Healing
125. ' MOTHER '

" Eemph.", I'd love to push right now, like there's a push from inside my body that makes me feel like pushing.

" Do not push first Mba, saved first the power to make later. If mba continues to push, later can swelling of the birth canal, continue later it could be fitting to give birth the energy has run out first", said the nurse while putting an infusion hose on my hand, because I look pale and limp. Indeed my energy feels drained because since then like wanting to push.

" I'm sorry, how can my wife give birth quickly?, let her not feel pain for too long?", Yoga seemed very worried to see me repeatedly take a deep breath, and then took a deep breath, and let out slowly through the mouth with an expression of enduring pain.

I've also actually been holding back from pushing, but I've been held still wanting to push on, somehow.

" Try Mas pilin******wife, maybe that's enough help" said Miss Midwife without shame.

" This is not vulgar, sir, in the medical world it is like that" said the nurse explained.

" Should I do it?", asked Yoga still holding my hand.

I shook my head, not that I didn't want to be helped, but I'm ashamed that Yoga does it in front of other people, who are nurses and midwives.

" If it feels like a contraction again, take a deep breath, and take it out slowly through the mouth, it will reduce the pain when the contraction" Mother told me while checking again the flow path.

The midwife said the birth canal was fully opened, and I was allowed to push back if I felt a contraction in my stomach.

I remember last night Yoga suggested that I go into labor cesar, because he didn't want me to feel so much pain. And in Yoga thinking, cesarean delivery will be faster.

Though to me that is not true, the process of recovery of cesarean delivery is longer than normal, let alone the situation of me and the fetus in my stomach are all fine, is not it better if I give birth normally, if I could.

A midwife and a nurse were standing at the end of the bed to help me with my labor.

Yoga stood tremblingly beside me, holding my right hand which was also holding firmly on to her. I can see Yoga also held back the tears that were about to escape his eyelids by occasionally looking up.

So this is what it feels like to give birth accompanied by a husband. There was a day that came up because I felt my husband was so worried about my situation. She cried to see me in pain as I was about to give birth to her child.

I no longer envy my friends who give birth in the company of their husbands. Because right now I know what it's like.

Since I got here, Yoga never said a word, he just went in and kissed my forehead, cheeks and lips, he wiped my face with his lips. As if she was telling me she loved me so much. The grip of his hand gave me the strength to get even more excited.

And when I felt the contractions again, I pushed as hard as I could, I squeezed the hand of Yoga so firmly, but my baby had not come out, and then the armament broke.

" Come Mom, get excited, a little bit more want out this baby, the hair is visible, let's Mom immediately push the strong if the baby does not come out", Mother midwife gives me the spirit.

And when I felt the contractions again, I pushed back with all my might, until I screamed, until something big came out of the birth canal, my baby came out and there was a very loud cry.

" Eaaa...eaaaaa...!", the sound of baby crying filled the delivery room. No tears dripping from my eyelids, happy tears because it has managed to fight to give birth to my baby, my heart, likewise with Yoga who can no longer stem her tears and continue to thank while kissing my face.

Thank God hirobbil'alamiin, I can do it again, for the second time I struggled to give birth to a very funny baby.

After being cleaned and examined, my little daughter was put to sleep on my chest to feel warm, as Yoga approached and whispered the adhan in our daughter's right ear.

I was more and more moved to see this moment, the moment my husband was pardoning our newborn son. In my heart I am grateful and happy with this moment.

After the nurse cleaned me and my baby, we were moved to the hospital room. Yoga chose the best room for us.

Shaka who had been waiting for my delivery and listening from the front of the delivery room immediately hugged me when we reached the hospital room. He cried as much as a child who was afraid of being left by his mother.

Moms

I didn't hear wrong because I gave birth right?, Shaka called me 'mother'. He changed his call to me. I'm so grateful for that. Finally after a long time patiently wishing for Shaka to change his call, and today he did, Shaka called me 'mother'.

I was so happy I could not speak, we both just hugged each other and cried together. Until we did not realize that mom and dad were already in the room and watched the heartwarming scene that was happening in the room.

Mom came and hugged us both.

Yoga also witnessed the heartwarming moment while standing next to the baby box.

" Shaka already wants to call Kak Raya by the name of mother, why?", I can hear the voice of the mother who asked Shaka in front of the room.

Right now, the nurse is cleaning my body, which still has a lot of blood left after I give birth, is also about to change my clothes with clean clothes, and all my family are told to go out of the room, except Yoga. Yoga hasn't wanted to get away from me since, as if he wants to be around me.

I tried to listen to the conversation of mama and Shaka, because actually I also wanted to know what reason Shaka opened his heart to call me 'mother'.

I put my ears well, hopefully the little henchman, not suddenly crying, so I can hear clearly the conversation Shaka and mama in front.

" So while I was waiting in front of the delivery room, I saw other mothers who were also about to give birth, but unfortunately she had bleeding so much before giving birth. I saw the mother in a lot of pain and tried to hold her back. Then Adrian's doctor said the mother was deprived of blood due to continuous bleeding, if too long and not immediately in transfusion, her life could drift. But fortunately he was immediately taken to the hospital and received medical attention, so it could be helped".

" Is it really that people give birth that hurt Ma?, I so think, if working to be a doctor it turns out to be a very noble job, can cure the sick, can save people's lives. At first glance I want to become a doctor after I grow up" said Shaka.

I could hear Shaka still calling mama with the same call, not turning into a grandmother, even though she changed the call to me to 'mother'.

So that's why Shaka changed his call to me, he felt that the struggle of a mother giving birth was so great, because her life was the stakes.

So a doctor, Shaka found his purpose in life because he drove and accompanied me to give birth here. I am grateful that my son's ideals are so noble. I hope that what is his good will be achieved.

The nurse finished cleaning my body and changed my clothes for a clean one. Yoga preoccupies ourselves with staring at our little princess who has been neatly wedged and sleeps soundly in a baby box.

" It's over, Miss Raya, excuse me" said the nurse who had just helped me clean up.

Indeed, I was still asleep since then, said the doctor Adrian postpartum can not immediately sit, must remain asleep for 6 hours, can move tilted to the right or to the left if feeling the heat of his back.

After 6 hours, and feel the state of the body is fine then allowed to sit and after a while only allowed to stand and walk if you feel the state of the body is fine.

Yoga came straight back to me because the nurse was out of the room.

" Do you want to eat something?, let me tell Shaka to find it with mama".

I was very tired and hungry after putting all my energy into getting the baby out of my stomach.

" Could, I was really hungry since then, buy anything up to Shaka and mama, which is important to make me full" I said while grimacing because I felt a blood clot coming out of the birth canal.

Now it's only 5 in the morning, I haven't gotten food rations from the hospital, maybe the food vendors out there aren't there either, it's too early, it's too early, that's why I say any food is up to what can be found so early, the important thing is to fill my stomach.

Yoga went out and called Shaka, spoke quickly and Shaka nodded and left with her as soon as Yoga finished talking.