Healing
40. Debates

" Steve, if you may know, how many times have you climbed Mount Rinjani?". Utari began to open a conversation with Yoga, because since then Yoga has not once invited him to talk.

" Four", answered Yoga briefly.

Just that word alone comes out of the mouth Yoga, it is very irritating and annoying, how do they both get married if they never communicate?. Or Yoga like that because there is me?, maybe Yoga will talk a lot with Utari if they are just the two of them.

It was just my thinking, because how could Utari survive so far if she did not get good treatment from Yoga.

" Steve is indeed the fourth, if I, Riko and Bian already the fifth, because the first time climbing in Rinjani Steve was sick, and could not come".

" That means the first time when I was in 11th grade if not wrong, the day after Steve's 17th birthday, because what the hell was Steve sick.... ?".

" Oh yeah, Steve was back in town he said he wanted to visit his house, but instead he did not know where to go, he did not return home, he said, the surprise party that his mother had prepared was chaotic because Steve did not come home until morning. Where were you at that time, bro?, all night did not go home, uh in the morning, back and forth immediately collapsed, shivering, but his body was very hot, fever". Haidar still remembers the events of almost 10 years ago, when Yoga did not return home on his 17th birthday.

Because Haidar, Bian and Riko had to go look for him down the streets in the city, when it rained, but the results were nil. Yoga does not exist in all the usual places to be their tongkrongan.

Where was Yoga at that time?.

No one knows, because until now Yoga still does not give an answer to anyone.

" So you're still wondering where I was?, it's been almost 10 years, but I'll tell you. I was hiding in a garden in front of someone's house. Figuring out how the man was doing, kept hiding and watching the house, but I didn't dare to go out, or show up, and asked him directly how he was doing".

" For all the inhabitants of that house hated me so much, a great mistake I made, and made them all hate me so much to this day".

" Have you ever been in a position like me?, making mistakes and not being forgiven for a lifetime, doesn't that make me feel like I've been the most useless human being in my life".

Yoga told me a story while occasionally glancing at me, I just found out, if she ever came to the house and observed our lives. 10 Years ago, I had not dared to leave the house, the days were just busy taking care of little Shaka and rarely went out.

Yoga came to the house. He was stupid or he didn't understand, if I hated him so much at the time.

" What mistake have you made until they all hate you that much?", asked Utari curiously as she looked at Yoga's face with a sad look in her eyes.

" Steve has reneged on their promise and disappointed them", it was Haidar who answered Utari's question. " It was because of that experience that, all this time Steve rarely chatted and connected with many people, he did not want to talk much, and promised others, but could not keep it, he did not want to talk much, and promised others, it will make others disappointed in him.

" Is that why you rarely talk to me Steve?", muttered Utari .

I could hear her murmur, but Yoga seemed to not hear and would not respond.

" If you just renege on promises and disappoint, everyone has made such mistakes, then why should they hate Steve so much ?, maybe the disappointment that Steve has done has hurt those people so much".

I went along, because Yoga was still the same as it used to be, a cowardly man who did not dare to tell his true mistakes. What did he say?, reneging on promises and being disappointed was certain, but what was his main mistake?, if all his friends knew, they would all be shocked to hear it.

" What mistake cannot be forgiven?, God alone is Oft-Forgiving, why do we as his creation have to harbor anger for so long ?".

It turned out that Bian had already woken up from hearing my voice.

" It may be a very fatal mistake, the effect of which is not only felt at that time, but has an impact on the lives they have lived their entire lives", my words still cannot be accepted by the opinion of Bian who says God alone is Oft-Forgiving." Man is man, cannot be equated with God".

" Where do I know, I'm not a God who knows what Steve did to them, people who can't forgive him. Just ask Steve, what he has done to the point that there are people who can not forgive him until that time".

" I think Steve's mistake was fatal, because since he was asked, he kept quiet and did not want to tell the real answer" I said with the annoyance that began to appear.

" That's just your feeling, Steve's not that bad, by making a fatal mistake when he's so young, kids make mistakes sometimes, and those people should forgive him",

Bian still stands up for Yoga. Don't know what made him so trusting in that loser's Yoga.

" Already..so..why are you two so noisy. Soon we reach the airport ', Steve also has the right not to answer other people's questions about his past life", Riko turns the wheel towards the airport.

I was silent and no longer spoke, my mood was broken and if I spoke it would only come out sentences that were not pleasant to hear.

We got to the airport, I got out of the car first, and took my backpack that was in the trunk of the car, as well as the others. Not a word came out of my mouth, I was still holding back my emotions from earlier.

" Here let me bring the backpack", Bian offered to bring my backpack, but I refused, I could bring my own things, no need for help.

" I can take it myself, you can take it with you" I said as I followed Riko and Haidar who had walked first into the airport. I passed the Yoga that had been staring at me with a gaze that I could not understand.

" Was he mad at the chatter in the car?".

I could hear Yoga asking Bian. But I don't know what Bian's answer is because I am in a hurry and away from the two men, preferring to join Riko, Haidar and Utari.

After taking care of everything at the airport, we got into the cabin of the plane, honestly I don't understand how the process of buying tickets and all sorts of things, I just followed the others, and showed them the letters they requested. And now, I've been sitting in the cabin next to Bian's.

" I'm sorry, you're angry about what?, I haven't done anything wrong since?, or did my words in the car offend you?", Bian began to approach me and tried to persuade me not to continue in a bad mood.

" Oh, don't talk about it anymore, I don't like to talk about unimportant things over and over again".

I deliberately raised my voice so that Yoga sitting right behind Bian could hear him. Since then Yoga still looks at me, making me feel careless because it is on the eyes.

What else is not aware of his behavior that has since continued to look and stare at me?, if until Utari realized and knew the story of our past, maybe he would be very hurt.

The plane took off, and I felt a little groggy, but it seemed like Bian was aware of my nervous attitude, and Bian invited me to a chat to relax.

" Okay, we discuss the other, now we discuss later when we get there, about half-hour 11 noon, we immediately take public transportation to the foot of the mountain. We rest, eat and pray Dzuhur first. Only then do we climb directly".

" We look for the easiest route, so we can get to the top of Rinjani before Maghrib time". Bian and others had predicted the climb to the summit with the longest duration because it brought two women who had just come to climb the mountain.

" So we have to get to the top before Maghrib?, we continue to go down at night so?", I asked softly, because I had never been to a climbing event before.

The plane was not shaking as hard as it was, I seemed to have flown above the clouds, I dared to look out the window of the plane, and right. Bian managed to distract me so that I wouldn't be afraid.

" It's not so, after reaching the top, we make a tent there, we can make a bonfire to warm the body, and chat until we sleep, after that we rest in the tent tonight, and then we rest in the tent tonight, you can be as tent as Utari. And the next morning we can see a very beautiful view at the top of Rinjani, at sunrise. After a bit of luck, we just went down the mountain".

I nodded in understanding with Bian's explanation which was quite easy to understand.