Healing
89. Where's Shaka?

" Don't make me an excuse for you to run away from your wedding tomorrow. Honestly, I used to object to your and Utari's marriage. Not because I was jealous, but because I felt sorry for Utari, who was about to get married based on a family compromise".

" There are so many secrets and lies that you and your family have done to her. To a good girl, but not to her fate until she marries you".

" But my thinking changed when Utari came here last night and told me that you were being honest, and told me all the secrets you've kept from everyone".

" I hope that your marriage tomorrow will continue. Because you are open to each other, there are no secrets and you have been honest with him. Moreover, I know very well that Utari loves you very much, and still loves you even though she knows you do not love her, even she accepts all your shortcomings. You will be very sorry if you do not marry a girl as good as Utari, you will no longer find a girl as good as her".

I finished talking, also finished cleaning the leaves, just take a washcloth to clean it. But the sky can no longer hold the cloud that is now turned into rain drops that begin to wet the earth.

" Ra... is there not the least love left for me in your heart?, I know you are very disappointed in me for all the mistakes I have made, he said, but I want to make up for all my past mistakes by making you my wife, we'll stay at our house, with our son Shaka!".

It was raining, but Yoga still talked to me.

I stared intently at Yoga, "I've said it over and over again, I can't, and now there's no point in you being responsible. I no longer need accountability from you. And one more thing I reiterate, Shaka is my son, even though you made me pregnant, but you have no right to admit that Shaka is your son, since you disappeared just like that when I told you that I was pregnant, you have no right to claim to be her father!".

" You better go home Ga, I want to go in, never come here again, and never see me again!", I said, bringing a pile of leaves into the house.

After putting the leaves in the kitchen, I deliberately went into the living room to see from the window, what Yoga had gone, or was still outside. Yoga is no longer there. Good then, at least my family no one knows if Yoga is coming.

I went into the living room, there was Juna and Mama who were busy making cakes. There are no neighbors who help, because the next door neighbor of my house is an old husband and wife, his children have a family and have their own home. Next to the garden, and next to the river. That's why there are no neighbors who help, especially mama rarely join the neighbors, except when shopping at the vegetable maker.

Outside the rain has fallen rapidly, just like yesterday, even today it rains early. Mama deliberately has not dried the laundry because since the morning has been cloudy, and true to guess, today it rained again.

" Shaka where is Ma going, where is it raining and even out of the house?", I asked, when I did not see the whereabouts of Shaka in the house.

" Loh, ten minutes ago mama asked Shaka to call you, tell her to come in the house, because drizzle, why did she even come out?", said the mother wonder.

" Ten minutes ago..?, but Shaka did not call Raya ma...., Raya entered because of her own will".

I remember, ten minutes ago, I wasn't talking to Yoga, wait...

Shaka overheard my conversation with Yoga. I had to immediately find Shaka and ask if she heard my conversation and Yoga or not.

" Mom I went out for a while for Shaka ya Ma nyari, just a minute", I said goodbye to mama, I don't know why I suddenly felt so worried.

The black umbrella became the protector of my body from the swift rain.

If it was true ten minutes ago that Shaka left the house and heard my conversation, then he heard when Yoga said he was Shaka's father, hopefully Shaka didn't hear our conversation. That's what I was hoping for. Because if Shaka had heard and known everything because of our conversation, I would have felt very guilty.

I came to Shaka's friends' house one by one, because Shaka was quite nice and had many friends at home, but Shaka wasn't there. I tried to check into the field, into the river and to where Shaka used to go, but nowhere was there. Where's Shaka?.

I choose to go home first, who knows Shaka has gone home, but when I get home Shaka also has not come home.

Mama and Juna have finished making 15 sponge cakes for tomorrow's treat. " Where are you from Ra?, say you want to dance Shaka, even until the new day back, lha Shaka where?, do not you meet?", asked Mama who was washing the old baking dish of sponge cake.

" What's the matter?, you are really worried, you will also go home alone, why in search" said Mama still talk casually.

" Shaka seemed to have heard the conversation Raya had earlier, she probably heard the time Raya said she was the son of Kingdom Ma....".

Mama immediately stopped her work, and looked at me, as well as Juna who was sweeping the floor immediately stopped her work, and walked over to me.

" Kak Raya is indeed chatting with whom, until it says if Shaka is the brother's son?, all this time we are deliberately silent and do not tell about who Shaka really is, Shaka, how can the secret that we have been keeping all this time brother unloading just like that", I look into the worry on Juna's face and also mama.

" If Shaka heard and knew the truth, and she felt sad because all this time we lied to her not-don't".", mama began to panic like me.

" You two quickly find Shaka right now, see you. No one comes home if Shaka hasn't met!".

Mama yells telling me and Juna to look for Shaka, I know your affection for Shaka is so great, greater than your affection for me or Juna. Maybe because mama feels sorry for the fate of Shaka, because she is the child of an illegitimate relationship, and the desire of mama, Shaka should not know the truth. Actually that's what I want, too. Do not let Shaka become inferior, or sad because he knows the truth.

I went back out of the house, as well as Juna, we both split up to find Shaka faster.

God, protect my son wherever he is, why do I feel bad like this. I was so worried that Shaka left without saying goodbye, and did not return, because he was disappointed with the reality of his life.

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After looking for Shaka all day, until night, we didn't find him. Even papa came along looking a little far away. But the result was nil, we all did not manage to find Shaka.

I'm getting scared that if Shaka goes far away somewhere, he's too small to survive out there. Hopefully he will be home soon.

Or did I ask Bian for help?, it occurred to me, but it must be where Bian is now with his father and mother, also gathered with relatives, because tomorrow they will come here. Why should this happen at such an inopportune time.

I regretted my decision to let Yoga speak here, I should have followed him to go and talk to him somewhere far from home. The story will be different, Shaka won't hear things he shouldn't hear, and he won't leave the house as he is now.

Maybe I shouldn't ask Bian for help, I should be able to solve the problem myself. But if only by my ability and my family, maybe until tomorrow Shaka has not met.

Finally I remembered Yoga, maybe I should ask for his help, he had many people who could help find Shaka.

I took my phone and called Yoga, of course, without any other knowledge.

" Ga, please help me find Shaka. Shaka left the house, he heard our conversation this morning, he knew that I was his mother, and from morning until now Shaka had not returned home" I said directly to the core, no pleasantries.

" I'll look for him, you take it easy, Shaka will be found soon, I'll call you later". That's all Yoga said, he just hung up on me.

I hope Yoga goes straight to Shaka, and finds him soon. I'm so scared that Shaka's why-why. The rain all day never subsided, if the umbrella in the house is still intact, means Shaka came out without an umbrella, if he was wet and did not come home until night, I fear he will get sick and fever.