Healing
152. Bonus Chapter

Raya pov

Since Shaka went to college and spend time in Jogja the atmosphere of the house has become very quiet. Especially in the first few weeks, the difference really felt. The joking jokes that are usually heard between Shaka and Syifa are no longer heard.

Syifa's first weekend never ceaselessly asked to go to Jogja, to the boarding of her brother, Shaka, me and Yoga also obey Syifa's wishes, and came to Shaka's boarding houses with delivered by Juna.

The cost of Shaka is not too small, but also not too big, the standard if I think, is enough to live a bachelor who only sleeps alone, the furniture in the room is also very little, as per Shaka's daily needs.

But what I saw was that the atmosphere in Shaka's cosy neighborhood was very quiet, probably because of the weekend so that Shaka's room neighbor was going home, or was just taking a walk out, because when I was there I did not meet with the other residents of the boarding house. But when I asked Shaka he replied that such an atmosphere was normal, and it seemed that Shaka did not bother with such a quiet environment.

That's why I don't ask anymore, I think Shaka lives there. That was my initial impression. Because after a few months later, I heard from Shaka if he finally moved boarding. I leave all the decisions to Shaka, because he's the one who's living it. So moving costs is not a problem either.

Since Shaka's departure, the days I spent taking care of Syifa. Every day goes by full of drama, from which Syifa asks Shaka to come every weekend, or ask me to call Shaka and tell him to come home. Sometimes I follow Syifa's will, but more often reject it. Because Yoga work is very much and can not be left at will.

Until at its peak one day when Syifa and I came home from the tutelage, Syifa asked me a baby sister, Syifa, because he saw one of the other guardians waiting for his son to learn while bringing his second child who was only 7 months old.

" Mommy, Syifa is lonely at home, try if Syifa has a rich baby sister Reihan, Syifa has a play at home" said Syifa.

Along the way home until the car reached home, Syifa continued to whine for a cute baby sister. Though I had intended not to get pregnant again, before Syifa was 6 years old, because I deliberately installed KB, so that I could devote my attention fully to Syifa. But the funny thing is Syifa who now asks for a baby sister.

Yoga who saw Syifa's attitude as if protesting because of feeling lonely had asked me to release KB so I could get pregnant again, but I refused.

" We follow Syifa's will, who knows after having a baby sister she becomes obedient again, the thought will become more mature darling...".

" It can't be that way, baby, because having a baby will be pregnant for 9 months, and my attention will definitely be focused on the baby, and Syifa will be neglected. Instead of solving the problem, it will add to the problem and bother" I refuse, as Yoga tries to persuade me to obey Syifa's wishes.

After listening to my explanation Yoga no longer asked me to obey Syifa's will, maybe she became open minded, pregnant and giving birth was something that was side by side, and needed a struggle for both.

But on the weekend of the 4th month after the departure of Shaka, I and Yoga had to obey one desire Syifa that we had rejected. Namely bring Puput, ART who worked in Fila owned by the late Bu Herni to come and live together in our house .

At that time I, Yoga and Syifa went to the top to attend an invitation from Mr. Abas who was about to marry his daughter. That's why we stayed at the top one night.

In fila Syifa really looks happy because there is Puput who became his playmate for the whole day. Syifa no longer whines and asks for this. For the last 4 months just that day no drama happened. But the drama came back when we were going home. Syifa did not want to separate from Puput, and this time could not be diverted as before. Syifa insisted on taking Puput home.

After I thought I and Yoga finally agreed to Syifa's request, perhaps by bringing Puput home, Syifa would no longer feel lonely, would no longer ask for a baby sister, she said, there will be no more drama every day.

And sure enough, ever since Puput lived in our house, Syifa looks very happy. No more dramas that happen every day, Syifa seems to find a replacement for Shaka at home. No more asking me to call Shaka and make a video call, no more asking to go to Jogja every weekend. I was very helped by the existence of Puput.

In addition, I can go and do activities outside without inviting Syifa, such as going to accompany Yoga to meetings of fellow entrepreneurs, sometimes invited important events in city hall, and also to attend, and other official events that require Yoga come with me.

Puput can really be relied on for Syifa, he seems to know what Syifa wants, he is also very fast mingling with other ART that works in my house. Even with my sister Juna, she was also very familiar, I could see they were now quite familiar, especially after the two of them I had asked to pick up Syifa at the tutoring place, because that time I had to go to an important event with Yoga. The two of them became closer and closer.

