my parents who were clearly guilty of having an illicit relationship and formed me. The result of the mistakes my father and mother made.

It's true that I like Kak Bian, and want him to be Kak Raya's husband, but that was when I still called him Big Brother. Because now he is my mother, and only my father can be united with my mother.

Another one that makes me feel wrong. At the beginning of knowing the story of my past, I actually wanted to be very angry with my father, but I did not do that. My common sense prevented me from scolding my real father.

I give high appreciation because my father who is a young businessman, successful, handsome, and admired by many women, it still put his heart on my mother. My mother was a nobody, a woman with a million flaws.

If only I would, I would have gotten a much better woman than my mother. But not dad did. When I think about it I think, from the past until now, my father really loved my mother, and I was the fruit of their love. I was formed based on the love between my father and my mother. Not because of a mistake. That's why I can forgive you. I can accept it with open arms, even though he abandoned me for a dozen years.

Or rather, father had not dared to act decisively back then. I don't have the power that I do now. Now who doesn't know my father, a young, successful businessman, with a beautiful wife, a happy family. That's why many want to come near me because I'm a father's son.

Staying a few more months I'm done in High School, and after it's as planned, I want to study independently, I want to find a friend who really sincerely wants to be friends with me because of what I am, not because I'm Yoga's father's son.

And the only way I have to get out of this house, and study independently is somewhere else, where people don't know my father.