I know that because seeing the interaction between the two of them that looks relaxed and familiar.

Pups are very adaptable and get along with all age levels. But strangely when Shaka returned home on semester vacation, he seemed to not like the existence of Puput in our house, especially with the attitude of Puput who according to Shaka was familiar with the other residents of the house. Though I think Puput never excessive in attitude.

Only Shaka seems to dislike the existence of Puput in our house.

It is possible that Shaka feels jealous of Puput, because Syifa is no longer sticky to him, Syifa's world seems to have switched with Puput.

At that time Puput came out from the back door that was in the kitchen, and Shaka called his name a little harshly. Perhaps more precisely not a conversation, but more like Shaka who was threatening Puput.

I heard what Shaka said, although it was unclear, but I was still able to catch what was said to Puput.

" Why did you stay here?, didn't I say I didn't agree to you staying in this house?. Don't mess with my family, if anything happens to my loved ones, don't blame me if something bad will happen to you like I told you before....!".

Puput looked down, but after Shaka finished talking at length, Puput looked up and looked at Shaka with a gaze that I had never seen before.

" Young Master take it easy, I will not hurt Madam Raya or any other family member. You good people, I will try to make your family happy, and if something happens that you are worried about, I will take full responsibility for everything that happens, if it happened because of a mistake I made".

That was the answer that Puput gave, but as if locking Shaka's mouth, made Shaka no longer speak, and Puput went to leave Shaka who was still dumbstruck beside the kitchen.

I who was going to the kitchen to get some drinking water to take to the room had to rush in and pretend I didn't listen to anything, I was actually curious about what happened, but I don't want anyone else to know, and I want to investigate it myself secretly.

Until within a year of Puput living in our house, I could only get the answer.

All related to the past of the Yoga family, Puput is the daughter of the woman impregnated by Om Kenan the younger brother of the late Bu Herni, his mother Yoga.

Out of nowhere Shaka can find out who Puput really is, even though Yoga does not even know it.

Or maybe because they are both fateful, both born from fetuses to be aborted, and equally the result of an illicit relationship. I was actually very curious where Shaka knew the information about Puput in such a short time.

I tried to ask the truth to Puput, asking directly to me is the most appropriate way so that all the curiosity and possibilities that arise can be answered as soon as possible.

Puput answered all the questions with a well-ordered sentence and a very calm expression, as if he had prepared himself to answer if at any time I asked him all the things about him as I am today.

" If only my mother had been a little braver like Madam, I might now be a very lucky child like Young Master Shaka, it's just that my mother's determination wasn't as big as Lady Raya's, mother chose to end her life after giving birth to me, because there was no family that gave support to my mother, my mother was guilty from the beginning to know my father, and only mistakes and mistakes that continue to be done, he continued, so grandparents are hard to forgive mom".

" From childhood I tried to find out who my real father really was, after I learned the story of my mother's past from the aunt who took care of me since I was a baby, I only lived with one purpose. To be able to meet my real father somehow".

" But I haven't met him until now, it's been almost 19 years, but I haven't managed to reach my life goals".

I'm concerned to hear a short story about Puput's life. Because it turns out that there are others who feel that their lives suffer more than my life in the past. Until he prefers to end his life, because it is no longer able to face how cruel the world is to play with his fate.

Maybe his mother Puput chose to end her life because she felt she had failed to become a good daughter, because she had tarnished the good name of her family. Moreover, Puput said if there is no support from his grandmother and grandfather.

A young girl who is pregnant without a husband and without a marriage, while her parents also can not accept her condition. Surely his mother Puput felt alone, and there was no point in him living. Just trying to survive until Puput was born, he himself chose to end his life.

Actually, just as I felt when I found out that if I was pregnant, it occurred to me that I just aborted the fetus in my stomach, I better end my life as well. But at that time my father and mother gave me an apology and an opportunity to atone for the great sin I had committed. They gave me moral support and trust that made me feel like I had a new power to survive and take responsibility for all my actions.

I must turn my past mistakes into successes, of course, by continuing to live and care for and educate my son, so that Shaka will be useful to others in the future.

It feels very heavy journey of life that must be passed after getting the stamp as a dirty woman, a cheap woman, a girl who can not maintain her purity. But for me it would add even more sin if that filthy cheap girl ended her life, unable to account for her deeds.

All of these are the life choices of each person. Only the person himself can change his own destiny.

Now that I have obtained a better life, all the sadness and pain I feel I will make a lesson in life, and I keep it as a memory of the past that I will never forget.